22 yrs old- 200L/225R Silicone Overs

I have wanted an augmentation for many years and have done extensive research. I am finally at a point in my life financially, physically, and emotionally where I feel like I am ready. I am using this site as a means to communicate with others on their BA journey and chronicle my experiences.

A little background: I was born with a minor deformity in my rib cage. There is a dip within right side of my rib cage. Pediatricians informed my parents that when my breasts developed the breast tissue would fill the small pocket. Unfortunately, I developed small breasts as well as asymmetrical breasts since the tissue filled that pocket. This is the primary reason for my breast augmentation alongside wanting an enhancement for a more feminine shape.

I am very active. I work out at a local gym 3 -4 times a week and focus on lifting with little cardio.

I recently researched plastic surgeons in my area and set up a consultation with the one I felt was best qualified. The consultation was very different from my expectations. I went into the office with a plan. After all of my research, I knew exactly what I wanted, had pictures, tried out the rice test, and took extensive notes. I was hoping to leave that day with an appointment for surgery shortly after.

My surgeon made a lot of assumptions after hearing my age and tried talking me out of my implants, but when I explained my situation and discussed all my research, he was impressed and took me more seriously.

My original plan from my research was to get saline implants under the muscle with an inframammary incision with 250 cc's in my larger breast and 275 cc's in the smaller one. During the consultation, my plastic surgeon gave me very different advice. He suggested that I go with subglandular silicone implants (keeping inframmary incisions). I tried on a few different implants and was surprised at how large they looked in my sports bra. I think I am actually going to downsize in the amount of cc's. Perhaps 225 and 250 cc's instead. I prefer the moderate profile style as well.

I also had a lot of concerns about silicone. My research turned up a lot of negative things about silicone, so I had my mind set on saline and never gave it another chance. The PS informed me that they've come a long way with silicone and spent a great deal changing my mind from saline to silicone. It's an added expense, but this procedure is so important to me and I want everything done just right.

We also discussed subglandular versus submuscular. From pictures and blogs I followed, submuscular was the most common placement and looked natural. I have not seen many subglandular placements. I would like to revisit my PS soon and have him closely evaluate my breasts to ensure that I have enough breast tissue for a very natural looking subglandular implant.

The only hiccup I have encountered now is the age limit that comes with silicone implants. I am 21 and the FDA requires a minimum age of 22. I was very disappointed when I heard this news. I was under the impression that it was 21. I was so ready to officially start this journey and now it will be put off until 2015...

After a good cry in my car, I decided that it would be the best birthday gift to myself and that I would be ready just in time for the summer.

So, this is where I am in my journey right now. Playing the waiting game!

I know this isn't technically a blog, but as this is my personal account, I feel this is a great place to share, and I hope to reach others struggling with this as well...

I've got a pre-op date set for April 27, and my surgery will be on May 12.
I am actually thinking of going a little smaller when I speak with my surgeon.

It's been 8 months since my post, and it's really interesting to see my thought process back then. Time really does fly. Now that the time is approaching, I have a lot of different emotions.

I feel excited that it is finally happening. It really doesn't seem real yet! The thought of what I am going to look like afterward makes me wish I was going today.

My anxieties stem from a lot of "What if" scenarios. What if I have a bad reaction to anesthesia? What if I don't like them? What if I have to go back for surgery a few years down the road? What if I get capsular contracture?

I want to go smaller because I am afraid of looking top heavy.

I have still only told a few people. I still feel like there is a stigma against women who get plastic surgery.

I'm a woman of Faith, and I've struggled with what my Faith says about cosmetic surgery.
Many argue that this surgery is for vanity, a desire to accepted, a lack of self confidence, or some other motive. Many see surgery as a solution to a problem.

In my life, I have never seen this as a solution to a problem. My S.O. has never pressured me to go through with it. This has all been my decision, my desires, and my image. I could go the rest of my life without having this surgery and know that my S.O. would think I am beautiful and love me just the same.

For me, this surgery is just like putting on my make up. It's an enhancement. It makes me feel good and it boosts my confidence. I'm highlighting features that I have. I feel like small implants highlight my features(breasts) in that same way.

My S.O. thinks I am beautiful and that is the only opinion that matters. I don't believe I absolutely need them to continue my life, but I have the means, the desire, and the willingness.

I've had a lot of drastic hair cuts. I love to change my hair, try new make up, experiment with new styles... Does this change in image mean that I am unhappy with how I was created? I don't think so. They are things I wanted to do to enhance myself.

I am psychologically and emotionally quite stable. I am a very positive and upbeat person. I'm outgoing and confident. I've done all the research and understand the risks for a change like this, and my excitement and desire to change my look outweighs the risks.

The Bible warns about vanity and seeing yourself as an idol when you become too involved with image. However, I don't see myself as vain or idolizing myself.

The Bible also warns against "drawing attention to yourself." Again, the purpose of this procedure isn't to draw attention to myself. I am not looking to break any records in cc's here; I'm just looking for symmetrical and slightly larger breasts. Long story short, the way I look in a push up bra is how I want to look naked! If I was wearing the same shirt pre-op, I want to look the same post-op in that shirt. That's hardly "drawing attention."

God's concern is with my heart and my life for Him. My life is spent serving Him. I don't think He will condemn me for a slight enhancement. It won't affect my desire to desperately seek a relationship with Him. My priorities in life are simple: Love God, Love His people. If this surgery doesn't hinder that, then I see no issue.

Writing all of this out here has really helped me make sense of my thoughts and convinced me further to pursue this. I was afraid if I dealt with these issues that I would change my mind and walk away from something I really wanted, but it all makes sense to me now.

I know that I am loved unconditionally by my God, my S.O., my family, and friends regardless if my breasts are all tissue or a little bit of silicone. ;)

If you are struggling with this decision or having the same thoughts, please share!

I met with PS again and after going back and forth between sizes, we both felt that 200/225 was perfect for what I needed. I have slightly assymtryical breasts and my main goals were simple: to even my breasts and be slightly larger. I want to look more like a woman and less like a budding teen. I am tired of being "cute" and being perceived as a child, but I digress...
Most people I've seen on here are 250cc or higher... Is there anyone out there with implants as small as 200cc? I'm not completely flat across my chest, but it's a struggle to evenly fill out a 32B bra. Did you regret not going larger? I erred on the side of caution and went smaller because I do not want to look top heavy or have any kind of fake looking attributes, but I also don't want the invest all this money and walk away feeling like my breasts don't look any different.