33 Year Old Woman, Implants 14 Years, One Child (18 Months) Time to Get Back to Me :-) Westbourne, GB

Hi,
Firstly I am so grateful for finding this website. All of you women are amazing to have shared your experiences on here. You have all truly inspired me to make a decision and express what I am feeling at this moment in time.

I am a 33 year old woman, I have one child who is 18 months old and has completely changed my life for the better :-)

I have implants which are now 14 years old (gulp) under the muscle. I think they are 350cc (can't remember it was that long ago).

I am 99% sure I want them out. I'm not sure why I had them in the first place if I'm honest. At the time I think I was slightly insecure, just wanted bigger breasts. I was of such a tiny frame. From the age of 15 I just knew I wouldn't have big breasts so in my mind I decided that I was going to have breast implants as soon as I could afford it.

By the age of 19 I booked my surgery with transform medical group. I was determined to go ahead with surgery. My date finally arrived, I travelled from
B'ham to Manchester! When I arrived I had conjunctivitis so the surgeon told me he could not go ahead. I was so gutted. At that point I actually was not going to have the implants. Anyway a Month later I decided that it was what I wanted... So here we are....

I had my consultation today with Dr Fatah at the Westbourne clinic, Birmingham. He was very understanding and helpful. I explained that there was nothing physically wrong with my implants, they look great but it's just not what I want anymore. As I've got older, had a child my prospective on life has completely changed. I don't want to have these great big heavy balls on my chest anymore. I honestly feel like I look ridiculous with them. All of my friends and family know I have them. Although a lot of people understand and accept me for having them I still feel like people just stare at me or talk about me behind my back because I have implants. I sometimes can't help but get paranoid that people only know me as 'the boob job girl' ha. Although I shouldn't let it bother me, it really does ... Sometimes.
Anyway I was watching an American reality tv show called 'wives of orange county' or something like that. There was a woman on there called Tamra. She is in her 40's absolutely stunning and she had these humongous breast implants. I remembered looking at her and thinking, I wonder if she is truly happy having breasts that big and so high on her chest knowing that is all you can see. I don't judge anyone who has had implants, I have! It's just I can't help but notice how much society has changed, I notice people striving for this look of perfection. So long story short, she decided to have her implants removed. Omg I could not believe how amazing she looks now au- nat-ur-al. She really inspired me to look at myself and it made me think about my health and the reasons why I had them in the first place.

So that's a little background about me.
I am going to make a decision very soon. I'm usually quite a spontaneous person but regarding this I know I want to do it, I guess I am a little afraid of the way they will look after and how I will mentally cope with such a drastic change.

I will keep you all updated on my progress. I know it's going to be an emotional and mental roller coaster but I'm sure this is what I want :-)

I will upload some photos very soon when I am feeling braver.

thanks for reading x