Still trying to just chill out but as old problems resolve a little, new problems start- ugh. Scary. Looking a bit like an extra on the walking dead, lol, wish it was actually funny. Makes a big difference if I put on a ton of base make up under my eyes to hide the dark circles.
Hematoma is STILL there, I keep thinking it will go away TOMORROW....
Still hard to tell how that left eye will look when The hematoma is gone.
Right eye still the most worrisome to me as it still has an odd shape being pulled down and laterally. Some days it seems to be getting better. I am doing upwards massage for a few minutes every few hours, but sometimes it just seems to look the same. My eyes are both much rounder than before surgery, i look at my before pictures and want to cry.
I am sad to report that Dr. Kass has been pretty awful as far as making me feel better and giving me guidence and education on what is happening. I am very disappointed in his lack of empathy in this matter. Instead of helping me,He seems to take it as personally that I would suggest anything is wrong. Get over yourself Doc, these are MY Eyes, here, this is NOT about you!
Pretty strange. His staff are very nice but they are telling me how great it looks as if there are no problems, which actually makes me more nervous than if they acknowledged that I am having some issues due to the hematoma etc, but it will turn out great eventually. I am not sure any of the staff ladies are actual nurses or medical people at all, anyway. There is Just a basic lack of acknowledgement that anything is abnormal with my surgery or recovery coming down from the top, since that is the odd stance Dr. Kass seems to take as well.
I am pretty sure I was told that it would be fine in 2 weeks and
I could even travel and see someone in a month for sure (!) so I know it is not normal to take this long to heal. But Now I am hearing things from the Doctor and staff that oh yes, it takes 2 mos, 6 mos, 1 year to heal...Really? I never heard that before surgery! Yes i know that it takes up to a year to COMPLETELY HEAL AND SETTLE, but I was NEVER told that it might take that long for INITIAL healing. What is going on?
Anyway, it is just scary to have your eyes look abnormal to what they looked like before, and I am still hoping it will resolve fine, but since Dr. Kass had previously told me that he has done over 10,000 eye surgeries, so he knew the hematoma would heal, it seems reasonable for me to expect him to know what to tell me is going on with my issues now in SPECIFIC TERMS, , and to tell me what his experience is with these issues. ....and to not just give me a a generic answer to every inquiry, basically that EVERYTHING is due to swelling. ... and make an appt to see me in a month!
*Eyes too round, dont look like myself at all
*When I smile. My face looks frozen, and scary, eyes dont move. I look
I am wearing a mask- this makes me really scared. I have no emotion in my face!
*On the sides, my eyelashes are now vertical, so I can no longer get them in a crimper! (Upper lid pulled down too tight?)
*scleral show, lower lid drooping (called retraction) on right eye (I asked, and the Dr. Said he did not do anything to support the lower lid during surgery, he did not elaborate, or tell me why he didnt, of course)
*hematoma still there under left eye, so it is hard to know if the lower lid will droop or not when it is gone or how the shape will be, right now the eye is a bit too big for my liking
* eye sockets very pronounced and hollowed out , skull-like, with dark circles under both eyes. Worse, of course, on the hematoma side, but it makes me nervous that it is on the right side too. Why would i have a depression there if everything is due to "swelling"? And Dr. Kass said "people get fillers for that" - What? I just had a lower bleph and he is saying I can get fillers ? I thought he just told me everything was due to swelling? Am I supposed to need fillers right AFTER getitng a lower bleph? That doesnt sound too positive to me....
* rounded lateral canthus- outer eye is not an acute angle causing a sad eye look
I sent a photo (with makeup on) to a frined of mine a few days ago just to get her opinion, and she is now freaking out! She thinks i look like a Meth addict! What does that tell you - that I look "refreshed" as the staff told me at Dr. Kass' office?
Again, SURE- this may all resolve in another 3 - 4 weeks, I hope to God it does, but on the basis of Dr Kass inability to acknowledge and help me through this annormally long recovery, I dont think I would recommend him to anyone. If I ever have another surgery, I will absolutely ask the surgeon what possible complicarions there are, and exactly how he would handle them if they occur. I would also ask what his rate of complications was. We all want to be so politie, but when it is our faces and surgery , it is NOT the time to be overly concerned with hurting the Dr's feelings by simply asking important questions. If a surgeon is uncomfortable answering those questions, then they will surely be uncomfortable handling any problems, so I would move on down the road. The best surgeon in the world can have complications, so it is something they should all know how to deal with.
Btw, those of you following my review know that I have done everything I can to facilitate a quick recovery., And lI have put my life on HOLD to take it extra easy, no exercise, no traveling, (put a big trip on hold already) no bending, etc, sleeping on my back on the couch and in a recliner for almost 5 weeks! ,thank God I haven' t had to work or I dont know what I would have done. Going back in 2 weeks. I have already had to tell many people about this surgery that I didnt want to tell because it was unavoidable. I wanted it to be a complete secret and even paid one of Dr. kass' staff to pick me up and take me home the day of surgery to avoid letting any friends or neighbors know. ( also feel she charged me an exhorbitant fee for that service which She did not tell about up front, ( I would NOT have done it if she had)so I just figured it wouldn't be too much - wrong. another disappointment.
I decided I need to get a second objective opinion.
Even if another PS can just tell me that they have seen my issues before, and it will resolve in time. Or at least tell me what is going on, so I understand it. I wish I could get that from my PS , but apparently not.
I have an appt Wednesday with an oculoplastic Surgeon who specializes in eye surgery complications, so am looking forward to finding SOMETHING out. Ill let you know how it goes. Ill post some pics, I wish I Could show my whole face because then you can see a lot more how the eyes just dont match my face, its truly sad.
Ok thats my story-Tell me your thoughts, thanks in advance.