Transsexual BA Roller Coaster 2006-2015 - Szczecin, Poland

I started on HRH at 21 with pills. I'm 5'7''&3/4 (1,72m) and weighted 132 pounds 3 years and 11-15 pounds later I went from 36nada to 38AA got some curves but no breasts than I moved to Berlin,Germany and got my hands on Estradiol Depos and very strong Androcur, in a few months I gained about 40 pounds but only 38A breasts. I became very womanly just with tiny boobies so then I knew that I need implants. When I was 16 I calculated from nipples/chest middle radius that I gonna need 1100cc implants to be proportional with my back and shoulders and that's only possible with saline expanders first.

Math always does the trick if u start with no breasts.
So in 2006 after saving up like crazy for my 2 upcoming surgery- I knew that the 1st BA saline implants can't stay in my body longer than the needed expansion time, well they could have but who wants rock hard breasts??- so I planned for silicon for my end results ; I went for consultation and I spoke an hour long instead of the assistant who usually does the pre op talking. He said that never met a patient who knew so much about procedures like me :o) I was reading surgeon's textbooks since 16 so no wonder there ;-)
We agreed that I gotta need at least 800cc implants the biggest in the series to my disappointment, but then he told me about custom made silicon implants to my relief:o)
February 2006: When I woke up after my first surgery I screamed from pain so they pumped me full with morphine immediately thx God , they put in 800cc size adjustable saline implants but could fill it up only till 400cc , and it took 3&half hours and 2 surgeons to get it done. They told me that although I have real breasts tissue from the hormontherapy my muscles are so strong as a stallion horse's . That's a good thing by submuscular implants on the long run. I was extremely disappointed with that size, on my large chest it flattened out (16,1cm diameter expanders) and I was 38B cup. I was a hardcore stomach sleeper so the first 4 weeks weren't easy but thx God my Ex had waterbed so I could continue sleeping on front after they let me out (3days post op always or longer if needed) from the hospital to home. In the first 4 weeks I wanted to drain them with a needle it was so uncomfortable for my muscles, thx God common sense was stronger LOL after that I got used to them. 6 weeks later I went for the first filling (had the distance ventil about 5 inches from my armpits on the side covered up by fat so wasn't visible at all like by thin patients) and he put in 100cc saline solution. Hmmm it's better I thought looking into the mirror, and so it went every 3 weeks an other and an other 100cc , every 2nd time I increased a cup size, it was the most beautiful spring in my life watching my breasts finally growing like a teenage girl, I became 16 years old with 26 again! Lol
It went so till 800cc after that 50/60 ccs till 960 cc the max fill volume of that implants by the end of June. They've looked so cute that I went to CSD parade on the moving tracks topless in a corset with my bf . When I took of my blouse paparazzies started to shoot fotos like Madonna's we even got into the BZ newspaper, my ex still have it on his wall under glass :o)
Two months later I got my second BA with 1100cc implants, my surgeon used the periareolar technique so my muscles weren't cut at all ( just ripped of by my first BA ) so by the 2nd I had no pain at all, thx the heavens. Although did have terrible pain in the middle of my back 2 months long, managed with pain meds ( Tramadol 200mg and Diclofenac 600mg) until my muscles were stretched out and the pain went away. Ah yeah after the 2nd op they removed my drains too early (3 days after op) so my left breast had swollen up and get infection with fever so 2&half weeks later they needed to open it up to clean that out cuz the antibiotics had no effect. After that it was clear.
Periareolar submuscular with 1100cc (18cm diameter) implants were experimental and the left one started to bottoming out one year after surgery :-( after me my surgeon learned that max 1000cc with 15,5cm can be placed like that ) and by 2009 it got so bad that my breast was purple under the nipple and consulting with PS it needed a repair otherwise it could have come through my skin! They also thought after mammogram that the implant has ruptured as well. So a new one was ordered, but during my surgery (October 2009) my PS after extraction discovered that it was in tact and put it back after tissue repair instead of the new sterile implant! To save me costs. Well it didn't!
After that I started to suffering from minor chains of swellings, little fewers, not enough to feel uncomfortable and pay an other few 1000 bucks for an other surgery. Biggest mistake of my life!
And in my opinion in his career by placing not the new sterile implant , although I consulted many PS on that subject and it was inconclusive.
So forward time my boob got bigger about the size of an 1300 implant I kinda enjoyed that until it got really big 2000cc or more with deadly dangerous fever (41,2 Celsius!! In April 2013. After 1 week in bed I went to my GD they wanted to call the ambulance but I told them that I can't pay for that so I went next day to the emergency hospital myself yeah with over 41 Celsius fever. I'm really good with high fevers it doesn't knock me out like most people. There the ER doc told me that I have bacterial infection and it needs to be amputated immediately because the infection went over my heart, lungs, stomach and I'm a few days from multiple organ failure ! WtF now? I told him his balls first and left after signing the papers and psychological evaluation that the high fever doesn't compromising my decision center in my brain.
I called immediately the assistant of my PS told him what's up he picked me up in an hour from home and brought me over to the hospital in Szczecin. That evening my breast finally opened up by my nipple after taking a shower and it was like mothers milk by fully load. They've squeezed it out as much as possible (I thought gonna scream from pain, but didn't) put me in bandages and IV antibiotics but next day when my PS arrived he told me that amputation not but extraction is very likely necessary. I had over a liter infectious liquid inside it so no wonder. It was extracted against my will but between dying or that I really had no choice. To be continued...

After 2 days they took me off morphines still on IV antibiotics 7days long in the hospital (costs 1000€) I got my first nervous breakdown when I looked in the mirror, one side my beautiful 1100cc breast the other like a rubbed out bag :-/ and I break out in tears the first time. I seriously thought that I gonna kill myself once get home, but after talking to my PS about reconstruction thankfully I changed my mind. My mom was a huge help financially and with moral support during the next two and half yrs , my savings alone couldn't have covered it all:-(
I wore 7 months long spounch and during work a 650cc silicon implant in my bra (the lovely assistant let me borrow his supply) until my first reconstruction surgery. I researched the expander which I wanted because I knew that the ones with my first BA aren't big enough, after a lot of Internet research and phoning manufacturers I decided to go with mentor's biggest smooth round TE 1000cc fill volume (350-4306M) 15,5 dia.and 7,8 cm project. Of course overfilled at least 25% to not the break the medical rule again by going with bigger implant than the expander. Like by my 2nd BA
My PS agreed of course;-)
He did to try to repair the muscle with stem cell fat grafting transplant (from my belly bottom) it was only slightly very light Magellan color after surgery only a week long, yeah considering my skin tone (porcelane) it's very not bruising easily at all. He did I don't know why dual-plane implant technique and immediately after I woke up and touched my boob I knew that something is terribly wrong with it. 2 other PS in the hospital there told me that I can't feel the muscle in the inferior area cuz of the fat transfer plus they're very thinned through the previous infection but I knew that's not true. I know every muscle on my body and can flax them all (even my ears and nose like a witch) but what could I do? Nothing:-( he put in 500cc and about 150cc fat into the muscle and for my birthday two injection into my mouth winkles cuz I asked (no extra for that) because in 2011 I lost finally the 40 pounds what I gained before see middle pics , and 6 months later an other 20 pounds too, I was never so thin I weighted 121 lbs first time since I was 9 years old, yeah I was a heavy kid, with 16 I lost 60 pounds in 4 months with crush diet, and kept it until I started with hardcore HRH at 25. In 2012 I was 115/55/90cm (b/w/h) wow true hourglass figure but my face needed 3 hrs Hollywood make up before I looked okay. Plus u could see my rips back and forth so I gained back (with eating) to 155lbs and looked great. Unfortunately after my extraction I comforted my depression with food so gained unwillingly an other 20 pounds but hell no wonder.
So back after Op November 2013. 3 weeks later the assistant started to filling my expander in 6 weeks after op it was at 750cc when Christmas night I picked up something from my bathroom floor and with that the distance ventil (which btw this time was put under my breast on my rips not on the side like by the first one , through damage from the infection) rose up into my pocket, I looked in the mirror with excruciating pain and saw that the knot disappeared under the device, I popped it back with two fingers but it was already too late cuz it ruptured it:-/ waaa nice Christmas present he? High fever a week, inside bleeding und muscle fracture by ultrasound diagnosed. My PS and his assistant blamed me for it saying that my bf pushed it up by intimate contact, not true! Anyway for the replacement I still needed to pay an another 650€ . But this time he did it right at least completely submuscular, never accepted responsibility for the dual-plane mistake ( by implants it's okay but by growing expanders it's not gonna expand the pectoralis major cuz it's bottoming out constantly into the soft tissue without muscles to hold the upper projection) plus I called Mentor for the reclamation claim and they never received the device, it disappeared on the post station in Polland they said, shady? Anyway
I was happy that this time I can have the full experience of growing again without further complications. The 2nd reconstruction replacement surgery was end of January 2014. I had to watch to deflate it completely until then.
By July 2014 I was filled up till 1250cc ... To be continued...