37 Years Old, 4 Kids - Switzerland

Hi everybody,
some of you asked me for pictures. Here there are.
I don't really like taking pictures of my breast. I do not find it very beautiful. Still better than before the surgery, but you know, it is difficult for me to Watch my scars...
and the two boobs are quiet different. do you see how the left one looks out?
and after 4 months, the scars are still quiet sore.

as I already told you, my surgery occured on january the 21st. I have been so freaking out the days and even the weeks before, that I lost not far than 3 kilos! At the end, my mum accepted my decision and also accepted to come to my place to look after my 4 chidren during the 4 days that I would be in the hospital.
So my husband gave me the lift to the hospital that cold january morning. We left home at 6 am to get to my apointment at 7 am. That morning, when the alarm clock Wake us up, I told my husband : " Oh my god, you shoud touch my beast, it is all small! I am going to call the hopsital and tell them I won't be coming!"" I was so so so freaking out!
But guess what! I got up to take my shower, and we finally made our way to the hospital!
I was so excited to have this done ! I couldn't miss it!!!
So I did my check in at 7 am, they took me to my room, gave me the lovely shirt and the drug to chill . And I loved it ! I became totally out of it and I really loved it! than they took me to the surgical unit, that is where my PS made the marks on my breast. 1,2,3,4, ..... and I woke up! With my new and lovely boobies! but that is not where the dream begun, because, the fist 4 days following the surgery were more like a nightmare! not totally but... the first bandage was so compressive, that I could hardly breathe!
Otherwise, I didn't have much pain at all, I had to ask for some stronger drug only once or twice! the first day and night, the second day, where I also got up for the first time, I could handle with paracetamol and ibuprofen 400 that's all.

so let me telle you more about all my experience. So having a small and perky breast has always been a dream for me. You know, like when you are a child and you dream of being able to fly or something like that! It was a dream that I thought I could never realise! you know, here in Switzerland, plastic surgery is still a big big big taboo! I have my sister and my mom who kept telling me that I had to accept myself like I was... bla bla bla! Easy for her to say, because the two of her have a small breast!
So at the beginning of 2013, one day, I became aware that I could realise that dream, in spite of my fear! yes, because I had such a fear! The fear to Wake up during the surgery, the fear to get cut and opened (I don't know if you understand! my English is not that good!) the fear to have post-surgery problems and not be able to get back home for my children and so on...
but at the same time, I just couln't imagine to live with this enormous saggy breast all my life!!