I feel like a woman!

Hi everyone,

My surgery is scheduled for June 5. I'm so excited and nervous, but I'm looking forward to feeling confident with my body.

I have two little boys, who are 3 and 5 years old. They both weighed 8lbs 5oz, and pregnancy took its toll on my body. I developed preeclampsia, and the excess edema caused stretch marks to form everywhere. Even on my calves. I nursed both of my boys for a combined 34 months. My breasts have always been small and slightly asymmetric, but after pregnancy they began to sag and the asymmetry was magnified. I was also left with a sagging pooch on my stomach. I've done more sit ups, kettlebell swings, and planks than I care to think about... Unfortunately, nothing seems to impact my stomach, and honestly, it keeps me from being more active. I do HIIT training at home, but avoid exercising in public. I feel ashamed to run in public because the excess skin bounces, and nothing fits me right. But, I'm sure we're all in the same boat with that.

I go for my pre-op appointment May 16.

I'm hoping to reduce my body fat percentage to optimize my results. I'm just over a month out! Working out twice a day and watching what I eat. Hopefully all of my hard work will pay off with some beautiful results.

I had my pre op appointment this past Friday. My surgeon explained everything and discussed the options I had. I gave him a cc range I'd like to be in, but left the final decision up to him during the surgery. I'm confident by his previous work that he'll chose a size that is practical for my body type. He gave me a folder with thorough information for post operative instructions, as well as scripts and I was fitted for my compression garment. All of the financing was finalized and we are all set, aside from having to get a Chem20 drawn a week or so before the procedures.

Honestly, I'm getting more nervous the closer it gets. I've never had major surgery before, and it scares me. Just needing to be intubated is intimidating. I'm definitely not backing out, though. There's a reason why a MM has a 98% approval rate. I just hope I get over my fears and get excited again. 17 days out.