Santa is bringing me boobs???
I feel like I've spent most my life obsessed by...
I feel like I've spent most my life obsessed by boobs and unlike most girls who do this procedure, I actually had a generous pair from a VERY early age. I got my boobs at 9 years old and I was disgusted in them, I hated them, kids were mean and I did anything I could to hide them. By 13 I was an E cup, can you imagine?
My problem is that I was quite chunky teen. I'm 5ft 3.5 and at my heaviest I was probably about 145 lbs. I yoyo dieted for awhile and at my lightest was 105lbs. Im 22 now and have been around 120lbs for the past few years but the fluctuations have ruined my boobs. They feel like empty sacks. Ideally i'd like to be slimmer but I always stop myself from exercising or dieting too hard because the smaller I get the worse my boobs look and I hate them already as it is. My mom in 58 and has perkier boobs than i do!
What puts me off:
I'm really worried the Dr will tell me I need a lift. I so don't want that. I'm 22 and my boobs already look like this, the last thing I want is big scars.
I'm really worried that if i say no to the lift the Dr will say ok, but you have so much skin to fill you'll need a big implant, which I also don't want. I hate the huge round fake look and I'm worried I could end up like that, I plan on telling very few people and I want it to look as natural as possible.
I doubt I will get much support at home, both my parents think this kind of thing is ridiculously vain and idiotic but oddly, this is my least worrisome worry!
Capsular Contracture- i read in to this and saw that it occurs in 5% of boobs jobs, that seems quite high?!
I currently wear a 34C but I feel empty and flat and saggy. I want to feel full and perky.
NO ONE sees me naked, ever, not even boyfriends I am that self conscious. I want to feel happy with myself. I want to feel good naked and good in a bikini and confident. I don't feel that way now.
Due to University I can't actually have the surgery until June so I know having any consultations now is too early but I'm just desperate to chat to someone about it or have some advice. No one in my life has done this before. I need someone who has done it and knows what they are chatting about!
PS i'm decorating at the min, my house is never as messy as it is in these pics!
So! First consultation has been booked for March...
I also told my Mom, up until know she has thought (or maybe prayed) that i was joking. I explained to her exactly what i don't like and how it makes me feel and she asked me 'Does this actually really bother you and upset you?' and I said 'yes! I wouldn't be going to see a surgeon to discuss doing something about it if it was just a mild annoyance'. Thankfully she said she will come with me.
Now I just need to find another surgeon or 2 but some of their sales techniques really put me off. I've spoke to a few companies and felt like they were selling me a phone or a car. I want to deal with people who will be straight with me and not people who will tell me what i want to hear. The search continues....
My main worry still is that my boobs are quite low, which I imagine means i have a lot of space and skin to fill, which I imagine means I will end up with quite a big implant. I dont want boobs bigger than a D. Guess I have to wait until March 11th to find out!
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So my first consultation is next week and I am SO...
I REALLY want to explain myself well but in conversation I'm not so good with words. I've been really trying to think hard about how best to describe what it is I don't like about my boobs and what it is I actually want from this but I'm not finding it that easy.
I have hated my boobs since day 1. I was teased so badly. Other kids were still wearing vests and there I was in my underwired bra, aged 10. I'm starting to worry that maybe I do just have some weird boob hang up, and boob job or not I'm never going to feel good about them? Does that make sense? I do still feel towards them like i did then, ashamed, thinking they're ugly etc etc. Do i just sound weird now?
It doesn't help that the few people I've talked to about this have all *insisted* I don't need to do it. Maybe my boobs aren't as heinous as I'm thinking but they haven't seen them and it's how I feel about myself that's important, right?
Anyway i'm hoping for A LOT of clarity after next week. Fingers crossed.
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When I saw that picture of Heidi Montag I thought, Oh no! Please don't let that be her ideal. :) Glad to see it's not.
You know, I would go on at least three consults because different doctors may (and probably will) have different approaches as to what you need. If they do suggest a lift, there are types that don't require those big anchor scars you sometimes see (though even those fade a lot). Here's a list of four different types of lifts.
Then again, you might not need a lift. You really just need to be examined. And now is definitely not too early to start looking.