30yearsLater - Wilmington, NC

Hi all, I posted a comment 7 days ago under the name 30yearsLater as that is how long I have had silicon breast implants. I am having problems with my right implant, a large dent on the side of breast & I am not sure of what is going on. I seriously want to see a doctor about explant surgery. First, I am seeing my GYN & hoping she'll get me in fast for a breast scan. Hoping at this point that it's an implant problem and not breast cancer! It has been a long 30 year journey.. I got implants at 25 years old just because my breast friend wanted them & a friend in the adventure. Yes we were both very small chested. Now at almost 56, Looking back all I can think is Wow! Learn, Learn & Grow(UP). I was unhappy from the beginning with the implant, mostly because I went in with perky cute boobs and came out lop sided and to big( I was 30 pounds if not more smaller than the last 20 years).. About 100 pounds soaking wet then. I had problems from the beginning, hardness and the doctor would manually squeeze and break up scar tissue( awful)!! I saw 2 other doctors earlier on in 1980's and did not have more money to spend, one doctor seemed think I looked just fine, and did not want to explant. This was all during the class action suit time with Dow. I did speak with an attorney and pretty sure I signed up to sue but moved several times, divorced, re-married almost 20 years ago and just really forgot all about it. Now I have NO proof of it being a Dow implant.
Life gets so busy, times even years fly by. About 12 years ago, I developed a rare neurological condition and I have had rashes comes and go as well as hives since shortly after.
I do think the implants are toxic esp after reading Dr. Susan Kolb's book.
Another interesting, disturbing thing is during a mammogram I was told one implant is under the muscle and one is over the muscle, which clearly is not what my doctor told me.. Both were to be placed under.
For those who saw my comment about needing to talk to my husband, who has never known me without implants. Well, I did that today. He wants me to see a doctor right away, I showed him the dent on right breast and he looked afraid for me. Which has made me feel anxious inside( outside I am calm)... Just me,
I am posting a few pictures. I do not have any nude pre implant pics as my doctor left the country with all records in late 80's & computers were not around back then to upload pics to.
I am so thankful to have found this site. I am reading non stop everyone's stories.
Hope I have not rambled on to much.
I will post again after my doctor visits. Also I do not have a date set yet for anything but this site wanted me to put a date & cost before it would post, so I did.

1983..age25
5'2"
100-105 pounds
34A
After silicon Implants a full C ( asked for a full B)
2014..age55
5'2"
135-140 weight
36-38 C..some D's depending on the bra

Well.. Here I am updating already and no, have not seen my doctor(s) yet.
First thing this morning I made an appoint to see a plastic surgeon who is on this site. This was after reading ALL profiles of everyone in my town.
Nervously called, when ask what is your reason I said explant. That felt odd to say. I was thinking I bet most say, I want Implants!
My appt. is one week from today.
Already feel like butterflies are in my stomach!
Today I went for massage, I have a membership that my husband got me 2 years ago. With a history of frozen shoulder( same side as dented breast) and general aches esp in upper back & shoulders.. Massage gives me temporary relief.
As I was being massage, we started talking about books. As we are both avid readers, the LMT & I.
She asked me what I had read lately, I hesitated but said"from Harm To Healing" by Dr. Susan Kolb. The title interested her so I went from telling her about the book to my own Implant story. She was so calm and concerned. She talked of the media & how she feels it gives women a hard time just being natural. She is 30 years younger than I am( the same age I was when I got the Implants)! She is tiny and small breasted like I once was.. It was good to just talk to a young woman who is small and comfortable with herself as see clearly seems to be. Again past memories have been surfacing like I am back there again in 1983... I think wow if only someone caring & knowledgeable would have stressed you are perfect just as you are. Would I have listened? Maybe!
Now fast forward through 30 years, many attempts in the first 10 years anyway, to be seen by Dr.'s, to say I am not happy with these things inside me.. The profound depression the first 5 years after. Then life took over, helping my kids to grow, going back to college for my R.N. , divorcing & remarrying, moving & then the last 12 years of serious health issues & enjoying my grand babies.
The last 7 months, I have moved my mom into my house as she is in end stage cancer..
The dent in the breast.. It is there and it serves as a reminder to take care of myself.
My LMT stressed to me today, You MUST take care of yourself!
So finally, I am preparing to do that.
This Friday, I will see my GYN, without doubt she'll order a breast scan, Monday I see the plastic surgeon.. Probably will not even yet have the scan and/or results back.
I am mentally preparing myself now to look ahead.
It is time for a doctor to listen and to help me on this journey that I feel I must make, for my self, for my well being.
I want to get back to my natural state of being whatever that may now mean.