I Wanted Small and Perky, but I Got Big and Saggy

Hi ladies! Sorry it has taken me so long to update! I got my surgery 13 days ago, and I am feeling so good about everything! My hernia repair hurt a little more than I prepared for and because of that I really haven't even felt any chest pain. I was on pain meds for the first 3 days and really took it easy the first week because my core was so tender from the hernia. I have worn a compression bra day and night and when I take it off from time to time and take a look...I am really happy with what I see! Heck, they even look a little perky! Ha! Wish I could have seen them thru these eyes 8 months ago and saved myself a few thousand. Oh well. I have to say it was all worth it and I am glad that I took them out after such a short time instead of waiting it out for a few years. I am feeling so light again. I love how clothes fit on me now and even my husband told me he liked them better a few nights ago! I have to once again say thank you to you ladies for sharing your stories. You have me courage and permission to accept that I had made a mistake, get my implants removed, and move on.
Thank you!
Also, I had IV sedation instead of general (I just asked for it) which saved me about $600. The surgeon did a great job and made incisions that are only about 1/2 inch under crease. Very happy with him! I had no capsule removed. He said they were tissue thin.

Well today is the day to get these empty bags out of me! It is 6:30 AM and surgery is scheduled for 11:15 AM. I didn't sleep a wink last night. Dang nerves! I am not even sure why I am so restless...I pretty much already know what I will look like afterwards because of the deflation. I guess I am feeling nervous about actual surgery. I was able to meet with my plastic surgeon for preop and he calmed a lot of my fears. He really doesn't think I need a capsulectomy, but he will take a careful look during surgery to make sure. He talked to me one last time about trying a new implant (smaller and lower profile), but of course I told him my decision is final. He was very respectful, and I am really happy with his approach. I asked if I could have conscious sedation instead of general, and he said that would be fine, so my total price will be about $1,700. Not bad.
My arm pain/weakness has subsided thankfully! That was really making me nervous. I stopped working out completely and really rested for 2 days and it helped immensely. I am sure I was just overdoing it while my muscles were trying to contract down.
I felt really emotional last night. I still feel really frustrated with the money spent, the results I wanted vs the results I got. I can't help, but still long for that "perky round look" I know that I should just be grateful for these natural boobs, and I am most the time (really!) but there are some tough angles that are hard to see (bending over). I do like the feeling of my natural breasts though, and I think even if I had gotten the exact results I wanted, I am sure that I still would have had the same feelings of heaviness and discomfort. I am again so grateful for all of you gals and your updates. I am confident that time is on my side and it will just get better and better. Thankfully, my husband has been very supportive...probably a little annoyed with my constant need for approval, but very supportive and caring. I am lucky.

Well I am getting these shells removed in 3 days!!! I am so ready to get these out! I am having some weird symptoms since deflation that has me a little worried. My arms feel weak and heavy all the time. I can still workout, clean house, take care of kiddos, etc, but I am constantly aware of this weird feeling....like I have to concentrate to lift my arms. My right arm is a little worse than my left...That side hurt more when the PS deflated that implant as well. I am getting really nervous about it, and I am hoping that it will go away once I am healed from explant. I never had any complications with the implants, no weird symptoms at all, and my breasts always stayed soft. Of course, I turn to the internet and am scared stiff with all the horror "implants cause illness" stories out there. I just hope I haven't damaged my body. I will see the PS tomorrow and talk to him about it.
As far as how I feel in appearance....fantastic!! I have embraced these little itty bittys :) Thank you ladies for the sweet compliments!! I feel so light and young...no more heavy feeling. I am just so very grateful that they have shrunk up decently.
I will keep you all posted on what happens tomorrow....