31 Year Old Mom of Two /MOMMY MAKEOVER / 5'7 170lb/ Lost 100lbs/ BL,BA,TT - Virginia Beach, VA

10 more days! This is my first post and I will be taking my before pictures tonight and posting them on here soon. I'm 31 years old, 5'7 and 170lbs. I was over 250lbs my entire 20's and after having both my kids (they are now 6 & 7) I finally decided to work hard at losing weight. I did it with Atkins and weight watchers and it took about 2 years. After the kids and losing weight i am left w/ old lady saggy boobs and tummy and I worked WAY to hard to be left with that. I've been saving money for 2 years now and paid half of the procedure off with cash already and the other half i financed with credit care. I actually lived in my own townhome until two weeks ago and am now renting a room from a friend of mine so that I can pay off the remainder fast. I'm extremely excited and just as equally nervous and i'm absolutely OBSESSED with the thoughts of getting my surgery in ten days. I pretty much do not have any other thoughts going on in my head. I've had this planned for a very long time but I haven't let myself really think about it until now. I'm hopeful everything will go well and look well but i'm trying to be realistic as well and know that I will be in so much pain and recovery will be a process. I am getting a breast lift, implants (450cc silicone gel) and an extended tummy tuck with muscle repair. Also, the other thing I will probably be talking about some is that I am a recovering alcoholic and addict and I celebrate 3 years clean and sober this Thursday and i'm so nervous that just a week after my clean date I will be putting narcotics into my body for the first time. That's all for now!

My before pictures

9 more days until surgery. I just added a picture of me at my biggest. I was in my early 20's here and had to have been close to 300lbs. After 260 I stopped weighing myself and when I lost weight I waited a long time to get on the scale because I was so scared of what the number was. I spent my whole 20's yo-yoing. I got down to 190 a few times but then would quickly get back up to 250.

In July 2011 my whole life came crashing down on me and I was heavy into drugs and alcohol and it got to the point that I had to make HUGE changes and never go back. I celebrate 3 years since the day I got clean from drugs and alcohol tomorrow. In that time I also gave up smoking cigarettes, taking any prescriptions (except birth control) and I changed the way I eat. It was a slow process and I haven't had any set backs but I've definitely hit plateaus where I just stay where I'm at on the scale for long periods of time until I get back on track. I knew with all of the weight I wanted to lose I'd have loose skin and saggy boobs so I have been saving as much as I can in a separate bank account for the last 2 years.

I can't believe it is going to finally happen next Friday. I'm so excited but I have so many fears (like: what if the dr does a bad job..what if I die...What if my scars are awful or my nipples look weird..or a messed up belly button...what if I relapse on the pain meds...) All kinds of things. I've been praying a lot and being very open about what's going on with me. I work a 12 step program and have a sponcer and a good support system as well.

Another thing that I did was talk to my two kids about what's going on. I researched it a bit before talking to them because I didn't want to scare them or worse give them messed up body image issues. I ended up telling them that because I used to be very big and unhealthy and finally got healthy (they remember me being overweight) that I'm going to get some of the extra skin removed to help me stay healthy and feel better and also that the dr's will be making my boobs bigger. They think that part is funny. I also let them know that they can ask me or their dad any questions they'd like but we won't be talking about it at summer camp because it's private. Their dad and I have been separated for 3 years but we are good friends and co-parent very well together.