Girl, Reinvented. - Tucson, AZ

WOW, I can't believe that it's been about 9 months since I've updated my journey. It's now been over a year since my surgery, and I'm just so happy. I know that I had some worries before my surgery about missing my bigger breasts, but they couldn't be further from my current truth -- I can hardly remember what it was like before my surgery. I'm sure I am having a case of selective memory, but I don't mind. I am so happy now. Not because my self-image has changed or because I'm somehow happier with myself solely because of my breast reduction, but because my life has become drastically easier. Shopping for bras at normal stores, needing only one sports bra instead of three for exercise, being able to RUN (it was a big moment in my life when I realized that not only could I run with ease, but that I actually enjoy it!). The pros, versus the cons, of this surgery have carried far more weight. My scars are fading impressively, I only had one incident earlier this year (6 months post op) with a rogue remaining stitch creating a "blood bubble" (sorry for the gross description), and I can go without a bra whenever I want. I have a genuine love for my "newbies", and I wouldn't change a thing!

If it speaks at all to the fact that I've forgotten what it was like having bigger breasts…I wrote the wrong pre-surgery bra size in my last update! I was a 34/36F! Not a 34DDD. I'm such a dork.

It's been 3 months and 3 days since my surgery! Time has honestly FLOWN by, and I've already pretty much forgotten what it was like to have big boobs!

I love my new boobies, I really do. I had no problem with the size before, so I was afraid I'd miss them or something…but so far, I have not. I absolutely love having smaller breasts. I keep calling myself a member of the itty bitty [RS bleep] committee, even though I still don't have particularly small breasts. I have rounded out to a size 32DD. This is the size that fits me most accurately, although I can kind of pull off a 34C in dire situations. From a 34DDD to a 34C? It's amazing!! I just went yesterday and got myself two gorgeous, brand new Victoria's Secret underwire bras, and I am so stoked to wear them. I also got a Lululemon TaTa Tamer sports bra and have ordered a Moving Comfort Luna sports bra from online…I'm building my bra wardrobe again and it feels so good. I've gotten used to wearing only sports bras, and sometimes it's nice because it's comfortable, but honestly I'm kind of sick of it.

I had some problems with another wound staying open, this time on my left breast, but a couple of days ago I found a rogue stitch, pulled it out, and I just took the gauze off from last night and IT IS CLOSED!!! I am so excited. This means that all of my incisions are closed, and it's the milestone I gave myself for wearing underwire.

My scars are healing amazingly. And I have had no problems accepting them as part of my body. Honestly if they stay this pink color forever, it won't be a big deal to me. I'm sure they won't, because I know they're going to fade, but I really have grown to love the scars. Because they are a sign that I am happier now in my body!

The lack of pain alone is worth it. I still struggle with holding my shoulders up high like I used to, so I have a bit of residual pain from that, but whenever I catch myself, I immediately lower them (just did that). Hopefully eventually, I will just stop scrunching my shoulders.

Oh my gosh. Since it's been so long since I've written, I'm sure there are a million things I could say, but they're all escaping me. I know I'll remember them as soon as I post this update, so I'll update again later.