I am scared since I have never had any surgery in my life, but excited!
Still an allergy sufferer, In my early 20's I got a terrible chronic sinusitis infection that lasted nearly a month. At the time, I thought I had some other kind of illness and I ended up going to the ER since I had no health insurance. The physician diagnosed me with Chronic Sinusitus, prescribed some antibotics and eye drops, and I finally started to battle the infection that transpired from the infllammation of my sinuses.
I suspect that during that long bout of illness, my face was so swollen it pushed the little fat pads in my lower eyes out so much that after my sinus infection finally relaxed, they just couldn't return to normal. Prior to my sinus infection, I never had eye bags, and eye bags didn't appear to be hereditary as my family actually aged very well in that regard. As is likely notable in the photo to you, my lower eye bags are also quite asymmetrical.
Some days my eye bags fluctuate from looking like I stayed out too late, and some days they look like I got into a fight. As a manager of a large call center, I am tired of my staff asking me, "Did someone hit you?", "Have you been crying?", or, "Whoa, rough night, huh?" when I got a perfectly normal night of rest. '
What is doubly frustrating is when I reveal my insecurities and discuss the prospect of corrective cosmetic surgery, folks close to me say they do not see anything wrong with my looks. On one hand, I believe them. They may see me through a personal lens, and likely overlook flaws and just see me for "me". Kind of the way you may ignore your spouses mole, or scars, and see only the beautiful physical traits, and are blinded by the flaws they may have. I tend to view many others like that, focusing on their beauty rather than obvious flaws, which I wouldn't be surprised if others do..As well, beauty is in the eye the beholder, ( and, for another adage, we are our own worst critic).
Since I have gotten pretty good about posting photos with specific angles and wearing some bad-ass Smashbox concealer, some folks may think I am crazy when I explain I want to have a lower bleph. Then I just show them my photo without makeup, good lighting, or editing....and then they see what I mean.
While I am fully aware that looks are not everything, and looks fade, it would be nice to have that aspect called to my attention nearly once a week. At a "relatively young" age, I feel my lower eyes have experienced premature aging due to the physical stress my sinus infections pose.
I think that I have researched this for so long, and "paid my dues" mulling over whether or not it is worth it to invest in my physical form and perception of beauty that, it is time. Through all the time I have spent looking inward debating, "Am I such a vain person?" I have come to the conclusion that you don't have to explain to anyone why you are going through with your surgery, and, it doesn't make you a "bad person" to invest in yourself, and, you shouldn't feel bad for caring about your appearance if it is a realistic possibility you can alter it in a positive way, even, if it is an extreme situation such as going under the knife versus putting on a little eyeshadow.
I have waited a long to commit to surgery as I didn't want to just trust any doctor to touch my face with a scalp, or, a laser- which is the technique Dr.Yielding uses! I had various consultations from other plastic surgeons in Orlando who perform blepharoplasty, but none that had her same set of accreditation or portfolio of results. It does not hurt that her staff and office are also quite amazing, so far, along my journey.
Dr.Yielding is an ocuplastic surgeon and ophthalmologist, and board certified. It makes me feel more confident to know that I am in capable hands of not just a surgeon that has studied plastic surgery, but an MD that has a true breadth of understanding to eye anatomy specifically, so my eyesight may be protected and I may get some of the best results.
Surgery is scheduled for nearly a month out and now I am reading everything I can about recovery. I think I most afraid of the anesthesia, as my Dr. uses propofol for a twilight sedation (I don't like feeling out of control or "high"). Dr.Yielding assured me that her anesthesiologist monitors her patient closely, provides an oxygen mask, and chooses propofol rather than general anesthesia so her patients can breathe on their own, and recover more quickly.
Here is hoping all goes well! I will have an update after my pre-op which is on November 28th.