Long story short, I have been unhappy with them for many years and am ready to have them out, my surgery date is set...and I should have done this a lot sooner. Three years ago I even had the date and everything set up but I lost my house and my credit. I am now at a point in my life where I am learning so much about GMO's, organic eating, living simpler, not being such a consumer, etc. In general I don't like fake nails, fake hair, fake anything, but ironically, I have fake boobs, and that needs to go. My expectations for the explant scheduled for July 24th is to get rid of this extra weight on my chest, back pain, pressure and soreness, trouble breathing sometimes, and trouble finding tops and dresses that fit. It is basically as several other people have said, we are carrying an extra 2-4 lbs in our bodies-- some of us longer than others-- and most people can tell they are fake. Well, a lot of people wonder, I do everything I can to hide or diminish them from scarves, minimizing bras, etc..but at the end of the day, it doesn't matter what I have done because I know they are in my body, and boy do I feel it:( Even bras in my size are very difficult to find. I often get the wrong kind of attention. I feel that a lot of men don't even look at my face that much they are so focused on my boobs. Luckily I have a partner now who supports me 100% in my decision. I am not getting a lift and I don't think they will look very nice but at this point I just want them out. I will find good bras and wait for the fluff fairy I guess. One other possibility was waiting another year to have enough for the lift but the thought of having them another year makes me sick.
Needless to say, I am so happy I found this site. I found it after I went for the consultation, and I was so nervous that day, I had my boyfriend drive the car. I was expecting the surgeon to talk me into smaller implants, didn't know what the costs were going to be or even if he would do the explant surgery. Luckily none of that was the case, and I was immensely relieved to set the date and figure out the financing.
So now I am just waiting for the big day...I am much more psychologically at peace. I paid the cost of the explant ($1540) and I will just have to pay the surgery center $1,297. If I was also getting a lift the cost was going to be almost double. It will be about 3 weeks before I go back to work so that will give me enough time to recuperate. I am a little worried about whether people will notice, I know it's petty but I do wonder if the change will be very drastic.
The reason I am feeling good about it though, well there are a few reasons but the main one is this site and this group of fantastic women!--reading the other reviews, questions, advice, support, and general good feelings coming from this group. I have only discussed what I am doing with my partner and one of my sisters. I feel like in general people may not understand all the emotions we are going through.
I have also done quite a bit of reading--and don't mean to freak anyone out, I kind of stopped because I don't want to feel worse than I already do--on women who have had serious medical issues with implants, both kinds, silicone and saline, and how the medical establishment has denied correlations between implants and all kinds of debilitating problems...including some kinds of cancer. There really has not been enough research using a control group of before and after implanted women, and the effects of having them., So in addition to the discomfort, not finding tops that fit, soreness, etc, there is also now a psychological imperative to remove them from the fear of what implants may be doing in our bodies..in my body.
I have yet almost a month to go so for now I just have one pre-op picture and as the date draws closer I will update on my journey. Thank you all of you beautiful ladies, you have been my rock and support throughout. Please continue to post on your experiences and let's continue carrying each other through to..the NATURAL/other side!