*6 Months Post-Op* 23, 34A to a 34D, Wellesley, MA

After years of talking about it, I finally made the decision to schedule a BA. I have no idea what to expect because I can't imagine my boobs looking normal. I've made the choice to go with 325cc silicone implants under the muscle... but I'm really stressing over that decision. All I want is nicely shaped, natural looking boobs and I just don't know what will be too big or too small. I'll probably schedule another appointment with my surgeon before surgery day just so I can get his opinion. Things were a bit rushed at the initial consultation.

I'm adding pictures of my chest as it is now (very flat) so that I have before pictures to compare the results to!

Officially one week away from surgery! I'm pretty nervous considering the fact that I still have not received my pre-op/post-op info packet... I really have no idea what to expect. I feel like I should be getting prepared but I'm not sure how to prepare or what to buy.

I'm also freaking out because my parents would be so, so upset if they found out I am doing this. They would be mad that I'm spending money on it and that I'm taking an unnecessary risk... but to me it feels so necessary. Anyway, I have no idea how much I'll be able to hide this from them. I'm 5'7", 140 pounds and I'm getting 325cc silicone... so I'm hoping that it won't be too noticeable in clothes. I wear very padded bras right now so I'm thinking that there won't be much of a difference. Mostly, I'm worried about how much I'll be able to hide the fact that I just had surgery. I know that recovery times vary from person to person, but I am hoping that I'll be able to resume normal activities within four or five days because I am supposed to see my family on the 4th of July. I just don't know if it's going to hurt to hug people? or if I'm going to be able to lift a gallon of milk/carry a bag with me? Is any of this realistic?

The thought of not running for a month also terrifies me... I want to be ready to run after two weeks but I know that I am going to need to heal. I'm just freaking out so I had to write this all down!