Considering Explant, Please Help Me! - United Kingdom, GB

Hi everyone this site is brilliant! I had my 380cc saline implants in 2003 going from a 34b to a 34d. I was young & stupid (25) & so wish I listened to my mam. I've seen 2 consultants to date - 1st was positive * said no need to remove capsule and I should be left with good boobs. 2nd refused to explant & said I would look horrendous. I've read loads of your reviews and pics and you all look much better post explant but I'm really nervous now. See consultant number 3 on Monday & very anxious.

Well I saw another consultant on Monday and I was very nervous given the last one told me I'd look, and i quote 'horrendous'. This one at spire hospital was fantastic. He really listened to my reasons for wanting explant. He didn't really comment much about what I would look like afterwards only that I would have to bear in mind I've had implants for almost 10 years and they are large (380cc high profile) so I may not look like I was beforehand. He then examined me and said the implants and incisions were very very good and the surgeon who put them in was clearly very experienced. He confirmed I don't need a capsulectomy removal or work on the capsule. It will be straight forward and I'd be treated as a day patient. He said I could have local anesthetic but didn't recommend it because I have mcghan implants which he did say are excellent implants but unlike others they stick almost like Velcro to the skin and he will physically have to put his finger inside my breast to pull the implant away from the skin. He said no amount of local pain relief will stop me from feeling some discomfort. So if I go through with it I'll be opting to be put to sleep. He said he'd be more than happy to explant but he asked me to have a free appointment with his physiologist as he is worried my lack of self esteem may be the reason why I want them out and his worried I might be even more unhappy at explant. I thought this was really good service (free physiologist app) considering his consultation cost me £150 whereas the previous 2 were free. So I'm waiting for a date to speak to his physiologist and if I still want explant he will oblige. But the earliest he would be able to fit me in would be 21st dec. What really pleased me was he said as its simple removable I will be good to go to the gym and swim 2 weeks after op! I think I'm still adamant i wasn't explant but happy to see physiologist just to make doubly sure! Sorry I haven't uploaded photo yet I'll try get this done at the weekend x

I had my appointment with the psychologist today. My consultant wanted me to see one as he was concerned about my lack of self esteem and worried i would want further surgery aftet ex plant. I agreed to see a phycologist reluctantly but had the appointment today and I'm glad i went. I explained the reasons I got the implants, which really was the same reason most others have done so, to improve confidence, thought my 34b boobs were to small, sick of people constantly telling me i was too skinny etc etc...Then went onto explain the reasons I want them out - don't feel they really improved my confidence, if anything Im probably less confident now as I worry people look at me and think 'that's her with the plastic [RS bleep]' etc also due to back and neck problems I don't think these implants are helping in that department combined with the fact I'm suppose to go swimming to help my back but feel embarrassed of what people think given my boobs look hugh in a swim suit. Also discussed what a previous consultant said to me in that I'd look horrendous after ex plant. Anyhow after all that taking she explained the reason my consultant refered me to her was to see if I was suffering from body dismorphia. She said I wasn't (thankfully because had she of said I was apparently the consultant wouldn't perform the surgery) and she was happy that I'd done a hugh amount of research into pros and cons and I had a realistic expectation in that, although no one knows what our breasts will be like after ex plant I am aware its unlikely they'll look like they were 10 years ago prior to getting them. She also thought it was good, in an odd way, that a previous consultant said I'd look horrendous - although she was surprised by his bluntness she felt that as I was still determined to ex plant after such a negative comment she was happy that this is something I have prepared myself for. In light of all this she thinks I will probably feel better once the implants are out but she also warned me not to be surprised if I'm shocked or even have a little tear post surgery as I have had the implants for 10 years it may take me a little while to get used to them not being there. She also suggested that after ex plant if I'm not happy with the size of my boobs maybe see her to discuss the issues opposed to further surgery. Anyhow sorry for waffling on! Or and as I was leaving her office she said 'go for it I think it'll do u good'. Strangely although I no I'd made my mind up prior to seeing her I feel glad I went to the appointment, I feel I have got her blessing. I don't know what I would have done if she'd told me she thought I was doing the wrong think and advised against it. Anyhow I have to ring consultants Secretary tomorrow to finalise price and confirm date for surgery! X