8th month photo update

All my life I have dreamed of having boobs! I'm really petite, 5'3, 108 lbs, flat as a board, bra size: 34, stuffed to the max, my hubby calls it "the armor", literally, if i get shot in the chest, that stuffed bra just might save my life! lol. I have done so much research and seen so many boobies that I feel like I can almost perform the surgery myself! I always know that if and when I finally get a chance to get my boobs done, I vowed to myself that I will never be small again! So on my pre-op appointment, I made it clear, complete with pictures of Tila Tequila, and 3 other random boobs of girls with similar physique i Found online, again, in one of the myriads of research. It was almost an obsession! lol.

S I Z E

My first consultation with the PS was July 15. Like i said, I am 5'3, 108 lbs, true bra size is probably 32A.(we'll never know as I never wore an unstuffed bra) I'm going for a big C or small D look, big but not too pornstar-ish. The PS measured my chest diameter as 11.4 cm. During my consultation, I was able to try on 375cc high profile, 400cc HP. But the PS told me Mentor is coming out with Ultra High Profile. So that meant I will either choose 455cc or 480cc. How can I decide when I never saw what those look like??? I've seen thousands of boobs online and yet I cannot envision what mine would look like! Until the day of my surgery I had no idea what size the PS will go with, I just hope he didn't forget Tila Tequila as my reference, ok so i said i didn't want [RS bleep] star-ish look, funny, isn't Tila one??lol. But hers aren't overly big, just right, i feel like. So the size of my boobies is in the hand of my PS now, i trust his judgement, and told him, make em big! When i woke up from the surgery, i have 400cc Ultra High Profile on my left, wasn't quite expecting that because i based the CC's on the chest diameter chart, but here's an even bigger surprise, my right is a whopping 480cc ultra high profile! that's 80ccs difference! when i look at my boobies, from day of surgery until yesterday, both boobies pretty much look symmetrical to me. I asked my hubby, and he thinks so too.

S U R G E R Y D A Y S E P T E M B E R 27, 8:00AM

Was so worried i won't make it through 6am without drinking, specially that i have been nursing a cold 3 days before, and one day before surgery, i started coughing a little more than i'd like, I prayed so much that the coughing will go away and that my surgery won't be cancelled when the PS finds out I have a cold. Thankfully, it didn't get cancelled! I cannot imagine going through this again only to postpone it last minute! So I recall them putting the IV on me, didn't feel the juice hitting really, I know being wide awke, then next minute I was out completely, no fading, just out! Just as I didn't recall going out, I also don't remember being woken up in recovery. I only remembered opening my eyes and changing into my sweats and rolled into the car.

I took my anti-nausea meds, ate soup then took 2 oxycodone. I wasn't in pain at all, just a lil sore, and felt very tight, so this is what those girls meant by "having an elephant sitting on your chest". Slept for most of the day. slept on the recliner.

P O S T O P D A Y 1 - D A Y 3

These 3 days are pretty much the same, I mean pain was definitely not what I imagined it, it's acually not as bad as I thought. Slept through it. Walked a little. Ate and slept some more. Oxycodone messed up my system, hard to pee, and definitely constipated. I had to take meds to go. My appetite didn't change, eating like normal. Sleepy most of the time. Implants are sitting very high on my chest, they are I am guessing what most girls would call Frankenboobies, but don't get me wrong, they do not look bad, I have a perfect cleavage, boobs dont look deformed, just swollen and hard but not deformed like some of the pics i've seen, those are truly horrifying! Mine are hard, sitting high and chest looks very tight. Like not so much projection from the side view which is weird considering i got Ultra High Profile which is supposed to have the most projection. But I am very happy with how they look after only a day. Very minimal bruising as well. I bruise very easily but I reckon my PS is really very skilled which is why I don't have overly conspicuous bruises. Just a tiny tiny bit close to the incission site.


P O S T O P D A Y 4

Feeling a lot better, I decided to be off the Norco because i didn't like that I'm groggy all the time and constipated. so I switched to Tylenol Extra Strength. The pain is definitely manageable that I don't even take Tylenol until bed time. Mostly I just feel massive tightness at night, which sucks now that I'm off the pain meds, it's so hard to get some shut eye. I couldn't find a comfortable position to sleep. I have swithced from bed, with 5 or 7 pillows propped up, and a heating pad for my back, to the recliner with only 3 pillows. probably had only 4 hours of sleep. Boobs looks the same to me, not much change at all.

P O S T O P D A Y 5 - D A Y 7

Almost no pain during the day. Night time is something else. I may never sleep again!!!! I bought ZZquil to help me sleep but it didn't help a lot. Still swithced from bed to recliner about 3 times, getting only about 4 hrs of sleep. I feel no pain during the day, but night time is a B*tch! I call my boobies my babies, and aptly so, for I may never sleep again! This is the only thing I am actually complaining about through out this entire ordeal. I have never had a surgery in mylife, let alone have an IV put on me until the day of my BA. Pain is tolerable, if only i can sleep! Be back to work in 4 days! yesterday, I am 1 week post op, last night was the worst! I was up and about yesterday, doing more stuff, I really wanna try starting to get on my normal routine, no heavy house chores yet, though i put some dishes in the dw, threw some clothes in the washer, then put away clothes after. just my clothes so it's not full on doing chores. But I feel so bad, so guilty about making my dear hubby do everything for this princess. He is truly wonderful and I am not used to him doing everything around the house because i couldn't. Love my hubby. Anyway, I took my Zzzquil, no tylenol at all for the past 2 days, i didn't think it was necessary. I hate taking meds more than I ave to. But I gotta have some sleep. Even with Zzzquil, I was up all night, bouncing from the bed to the recliner and this time, I even tried the couch, but no such luck. Didn't sleep til 5am. Then woke up at 9:30ish. Last Night, I felt that my right breast felt a lil weird, like moving or something. I haven't done any massaging because the doctor's assistant told me that she thinks I'm too sore to do that. I wear no band. Just the surgical bra that they gave me after surgery. My PS also didn't advocate ice packs or hot pads. Nothing.So I think I'm a tough Motha going through all this! haha. Anyway, last night, it kinda felt my right was softening up a little or so i think. I almost never feel them when my arms are down, but last night while i was trying to sleep, I could've sworn, I keep gracing it with the side of my arm evrytime i move to find a comfy position to sleep in. They really felt like they were moving a little. Left continued to feel stiff and hard but my right kinda felt tender. And today, I noticed, that my right kinda looks bigger than my left too. I don't know what to thinkl of it because up until now, i still can't completely wrap my brains up the fact that my right is 80cc bigger than my left. SO hopefully, it's just that the bigger implants is starting to settle. I won't really find out til Monday Oct. 8, what's going on when I get the stitches out. Hope that doesn't hurt too bad, Tuesday I'll be back to work already! Dreading that...Need to be able to sleep to go to work! Uggh! I can tough it out during the day, but at night, I always feel that i just recently had surgery! I can't wait to be able to sleep on my back normally, and not on elevated mounds of pillows! My back is killing me at night. It doesn't help that I have scoliosis.

More updates and pics later!