Scheduled for Septorhinoplasty for Sep 29

So, I've been thinking about getting my nose fixed probably since high school but I was always too scared. I'm a big wimp about pain :) I finally decided to look into it again after seeing some really unflattering pictures. My nose seems to look worse in pictures than in real life and i do kinda like my nose bump and I can't imagine how I will look without it. I have broken my nose 2-3 times. It is slightly crooked, to the left, and I have a large dorsal hump and a somewhat boxy tip. I went to see Dr. Golden two weeks ago for my first consult. It went well and the pictures he showed me of his other patients were beautiful. He is kinda all over the place though. He said that he would have to break my nose, make it straight, file down my hump and de-boxify my tip. I also have a slightly bifid tip (like a cleft) and he said that would be gone too. I have ordered my vitamin C, probiotics and arnica montana from his list of stuff I need but I am going to try and get out of taking the antibiotics he prescribes his patients because they make me sick and I really dont want to be throwing up and feverish right after someone carves up my face. He also is doing a closed rhinoplasty and only does closed. I hear this is better for healing. I am very excited and nervous and don't know how I'm going to concentrate on anything else for the next almost three weeks!! I will be back and update when more stuff happens. I'm nervous about if i will have packing, if i will remember anything during twilight sedation and about taking antibiotics. I hate taking them and some doctors say they aren't necessary but Dr. Golden says he prescribes them. Any input would be appreciated :)

I had my pre-op appointment today. Dr. Golden sat with me and talked about my surgery. We went over my photos very carefully and he pointed out some slight differences in the size/shape of my nostrils between the left and right side of my face and even pointed out that my right upper lip is slightly fuller than my left upper lip. or maybe it's my left that's fuller...anyway, it's very subtle but the point was so i don't start hyper-analying my nose after the surgery and freaking out if i see little differences, that i fully understand my starting point. he then showed me what he was going to do, as far as the tip refinement and bump reduction and we talked about the nose break and straightening process. he SWORE to me that i woudln't remember a thing because i am very freaked out about him taking a little hammer and chisel to my nose. THis better be the truth because i DO NOT want that memory floating around in my head for the rest of my life!
I asked him if he was going to scoop it out at all and he said no. i mentioned i ready something about the scoop being better for women but he took his pen and showed me on the picture what it would look like if he did and i agreed it would be a little too much gone for my face.
he showed me a little from a patient who was freaking out about her swelling for a few months and was writing to say how much she loved her nose after 11 months and assured me that i would be very bruised and very swollen for some time and told me not to wig out about it.
i filled my three prescriptions (vicodin, bactrim and nasal ointment) and ive started taking my probiotics and arnica montana a few days ago. i have to start putting the ointment on my nose tonight. I will not have packing in my nose but he still insists i take the antibiotics and told me to call if i have even a mild allergic reaction because then he will have to give me some kind of steroid pack or something.
I am so so so so so nervous; every time i think about it my stomach seriously drops!
but i am excited to have a new look. Dr is very confident i will have a lovely result and be happy with it.

ah! i can't believe it's happening like 30 hours from now!!! how will i ever sleep!

he showed me a LETTER from another patient, not a little. sorry for stupid typos, im nervous!!