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I took a photo of pre-1st op, pre-2nd op, pre-3rd op and finally today . . . I can't believe I thought implants would give me more confidence! I only gained that after this whole ordeal was finally over!! I'm almost back to full strength, but every now and again I overstretch or carry too much and can feel that there is still some healing to do, but I am constantly grateful for my healing and all the lessons I have learned through this whole journey. I finally love myself in a way I have never allowed myself to and even though $30,000 is an awful lot of money, I wouldn't change a thing! If that's what I had to go through to get to where I am, I'm so glad to be here that it was all worth it! Wow, how good to finally be able to say that! "It was all worth it!" I am so glad I finally took those implants out! Thank you to all the fabulous and courageous women on this sight who share so much - you helped me immensely [RS bleep]

Well, it's been nearly four weeks and things are great! My little boobies have deflated a little since the day of surgery, which was expected, but the scars and the blister are healing well. I used virgin coconut oil after a week and am now using rosehip oil with jojoba and gently massaging the scars to encourage healing and break down the scar tissue.

Emotionally I am one of the luck ones! I have had zero regrets and love my natural boobies more than ever . . . even if they are the saggiest they have ever been : ) : ) I love feeling good in clothes again and though there is no man in my life, I know I will be more confident in myself when I get naked in front of the next one.

So hiding under the gauze in my last photo was this quite sizeable blister that has been causing me the most pain from this whole explant-experience! It was caused by a combination of having the glad-wrap sticky stuff to keep my drain in place and then the breast swelling underneath it from the haematoma. It looks a bit messy, but I wanted to post these photos too, not to shock or scare anyone, but to have some info/photos on this site relating to a haematoma. I also strongly believe that in a matter of weeks I will be able to post photos of a complete recovery, which will hopefully give anyone else going through anything similar some optimism. The pain is not so terrible (I have not had any painkillers since surgery!), but compared to the general pain of the explanting, the blister is the worst!

I won't go in to extensive details (email me if you are interested), but my surgeon, who also does face lifts, has give me directions on how to minimise the scarring (Before being able to apply vitamin E) and help the blister heal with minimal pigmentation!

After surgery my boobs were obviously still a bit swollen, because NOW I know what you lovely ladies mean by pancakes! Although mine are more like little crepes and the nipples aren't completely 'caving in' but definitely sagging (photos actually make them look better than they are) My body and I have some work to do to shrink the skin and puff up these little girls a bit, but I know that will take some time. In the meantime I still can't quite put in to words just how relieved and excited I am that the implants are out. I feel like myself again, but for the first time in my life I really feel happy in my own skin.

I love that I can now breathe deep without feeling the pressure of implants. I'm really looking forward to be able to give real hugs (instead of those head&shoulder hugs so that the person can't feel my embarrassing implants) and I'm already enjoying being able to walk around with my shoulders back instead of rolling them forwards to minimise the size of those 34DDs! woohoo!