Campos 8/16/12 ETT,BA, Lipo, BBL - Tijuana 5 month update

Hi all! Guess I'll begin with the why-I've decided to do something for myself after four hard pregnancies. I only have two living children, but my pregnancies have been awful! The first pregnancy ended in miscarriage, my second resulted in delivering at 32 weeks, a 4ib little princess. I had preeclampsia with her, and gained weight due to fluid. Before my daughter, I was a size 0. I was very tiny, and was a fashion model. After she was born, I was a size 8. My breast went from a 34B to a 36D, and I did breastfeed for nearly a year. After I stopped breastfeeding, my beautiful full boobs..deflated. I was able to lose a great deal of weight although my stomach was not flat. I finally was satisfied after getting to a size 4. I didn't want to be as small as I was before, because I enjoyed my new curves. I ended getting pregnant a year after she was born, but my husband was injured overseas, and the stress from that (most likely) contributed to delivering prematurely to a stillborn little angel. Three years later, I gave birth to my son, and he was 10ibs! I had gestational diabetes with him, and gained 60 ibs. I was in a size 12 when he was born! The biggest I have ever been. I breastfed him as well, and my boobs seems to have gotten worse. Since his birth in 2009, my weight has been up and down, and although I am a size 6 currently, I still look about 5 months pregnant. I hate it! It seems to expand during the day, so by the end of the night, my stomach is protuding out of my clothes, to the point where I just mostly wear t-shirts to bed. I rarely wear lingerie for my husband anymore, unless it is completely covers me. No lights on during sex for sure. I can't really wear clothes that hug my body, and often have to wear a size up in my pants to fit over my belly. I have never been as self conscious of my body as I am now. On top of that, I got my tubes tied after my son was born, and the results are hormones that are completely horrible to deal with. I feel like I'm going through menopause, and I'm always moody and depressed, and my negative body image plays a lot into my feelings.

I used to only daydream about getting a mommy makeover. I never thought I could afford it, because I was not working, and my husband takes care of the finances. One day, my husband asked me if I was unsatisfied with our marriage, and I didn't understand why he brought it up, but he asked because he realized that I didn't seem as confident and interested in being intimate with him as I used to. I explained that it had nothing to do with him, but I was struggling with my body and my looks. I told him I wanted to one day have surgery, and although I never thought to bring it up to him before, we discussed it, and he understood why I wanted it done. He told me that the smartest thing to do is save up for it and get it done. I'm working now, and have done just that! Took me a few months, but I did it!

After much research, I decided that I wanted to go with Dr. Campos in Tijuana, MX. Although I have saved more than enough for surgery here, I have decided that my husband and I will spend our anniversary there, and before we leave for the trip, I will have the surgery. I am scheduled on Aug 16th for a TT, BA, and Lipo. Dr. Campos suggested fat grafting, but I really don't need it in my opinion. I already have a butt, although I'm no Kim Kardarshian. My husband doesn't think I need it either-but that's mostly because he believes with my new voluptous figure, I'd leave him for some ubber rich fellow. :-)

So, here's the deal. I'm actually flying home three days after my surgery. Yes, yes, I know the risks of flying back so soon. But I am confident everything will be fine, because I my neighbor's husband is a general surgeon, and he and his wife will be traveling with us. Once I get home, he has agreed to come check on me once a day, and I am confident he will be all I need. My mother will also be at my home to take care of my children during my recovery. So, do you think I'm still crazy, cuz I know that crossed your mind!

Anyway, I am very excited, and counting down the days to my op! 14 weeks away!! Woo-hoo!

I spoke with a vet who flew back from Tijuana the day after surgery! She said she was fine because her anesthesia had not worn off. I was thinking, man, that's a bit much, but realize a day later isn't much better, so I will be flying out on the fourth day rather than the second. I am not nervous about flying back that soon because I will be with a surgeon and we have already gone over risks and precautions I must take.

Wow, twelve days to go! My emotions are all over the place! I'm excited, nervous, sick to my stomach, at the same time! Trying to get everything finalized. I booked my hotel and flights months ago, and I was considering renting a car, but I've read more experiences from ppl who discouraged renting cars and using the $5 taxis in Tijuana. I'm planning on using the trolley from the airport to get to the border, then hailing a taxi when we cross. I'm nervous about crossing back into te U.S before my flight tho. I was told it takes 1.5-3 hours to cross back in. I'm so scared about that process b/c I'll be using the trolley and I'm hoping it won't be too uncomfortable with the heat and other passengers. My pre-op appt is at 5, and my flight touches down at 11, so I'll be using the time to get supplies from the grocery store and doing a little sight-seeing. I'll be staying at the Lucerna, a highly recommended 5 star hotel in Tijuana, with a few restaurants in the hotel, so between stocking the fridge and the hotel restaurants, food will be covered..not that I'll have much of an appetite..getting my list together of all the things I need to bring. Ive combined lists after reviewing others' lists, and I'll post it as soon as I find time to type it all.