38, 2 Kids Lost Excess Weight in Last Year and Half and Have Loose Skin - St. Peter's MO

So I have not did an update for awhile. Really not a while lot has changed but at my last ps appt. doc gave me green light to start working abs and I was 4 weeks then and I tried to do some crunches and light ab work and oh boy doc said it was fine but my tummy said no! It did not hurt but very very uncomfortable! So I did add running back into my workouts and started abs again this week and what a week will do because no uncomfortable feeling at all I feel back to normal with maybe some minor twinge feelings now and then. I am cleaning houses daily back to routine and I'm not getting tired anymore like I was so I guess when I said nothing really changed it really has now that I'm typing it up I realize a few weeks I have gotten over some stumps and feeling almost totally normal. I feel good about getting the mtt but some days I still get emotional and worry I should've talked my doc into doing more but then I think how much longer the healing process would've been and I don't know I could handle it so I feel blessed how it has gone. There's always a critic in the back of my mind because I still don't like when I bend over or sit my skin is still lax and scrunched but I try to think about all the positives instead. I have been wearing short shirts which my hubby absolutely loves he always wanted me to sport the crop tops before and I was totally not comfy and did not do it so now the warmer weather has come and I'm living that I get to shop for any shirt/shorts capris I want without worrying about that skin hanging over :) my pics that's I've taken really look no different then last but I took few just to update. Oh and I do still swell in fact a lot lately now that I'm doing ab workouts. It's not horrible but enough that I feel it and you can definitely see it from side view! I still wear cg at all times except sleeping my husband got a little tired if not being able to touch my skin and so I compromised to only wearing days ;) at my month appt doc said to start using lotion and massaging my scar he recommended jergens or coco butter or something with vitamin E so I have been using jergens skin firming on whole tummy and scar and I bought a bottle of vitamin e oil and use that twice day on stretch marks and scar. I think the vitamin E oil is working. I still have puckering but has gone away a tiny but so hopefully it will keep diminishing. Another thing I wanted to mention lately if I eat past my full point my stomach gets this uncomfortable almost like gonna bust feeling it's really bad in wonder if anyone else has that. I'm not complaining too much because it has me control my intake especially at buffets ! LOL but I don't eat unhealthy no fried not breads no starches and I still get that feeling. I guess that's it do now I gotta head off to work hope everyone is happily healing and having great success!

Not sure If I'm happy or not but my steri strips were coming off so I pulled them off with no problem but now I kinda wish I wouldn't of I am nervous that they were keeping scar secure so not I feel like I'm not as protected in still wearing my foam thingy and cg 24/7 but I have puckering on left side and I hope it's swelling but I feel like right above the incision there's a ledge?? I don't know if I expected the steri strips to come off and it look Better but it looks worse to me :/ I need to go back over some if you girls reviews and see if you had puckering and if that goes away with time or if I have it forever? I'm also sad because all my bikini bottoms are too low and you can see scar :( today is just not my day! I am also discouraged with skin laxicity like it's not tight enough I don't know it's like I still have loose skin and it reminds me if old days preop! I'm hoping it's just swelling and it will get tighter flatter as time goes in and hopefully when u can start working and out there will be more definition :) okay I'm done venting ;)

All I got to say is wow I didn't realize how exhausted I could get cleaning house! I went back to work yesterday and cleaned a home I took it slower than usual and watched how I maneuvered so I didn't stretch funky and it took me a little over 4 hrs and by the time I was done I did. It even feel like picking up my cleaning supplies and walking out to my car! I was so lethargic! I was not in any pain or uncomfortable just my body felt like I had been ran over! I had to go to grocery store and pick up kids from school and I seriously just wanted to lay my head down on steering wheel and not move! By the time I got home put groceries away and started dinner I got myself to recliner and fell sound asleep and I wanted to check to see if swollen but I was too tired! I slept pretty much of the evening and my hubby finished up dinner and got kids situated and we went to bed at 8:30. I slept like a rock. Woke up this morning at 6 and still feel a little tired but drinking some coffee and gonna head to cleaning job, I may take it even a little slower today. I want to cancel so bad but unfortunately right now I need the money so I'm gonna hammer through it! If not too tired I will post pics of swelling later on, I'm curious to know how much I swell because I have been doing treadmill everyday and I did not swell from that and my regular housework here at home did not make me swell but I definitely felt it yesterday so we will see. Happy Friday to all! I do wanna share one more thing I know my updates are probably long and boring but I want to share something personal... I finally got to make love to my husband. He made me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world! I laughed and I cried it was sooo emotional! I did not realize how really self conscious I was before when that loose skin hung when I would be on top and I was constantly worried about it and the other night I started toget that old insecure feeling back and then my husband made comment how flat and how he loved my belly button and I lost all insecurities that were there! He got worried when I started crying he thought it hurt LOL but then when I said no it's happy tears he took me in his arms and loved me and I have to say that was one of the best feelings in the world! I know it's a little tmi but I wanted to share because as a woman we have so many insecurities and here we go through so much and have out wonderful children and families and should always feel on cloud nine but we don't that's reality! Okay now I'm done and hope everyone has a great Friday feeling flatter!!!! :)