Getting Nervous

So after years of battling the bulge, and stomach issues that I can not even describe to you. My doctors have decided that gastric sleeve was the right choice for me. Then 3 doctors later I finally found a doctor willing to touch me. I have completed all the required steps (psychologist, barium swallow, endoscopy, blood work, EKG, ECHO, X-Rays, Support groups, and a nutritionist.) I've lost 5 of the required 15 pounds and my next appointment is the 26th. And I'm crossing my fingers he finally says yes. I've even got the pre-approval from my insurance, shoot they're the ones that suggested this doctor. I guess I'm just tired of waiting. And it feels like it's never going to happen. I've already waited a year being bounced around by doctors. I guess I'm just nervous because I can see to end zone in sight, and no one will hand me the darn football. I'll keep everyone posted. Started at 215.8, current weight is 210.4. Come on 10 pounds mommas ready for the new her.

Went and saw the big guy on 26th. An wouldn't you know it I was 5-6 pounds shy of my goal to set a surgery date. I'm like seriously, I'm only putting down 900-1100 calories a day. I'm pretty much eating air. GRRR!!!!! So since then I have buckled down even harder and guess what the 5 pounds came off 3 days later. That will teach me to go to the doctor right before my period. So now I go back on the 23rd he said I could go in earlier as soon as I hit the mark. But I want to be 100 % sure I'm under the mark. And it's a 7 hour round trip so I usually have to take a day off work don't want too many of those. I'll post my current weight at the beginning of next week. I leave my scale at the boyfriends because I don't want to become addicted. I used weight 4 and 5 times a day, and it controlled me. This time I just want to be healthy and happy. Oh and small update when you do start dropping your calories to nothing so you can reach the magic numbers. Remember to have self control, my kids had triple cheese mac'n cheese last night, I hate mac' n cheese but it had been sooo long since I had carbs (7 wks) I CAVED. One bite was it, and I'll tell you it was a major mouth orgasm, I screamed, I moaned, and my children looked at me like I'd lost my mind. The kids know how hard I'm trying though, because when I finally did get my eyes to roll forward from the back of my head my son looked at me and said "it was good huh, (I'm shaking my head blissfully) I promise mommy it's our secret, I wont tell the doctor" Great my all time low my 10 yr old lying to the doctor so mom can have a mac' n cheese mouth orgasm. Finally posting pics of me and the hubby to be and of course my crazy ass broken dog. lol

So I went to the doctor on Friday and finally hit the lucky number. He is sending me in for insurance approval and I go back in one month for my pre-op diet and surgery date. Cross your fingers kids that it's sooner rather than later. The waiting is killing me, and the nerves. The doctor loves my diet I'm following, and everyone is happy with the progress, I'm just anxious and nervous.
HW: 216.8
CW: 207.8
GW: 115-120