Week 2+ - West Orange, NJ

I was in an accident two weeks ago and broke my nose and eye socket. I also had a laceration on my forehead that required 30+ stitches and is healing well. At the time of my accident I saw Dr. Peck in the ER and he had stated that my nose could possibly be snapped back into place. Once I saw him for follow up, however, he stated I would need surgery to fix the break and realign my nose. It's pretty bad.

I had always thought about a nose job, but had learned to accept my nose as a part of me. It is unique, but many people have been attracted to me for having a rather prominent nose (yes people have said that believe it or not). I was initially just going to have my nose popped back into place considering it is the least invasive treatment. Regardless of the method needed to fix my nose, I knew I wanted my nose back to how it was pre-accident. Having my glasses sit crooked on my face is not something I could live with. Since Dr. Peck deemed I would need surgery to correct the break, I have elected to have some additional refinements done. Considering I have to endure an invasive procedure to fix my nose, which is not an option to skip, why not have a little touch me up? "Kill two birds with one stone."

I am getting nervous though. I hope he does a great job and makes me look like a better version of myself. I do not want to look plastic or artificial. My mother has friends who had horrible results with rhinoplasty, but I believe it was due in part to having very unrealistic expectations for how they should look. Dr. Peck was able to identify my concerns with my nose and inform me how he would address them. He made it clear that I had to be realistic, which I am. He also understood me when I repeatedly said I just want to look like me, but more refined. My examples of the procedure I like is that of Jennifer Aniston's. While I do not want her nose, I think the surgeon did a great job because he subtly enhanced her natural beauty. I feel like he will do a great job and just enhance my appearance.

But I'm still scared. My mother is flying out to be with me for the surgery and help me for a few days post op. My fiance will also be there and he has been amazing through this whole ordeal, but he sure deserves a break. I am blessed to have people who love me for me, regardless of me choosing to do this surgery. I am so lucky to have a man who makes it clear that if I choose not to fix the break he will still love me and think I am the most beautiful girl in the world.

It will be ok because it has to be. I'm staying positive.

In less than 12 hours my mother will be here and at this time tomorrow I will put my trust and faith in the plastic surgery team. At this point I am feeling positive. These past few days at work have been difficult since EVERYONE has a comment on how I look now. I am going through with this, however, for me. I want to feel positive and beautiful again. My nose crooked is just not something that I would have been able to be happy with so this is the right decision for me.

The surgery was completed by this afternoon, but I cannot fall asleep. I'm wondering if this is a side effect of Percocet? I have no idea how I look under all this gauze and tape, but I'm feeling hopeful.