32 BMI Got Sleeved 5/18/2015 - Mexico, MX

I am happy to say that I hit my goal weight (135), my dream goal weight (127) and my "holy crap that's not even possible weight." I have been maintaining at 118 lbs since Christmas. It is very surreal.

This is NOT the easy way out. Traveling to Mexico, surgery and recovery wasn't difficult, but boy, the first 6 months adapting to life after a sleeve sure is. I have battled heartburn, acid diarrhea, hypoglycemia...all kinds of things. I struggled finding vitamins that I could swallow and tolerate, to stay hydrated, to eat...it has NOT been easy. I can not tolerate red meat, caffeine or anything carbonated. I never thought I would part ways with coffee and diet coke but it happened.

It has been worth it. And lately, I am able to drink more than 1 ounce of liquid at a time. I can finish an entire scrambled egg without running to the toilet. I learned my limits of what I can and cant do. I have had plenty of days I regretted getting the surgery, that I wished I could just EAT. But I learned those were reactions to emotions...stress, etc. So now I get up and walk. I take deep breaths. Sounds so cliché but it works.

Anyway, if you are debating on the surgery, my advice is to pay as much as, if not MORE attention to the advice you get for the life changes afterwards. There is no turning back. And while have no regrets, it is a huge change that was much tougher than I ever anticipated. I don't think there is any way to adequately prepare for what its like, no matter how much you read, try, experiement...kind of like becoming a mother for the first time. Good luck to all!

I read somewhere that you hit a phase of "depression" after having VGS. I didn't think that would happen to me, but I think its starting. I am supposed to be graduating from Full Fluids to pureed foods this week and I cant do it. :( I have thrown up twice no trying and not only does that really hurt and just completely suck, I am starting to wonder if I will ever be able to eat "real" food again. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo over soups and protein shakes right now.

Just a down moment since I just threw up again and feel like crap. BLAH.
172.1 this morning. Down 14.5 since surgery, and 23.5 since pre-op. In under 1 month, I am down over 23 lbs. That is really unreal to think about. I cant let this stuff get me down. It will come, and I don't need to be rushing back to real foods.

I had a lower BMI at the time of surgery. I have been heavier in my lifetime...BMI over 40 more than once. Its horrible how many people with judge you for not being "fat enough." Its insulting. I actually had 2 strangers tell me if "I just tried harder" I would lose the weight. They don't know how many years I have dieted, how many trainers I've had, how many "lifestyle changes" I've tried, what my labs looks like, what my health history is or why I decided this was the option for ME. And frankly....I DON'T CARE. I did this for ME. So I can be healthy and see my kids graduate from High school, so I can meet my Grandchildren someday. For a lot of reasons.

If you are like me and have a "low BMI" with "Only" 50-75 lbs to lose, don't let these people get to you. If this is for you, its for you. I have yet to tell ANYONE in my family or in my "offline" life about it, save my therapist and MD. And no one needs to know. Not that I am ashamed. I am just not needed to hear the stupid commentary from the world. Just because I didn't make it to 300 lbs didn't mean that I wouldn't "next time" and WHY would I WANT to get that big if I could prevent it??