Fake looking nose & still have bruises, face looks so gaunt

Hello everyone, some of you have messaged me asking me for more before pictures. I have attached an image of what my face looked like before my surgery. So my question to everyone dealing with a rhinoplasty result that they hate, how do you deal with your emotions? I find that I was so healthy looking before, I had round cheeks and a healthy colour. Ever since my surgery with Dr. Farhad Hafezi, I look sick, still have bruises and my face looks so gaunt overall. This is in addition to my new fake looking "nose". I can't stand seeing myself in the mirror and I panic when I am outside of the house because I see glimpses of my reflection in mirrors and can't believe how I now look. I am an emotional wreck and feel as though this doctor has robbed me of my healthy and natural beauty. I can't believe I spent money to have elective surgery that has left me botched and miserable. I don't understand why my nose was altered and shortened so much by this doctor. Can anyone give me advice on how I can emotionally survive the next few months? Also, do you have any health tips that can help me look less sick and regain my glow from before my surgery. I just miss being healthy looking and liking what I see in the mirror. Every day is a nightmare for me and I long for the day that I can put this behind me and be happy again.

My nose is too short, upturned like a pig with asymmetrical nostrils. This close up photo really shows how high it is. Without my consent, several grafts were placed in my nose so my tip will unfortunate not drop by much. Are there any recommendations of any doctors that can fix my overdone nose? I just want to look natural again.

Hello guys, I have included a photo of my terrible profile. I am not sure if the tip of my nose looks like that because I have a lot of swelling or if it just sticks out because too much of my bridge was taken down. I am still miserable and regret the surgery every single day. However, I would like to thank everyone who has been sending me kind messages and standing up to my doctor who created a fake account and pretended like he was a female who got a nosejob and was very happy. That really shows the type of person that I am dealing with. My doctor still does not respond to my emails and has never once provided me information about the kind of changes I should expect. He only cares that he got paid and because he is in Iran and legal action cannot be taken against him (unlike the US), he doesn't care about my mental state or outcome at all. I am happy that I at least have an online community that is helping me during this very difficult time. Thank you again for standing up for me and for being so supportive.