Worth Every Tear and Every Penny - Syracuse, NY
I am 7 weeks post and I'm loving my new body! I...
I had my TT after losing 110 pound after a decade...
I had my TT after losing 110 pound after a decade of obesity. One of the other PS had told me I would need either an extended TT or a Belt Lipectomy to have a decent figure and showed me in great detail how wide and saggy I would still be with a standard TT. My PS told me that he could achieve an amazing result without having to do either, but that I would still be wide framed...because I have a wide frame, not because I needed a pricier, more invasive procedure.
People are built differently, I happen to be 5'8, 140lbs and have a wide, straight frame and a ribcage that protrudes out. I decided to have a breast augmentation as well to fill in the deflated skin where breasts must have previously existed. (I don't remember having them to begin with, but the hanging skin was evidence that it did) I left the size and profile of the silicone implant up to my PS and trusted his judgement. He knew I wanted to look feminine, but not top heavy. I wanted to look "Natural", though in all honesty I did wonder if a PS would have a different idea of "Natural" because of the nature of their profession.
The surgery was 3.5 hours. The recovery was hell. All of the things I loved the very most were impossible to do, and the things I absolutely HAD to do required help. I didn't follow my post-op directions like I should have and ended up setting my recovery back a little which meant the drain had to stay in pretty much as long as they felt it was safe to. From week 2-3 I had severe depression. I cried every day, and then cried harder knowing that there would be noone who would sympathize with a girl crying because her plastic surgery was painful and frustrating. I isolated myself from my family and friends and didn't leave my completely blacked out room, unless it was to try and use the bathroom. I've read about a great deal of women who experience depression in some form shortly after their TT.
Luckily, my drain came out just a week later and I was back. The only pain left for me at Four weeks post op is muscular. Where they did the muscle repair I can feel the muscles and they are generally fine, but when I have overdone it with physical activity or if I'm really cold, they begin to feel like they are contracting and my body begins to fold over into a familiar hunch. My PS ended up using a 550cc High Profile Silicone implant placed beneath the muscle. It is a large implant, but being 5'8 I am a large person and they are perfect. My incision is a thin line that is thinner than my C-Section scars were, though obviously much longer. I'm not worried about the Scar, I know it will fade quickly. I refer to it as my "Re-birthmark" as I feel like I was not just changed physically on that OR table, but emotionally.
Physically, he removed skin that I had worn both stretched and tight and loose and jiggly as a reminder of the shame, the humiliation, the insecurity of being obese, emotionally the change is just as permanent.There will be no more funky fungal infections in my would-be belly button, or beneath my pannus. I don't feel selfish for having the procedure done. I feel like I earned every bit of satisfaction I will get from my surgery. I'm going to wear what I want, uninhibited by layering and padding, and stuffing and tucking.
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