Super Nervous - Temecula, CA

I am 30 years old, 5ft tall and currently 114 lbs. I have three children: 3.5 year old twin girls and a 2 year old boy. Both of my deliveries were c-sections. After the twins I had a TON of lose skin and it only got worse when I was pregnant with my son. I also have a lot of stretch marks and the skin on my stomach looks like crepe paper (my thighs and hips are really bad too, with the stretch marks, but there isn't much I can do about them).

I wanted a tummy tuck last year while I was still married but my now ex husband wanted to spend the money on something else. I found out he was lying and cheating in August and filed for divorce, now I'm having my tummy tuck on March 22nd. At first I was really excited about it, but now that I've had so long to think about it (and Google it) I am really worried about the pain and I'm starting to freak out.

I live with my parents so I'll have some help with the kids, but I still feel really alone. Its times like this when I miss having a spouse. *sigh* Anyhow, preop was today...it was okay. I had a lot of questions and I was really nervous. I am going to try to add some of my "before" shots here but my laptop is ancient & I'm having a hard time. These are also old, from last summer when I wanted to do the TT the first time, so I'll try to get some new ones before my surgery.

So my preop was yesterday and I am now paid in full (well, I still have to buy all the medications and my Rx insurance sucks so that'll be another couple hundred bucks...plus I still need to stock up on ginger ale, crackers, medical tape, etc).

My surgery will be at a surgery center about 20 minutes from where I live, I believe I check in at 6am for a 7:30am surgery, but I need to double check that becuase I just noticed that its not written down anywhere. lol

I am having just a tummy tuck (removal of skin & muscle plication). She wanted to lipo my flanks that that would be niffty, but I didn't want to pay the extra money or have the extra pain. If this goes really well then maybe I'll go back for lipo next year. ;)

Anyhow, just a tummy tuck, no lipo even of the tummy. She says some drs do and some don't but she doesn't becuase it can interfere with healing.

So I will wake up with a pain pump and two drains. My first post-op is four days after surgery & the pain pump will be removed then (will there still be any pain meds left in it by that point? And its just lidocane, isn't it? Its not really PAIN medication, per se...right?

My dr said that one drain will be removed after a week or two and the second drain a week or two after that. Yes, that means I will have at least one drain for a whole MONTH! She also said no showers (only sponge baths) until both drains are out. I'm twitching just thinking about it. I don't do well without baths. ;/

My meds are: Emend (anti-nausea), Norco (for pain), Keflex (antibiotic), Valium (woohoo), Lovenox Injection (blood thinner - anyone else on this one??), & then a special soap (hibickens) that I'm supposed to use for two days prior to surgery.

I guess that's about it. I was feeling pretty nervous yesterday. To be honest, I was seriously considering calling the whole thing off. But, apparently that is a normal phase...I'm feeling a teeeeeny bit better about things today. I just wish it was over already and I was was on my way to healing.

I'll add some new pictures today too.

Everyone ends up saying it was worth it. Everyone ends up saying it was worth it. I'm just going to keep telling myself that every time I feel extra nervous. :)

10 days until my surgery people. TEN days!