Yes, me too.
I have held in any emotion about my breast surgery from the late 90's to my shame, pain and misery I have carried up to this day. When I did the breast augmentation, I told one friend. Mostly because the Dr. requested photos. Other than that I was on a forum, similar to this, but ironically it was where you had cheerleaders telling you to go for it! And now, I do need, women who can support me in my decision to remove them.
I was in a terrible space when I made the decision to have my surgery. My bf at the time was a cheater. He also would constantly make comments about other women's breasts, and had no problem staring at them, any chance he could. I also found out he had an addiction to porn. My self esteem hit a record low, I hated my lopsided small droopy breasts. I began looking at how much sexier women looked (or so I thought) with fuller breasts. So I began obsessing....took me maybe a year to save enough money and also to choose a Dr. The rest I will not really share, as yup, got Em in. Way larger than I wanted. Never, felt comfortable with them, and up to this day, hate being in anything showy, since they are just "fake boobs" to me. Yes, I cringe when someone hugs me, get uncomfortable when someone talks about "fake ones" even tho they are not referring to mine. So, in the last 10 plus years, I have worked out hard, ran marathons, did an ironman, kept pushing thinking that would make me feel better about my body?! Never worked.
And today, I finally released my tears and my story with my friend. You know when you cry so hard you think a lung might burst?. Or a breast might fall out!! ???? if only it was that easy. It felt so good. We, in our years of friendship, never talked about it. And now, she 100% supports my decision to get them out. So I am now doing my homework. I live in the carribean, so want to probably head to somewhere close to, but not opposed to going somewhere besides Miami. The airfare and distance would be manageable.
I am looking for an experienced Dr. In removals. Would prefer local, as I had a tough time with the anesthesia the first time. Tho I healed very quickly and had zero scarring. I do not have all the details, as my original Dr. after a week has not responded, so I am sorry to not provide more info. I was a small lopsided b cup and really wanted them more even with a little fullness. You will see from photos the are like 2 rubber balls on my chest. I recall him going thru my aereola, and think he actually made that smaller too as one nipple was larger than the other.
Ladies, your stories prompted me to finally stop my silence and pain and depression and shard it here and with a friend. If possible I would like to fly up around Thanksgiving for my first consultantion, and then work my way financially and mentally to getting them removed, next September. My friend said she would come with me. That is a true friend.
If you would openly or privately share your Dr. Recommendations in your area, I am hoping I could do at least 3. I am not interested in having smaller ones put it. I am on the team of get these out of me, I am accepting of my droopy little ones, an seriously want to wear a bikini on the beach again!! I wear clothes more to try and hide them, than I do trying to show them off. I miss wearing tank tops, and little dresses that I did pre big boobs. I made the mistake of doing them out of shame. And the best thing is the same guy who was my bf, I finally defriended just recently. He wanted his kids to meet me, but not tell them my name...since he did not want his wife to find out. Yup, he was a true ahole. Ashamed of me then...and still now. I told him, he was no longer accepted into my life. Not a friend. Done. And that felt great! So now to get these implants out will be another move forward. Thank you for all your wonderful stories and I hope to have my "after" story to share also. virgingirl