Fraxel Left Tiny Holes All over my Face and Texture Change - Sydney, AU

No healing. At this point Ive tried it all and it's just now what it is, laser train still keeps chugging along and my face is just not coping well at all.
It would be one thing if damage was one off thing and it wouldn't change but this is unnerving as it is constantly happening, still. Laser triggered chain of events and it seems unstoppable.
Texture is pretty much the same, leathery skin with crepiness and holes. Laser tracks visible now on both cheeks.
I also now deal with very sore and increasingly sensitive skin. Im very red with white raccoon eyes and demarcation lines are still clear as a day specially when my face flares up.
I feel I have zero skin barrier left, I instantly burn and sting outside regardless of how sunny it is. I wear mad amounts of white zinc andx titanium sunblock and walk around with this white zinc face, but I burn every day regardless.
I used to be okay as long as I had sunblock. Now it's nightmare to go out and my work requires it daily.
I come home and my body is pale but my face is dark and red and burning and stinging. Apart from raccoon eyes where laser didnt touch me. And tip of my nose, where she didn't laser me. On my neck near earlope I had scarring so she went there too- redness goes to there but rest of neck is normal.
I have developed brown spots and one needs to be checked for skin cancer.
I am angry and tired and chronically depressed about watching this unfold every day. Six years is looong time and this is "rest of your life" kinda thing. I don't want to do this much longer to be honest but it's how it's going to be.
Although it's a nice thought that this is only a bit of damaged barrier that can heal itself if I do x y and z, it's clear now that this is deep burn that destroyed my majority of my skin. And whats left is scartissue that unfortunately doesnt have the resilience of normal skin.
If anyone is after a doctor who helps laser damage patients, dr Jeremy Rawlins in Perth. He has seen this so many times and will genuinely help you if he can, by the way.
Doctors really need to precribe laser and ipl users burn ointments to minimise damage done to the skin. I wonder if that would have lessened the damage for me. I was told to put paw paw ointment which traps heat inside the dermis even longer.
I wish one day world will catch up and ban these devices for cosmetic use on healthy skin.
This post is now a diary for long term damage lasers have, I shall post in a year again if things have calmed down at all or gotten worse.
Best of luck to anyone suffering from the aftermath from these devices. The rest of you- do not destroy your life and health like I did. Xoxo

More pictures that show permanent state of my skin. I hate what they did to me everyday every minute I hate my face I hate my life, i can't stress how much I hate that my heart just keeps on beating.
I have no life left, my life is burning skin, Ugly scarred up skin, curious stares, blatant stares, people look at my side profile, surprised at seeing my skin, trying to work out what's so weird about it.
Red raw skin, burned, microwaved scarred destroyed face staring back at me. Nothing will help me!
Garry Cussell and his assistant Rosita destroyed my skin, my face , my life. I have nothing left in me of my old self. How could you lie about safety to me???!!! I said I could never cope mentally if my skin got any more scarred than it was. No no, it's 100% safe, this technology can't harm you, your skin will love it, it's like going on a holiday..impossible to scar.
I can't understand how this can happen this day and age! I have been in hell five years. Its never going to end for me is it? They took my money knowing the risks it would have and went ahead without warning me about this. Then when I complained doctor said they don't have to tell anything.
I have nowhere to turn to, I can't do a thing and my face burns and burns and burns. It looks hideous so hideous the scarring is visible two meters away.
Life is no longer exiting and magical journey. Its eternal burning hell very literally. I won't make it far, I refuse to suffer for something I didn't deserve. Was my money worth it? Was it worth destroying my life? Was it?