My Omnibotch Rhinoplasty. Norwich, GB
I had a large hook nose and at times I felt...
Searching for revision
For now I changed my mind about my shocking photos being for all to see :(
Still I wait..
Legal case has been 4 and a half years so far even though my surgeon was fairly quick to want to settle the matter. Something needs to be done to sort out the process whys it take so bloody long? Solicitors fees are like 4 times my compensation it's ridiculous.
I feel so exhausted from it all and so fed up of looking like this for 7 years :'(
I've booked a consultation with Mr Ion earliest i could see him is Nov and there's a wait for the surgery so any op will be after Christmas now I guess. I just hope this rib graft doesn't break through my skin before then.
Thanks to all that comment on my review I appreciate your support. I've been trying to keep busy and avoided this site for a bit, it's just frustrating when there is nothing I can do but wait.
I'm working on getting healthy for an op. I look awful now so poorly and during this time I think I aged really quick because of stress. I think I might speak to the surgeon about a brow lift to correct all the wrinkles I have now. Even with a nice nose my looks won't ever be the same again..It's too late now..I've lost so much these past 7 years stress and illness have taken an unforgiving toll. Im 39 now and I know you can't stay young forever but I would just like to look pretty or just be happy with myself for a little while. To get married and feel good on my wedding day to go on holiday and feel young and pretty like I did before, to just feel comfortable with my appearance for a few years would be amazing before I accept my aging fate.
I did a story with the sun newspaper about my nose it didn't come across how I intended it to really, just made me look like a fool people have little sympathy for me. Many of the comments i read said stuff like It serves me right ..I knew the risks ..shouldn't do it to please others.
I was vain should accept what you had.
Well I trusted a doctor to perform an op to improve my appearance I wasn't ever warned my nose might be over shortened due to his lack of skill. I wasn't warned I'd need 3 ops and a painfull ribgraft and end up disfigured and unable to breath. I wasn't warned I'd have horrid smell and recurrent painful sinusitis. Why does it serve me right? Because I trusted a doctor to help me and he destroyed me?!..SMH if they went to the hairdresser and got a scarred bald head would it be their own fault. If they took their nice car to a garage and the mechanic ripped out the engine and smashed the phuck out of the car and said there you go best I could do would that be the customers fault?
Bullshit.. I was conned into thinking he could perform a difficult surgery to my face. He should of been honest about his experience and should of told me my nose was a difficult case and it highly unlikely he'd achieve a good result. He could of recommended me to a rhinoplasty expert. Instead he performed a terrible botch op and ruined my life just for a few thousand pounds. He stole my 30's from me. Years when women are usually at their most confident and happy. Well mine are gone now I can never get these years back and still I wait.
The newspaper wants to do another story IF my nose finally gets fixed - a happy ending a big make over me looking healthy and happy. Sounds like a lovely dream that's still so far away..
Best wishes to all x
Thought id just check in and show the morphs Mr Ion done for me on my last visit. I look at it almost everyday on a countdown I so hope things work out.
Ive been feeling ill still Ive been strugling to even get my kids to school and my partner now takes them I feel so weak physically on top of my anxiety. I have a cough that wont go away as well as sinus headache. I need to look after myself and pull myself out of this depression and constant anxiety its killing me but its just so hard not to worry :'(
Love you all
Not long to go ..anxiety level 100
I went for my biopsy appt at NNUH (Norwich NHS hospital) and saw two ENTS there. A younger one first had a look up my nose I winced because he hurt my nose pushing on the tip where the rib graft is so he went to get senior Mr Prinsley for a second opinion. Mr Prinsley rummaged quickly through my enormous pile of notes asked who performed my surgery I told him Mr Clibbon he looked very interested at that oh Mr Clibbon yes I said he did this to me and Mr Logan too on the 3rd botch he built this huge rib graft and made things even worse. He asked about my case and I explained it had been settled out of court and I had finally got some money to fix it.
He had a look up my nose but said he was unsure what area Mr Ion wanted Biopsy and said it was likely still raw looking because of trauma from all my surgery ..... he had a bit of a sarcastic tone as he said" and youre going for MORE surgery arent you with an errrr whats his name Mr Ion Ive never heard of him".
" Hes very good" I said.
"How would you know" he asked
"From the internet there's revie.." I tried to say review sites of actual patients out there now and we talk to help each other.
but he cut me off dead and said "Ohhh yes theeee internet" threw his colleague a look and they chuckled Hmmm he said looking down his old arrogant nose at me.
"Well I cant leave it in this mess I keep getting sinusitus pain in my face and can barely breathe, my nose collapses inwards even more when i lay down and i still get a smell in my nose if i move it or rub it".
At that he consulted my notes again and asked had I ever had a scan done of it. No i havent . So he arranged that to be done.
He could see by my notes that some time ago I had been referred by the NHS for medical revision reasons and he asked why I hadnt gone ahead, I told him that Mr Bath another of NNUH'S ENT's had seen me and had planned to revise my problems by using an artificial medpor implant and that i knew from my own research it would probably be a total disaster for my nose. i explained how after research I had asked then to be put on Mr Woolfords list but after over a year and a half wait on his list and travelling 5 hours each way for 2 consultations he didnt seem confident or clear about what he do to fix the over shortening or in particular the columella area he actually said Im not sure what we can do here... I also spoke to a couple of dissatisfied patients of his and changed my mind I decided to cancel surgery with him and keep researching and wait until i could afford private revision.
Mr Prinsley now looked at me more sympathetically after that, he looked thoughtful for a moment maybe at what Ive been through and I felt like he now realised Im not a total idiot and that i might actually know what Im talking about...
He sighed deeply Yes he paused again and then he shook my hand and said Im sorry for what you have been through and I wish you luck with your surgery.
I had my scan a week later, was a tad scary laying in that machine but it was over quickly. I stressed the next few days badly thinking what they might find. But I still haven't heard back at all its been like two weeks and nothing. So I can only assume its good news right? No news is good news..Ok I should probably ring my doctor and find out but Im so anxious and stressed even phone calls are hard to make that probably sounds stupid to some unless you suffer the same illness that I do :(
So my 2nd consultation with Mr Ion was 22nd feb
Bit of a wait 45 mins but it was good to sit down after rushing to get there. Organising to leave my children and dogs for the day and get to London is epic for me almost missed the train there.
So basically we went over what he said last time. It looks almost certain I will need a new rib graft and hes taking it from another site so a new scar. Im upset I have to have that my first rib scar is obvious and on my lowest left rib it was painful. I told him I like the morph he did last time but that I had always wanted it more scooped than that (my thinking to be honest was if i want it scooped he wont need the rib graft) but he said it wouldn't suit me something about if you have a small chin too it doesnt look right. I would of liked to have seen it morphed at least to see how it would look but oh well. He recommended all the usual aftercare and precautions and that was that really I was out again in 15 minutes.
Ive been really emotional about the whole thing just getting to london like i said is a big deal for me it wipes me out with anxiety literally two days before and two days to recover. So maybe thats partly it but I cried for the last two days so much my eyes my face and eyelids are thick and puffy. I really hate the idea of another ribgraft for 1 its painful last time it was taken from my lower rib and to this day in certain positions it moves/pops sometimes just breathing i can feel it. if anyone gos to touch me there I jump like a shock its very sensitive. 2. Another scar 3. and scar will be under my breast. I hate the thought of laying there naked having my boob messed with now as well as my nose. i dont know if anyone will understand this i feel humiliated degraded and vulnerable. Right now i weigh six and a half stone (40kgs) I hate my skinny bony little body as much as my nose. I hate the thought I have to be seen that way now too. Like its enough its my face now my body gotta be damaged further. Im so sad Im so scared I thought about ending it all again and thats the truth.
But my boys need me dont they. I knew that clear enough really when I got home and both my mum and sister let me know how much of an effort taking care of them is. Neither can cope with them alone so I ask both to sit together shes my younger step sister so not my mothers daughter. Anyway my mother seemed annoyed that not only do I have to stay in hospital overnight but I have to return for the cast off... I havent even said there will be further follow ups! She drinks wine and my step sister gets upset by stupid crap my mum comes out with about (our) dad. So now my sister is dreading having to do it again for the night. My mum plain told me there's no way shes going to have them for a week when I had planned to go on honeymoon either. She said she cant and neither can Michelle...
Im gutted about that too my boys are 10, 5 and 3 they are lovely boys the younger two are a handful but I have a huge garden and they even have their own playground to tire themselves out on its not like theres nothing to do for them. Ive never even had a night out in almost 5 years with my boyfriend the only time i get away from my kids or ask for any help is when I have hospital appointments and even thats too much to ask now it seems.
Its just made me worry even more about staying in hospital and having a hurt rib for weeks again I have very little help. My partner is ok but if hes tired forget it after getting back from london he was tired and grumpy and no support at all the next day just sulked all day in the bedroom.
I think if anything happened to me then my boys would all get split up and they would lose everything so I HAVE to keep going. I feel weak I feel scared but I'll keep on fighting.
Love Mini x x x
Surgery over and recovering
Mr Ion is so lovely he told me my nose was very difficult but he thinks it went well. He showed me a profile shot he took on his phone of his finished work before they put the cast on, and it looked great just like the morph.
I have tubes in my nose to keep my nostrils open while it heals until Friday when I go back to have them removed with cast and stitches. The tubes make the nostrils look very flared and i have a lot of swelling so it looks weird but I can see that the columnella looks neat and the whole nostril zone looks even. After all my other surgeries I looked there and immediatly knew it was wrong and a mess. This time thanks to Mr Ions neat work my the first time I think it may have gone right. I can't wait to see the result but I'm still scared to get my hopes up too much I just can't believe he can possibly have fixed it yet. Like if the columnella is fixed then I'm expecting there to still be a big dent in the side until this cast is off and I see it I just can't believe it.
I'll update with more pics soon as my cast is off :)
I'm going to do a new full review for Mr Ions surgery too.
The cast and tape are driving me absolute nuts though so itchy and uncomfortable. My nose hurts still too I think because of the plastic stints or tubes that are stuck up there. At times I can breath through it then at other times its very blocked or just running with very thick snotty goo. There was streaks of blood in the goo still tonight and sometimes spitting small amount of blood is that normal I don't know.
So can't wait to get this off my face and see the results. I got an appointment reminder today but it says its with a nurse I was really hoping to get to see Mr Ion there.
How much are these tube things going to hurt coming out I'm a little worried :o
Cast Off :)
Day 16 Post Mr Ion Revision :)
I've not started my Mr Ion review yet I have to get on my laptop so I can put before and afters side by side each angle.But here are a few more pics that I've taken today.
I'm still real swollen especially from the front but it's looking good.
There's an area just inside my Columnella left nostril that isn't quite perfect but I'm not surprised by that, that area was my old scar area and was so badly damaged there's so little skin to work with or stitch there.
Don't judge Mr Ions work by that I'll see what he says when I see him but I doubt there's anything we can do about it can't magic new skin.
The actual incision line new scar is so neat and fine it can barely be seen already. Mr Ions stitch work is so tiny delicate and neat it's just amazing!
I have a slight indent left side just before the tip that I noticed yesterday but I'm hopeful it's just where swellings gone down/bridge settling it's not really noticeable. I'm more swelled the last day or two I think as caught a cold from the kids runny nose and sneezing. I feel rough and I look tired in pics sorry.
I haven't started my new review as need to get on my laptop and try combine before and after pics of each angle.
I'm so happy with Mr Ion I'm looking forward to seeing him in a couple of weeks feel like running at him and giving him a massive kiss haha :)
Rhinoplasty sucks with a capital F.
My nose doesn't look great today bit wobbly from the front maybe it's swelling going down differently each side I don't know. Dent left side before the tip and now a small dent upper right side.
The area in my left nostril has knarly bumpy tissue just inside there like a white boogie.
Although my nose is vastly improved i still going to have issues I think. I'll be glad to see Mr Ion to see if it's going to go away.
Im feeling deflated and just so sick of it. My nose feels uncomfortable stiff and tight prickly itchy. One side is still a bit blocked up so breathings not great. It constantly feels like there's something tied very tightly round my nose and face.
I feel miserable and worried sick oh how much sadness anxiety and stress this stupid nose has caused me. To all in the same boat my heart go's out to you all.
Love Mini x
Week 8 Update Post Mr Ion Revision
I saw Mr Ion on the 11th April for my post op he was great he saw the dents I mentioned before and said they may improve later as swelling subsides or may need to address at a later date. He gave me steroid injections one in the bridge and two in the tip.
The good news is the swelling went down fast after that the dent at the upper bridge has almost gone now. there is still a bit of a dent bottom left side before the tip but its less noticeable than it was. I was worried that these areas would look worse as swelling decreased but it has got better. My nose appears straight from the front, nice profile. Just one angle 3/4 angle shows the lower dent on my profile. I can accept that now I can live with that if it stays as it is.
I have the nasty lump of white scar tissue in my nostril still, (but its smaller now) Mr Ion thought about cutting it out there and then under local but decided it is better to wait until my next appt to let it heal. He said if the dents didnt improve we could think about a filler or do something with them later on.
My nose has become more upturned than early on he says because the tip is still swollen its the last place for swelling to settle and its pulling the tip upwards a bit. The profile has more of a slope now than my pics a few weeks ago too but I like the profile its small and cute.
So far I havent had the horrible smell in my nose and I havent had the sinusitis pain at all!! hooray for that :) that in itself was worth the money I paid for this revision. I cant tell you how miserable it is to have a pain in your face all the time and to have a bad cheese smell in my nose/sinuses made me feel so sick. Im so happy thats all improved.
My breathing isnt great. The right side that was so caved in had no bone at all left so there is a lot of graft material up there now i think. It looks much better from the outside but looking up my nostril it is a very narrow airway up there still. Maybe the tissue of the nostril is still swollen on the inside and it will get better i dont know but so far my breathing is no better than before.
Im starting to feel much better I finally have an appetite again, a nice appetite where i feel yes im hungry i fancy .... , not I think im a bit hungry but i feel sick and dont fancy anything. In the 8 weeks since my op ive put on 2 kilo it isnt a lot but its a start its only been the past two weeks ive felt better and got an appetite and im gradually buiding up what i eat. I feel stronger for it and my chesty cough has gone finally too.
A couple of weeks ago I was asked to be on tv and talk about my story Ive also got to do another newspaper story but I wasn't ready I asked to postpone it I just need to fully recover first but I will be doing it in a few weeks time I feel its something I have to do, Ive already been messaged by a couple of people who almost went to the same surgeons at Spire Norwich if they hadnt googled and found my review they would be unaware how completely incompetent and irresponsible they are. Im glad Ive saved at least one person from the pain and misery Ive suffered makes the embarrassment/ humiliation Ive felt telling my story totally worth it.
Since my experience I discovered Mr Clibbon infected several patients with streptococcus septicaemia infection in a case 7 years before my surgery. One of the patients A 20 year old woman died RIP poor Natalie Baylis and I feel so sorry for her family. Mr Clibbon wasnt found negligent in Natalie's case or the others as he was unaware he was the carrier. Natalie died and other patients were injured scarred damaged presumably by the infection. But at least Mr Clibbon learnt to take more care in regards to infections right?? No wait.. He totally ignored my repeated pleas about the pain and awful smell in my nose. He shrugged and said he didnt know what that could be!! failed to diagnose infection take swabs or investigate my nose it could of damn rotted off and he still would of shrugged and said I don't know what that can be.
*...Dear Admin* this part is now EDITED from earlier to abide by realself rules I have removed inappropriate comment i was told to remove.
Anyway realselfers thank you all so much for caring and thanks for listening. Heres a couple of new pics from today and I will take a few more and do a new review for my revision now that my laptop is going again and i can load the pics.
Love to you all Mini xx
I've made a new review for Mr Ion here
On there I added a line up of the history of my nose front on some pics I haven't posted before. The swellings gone down a lot just s little left on the tip I'm just going to add a few more pics here and then any new updates will be on the new Mr Ion review.
Thank you to the Realself website and to all the realselfers for your advice and support you've been a huge help.
Love Mini xx
Update 19 weeks post Mr Ion magic
I still have some breathing issues one side. The passage is narrow like the wall is too thick still i think its still swollen but external swelling has gone.
My story was in the newspaper again this time with a happy ending. To all considering surgery reading my horror story here please see Mr Ion he has changed and saved my life.
Best wishes and big hugs to all X x
Week 27 post Mr Ion revision
Thanks for the lovely comments I'll try to get some of your questions answered on my reviews and Ive been doing my best to help and reassure a few worried realselfers privately.
Im still so happy and amazed with my new nose. At my appt Mr Ion was happy with it too but when I go back in feb as well as burning off the small lump of scar tissue inside my nostril he wants to pull the columnella up more one side as its still drooped a little. I hadnt even noticed that tbh, the area looks so great to me already after the hideous mess that it was in before. He also offered filler for the indent one side just before my tip. Its not really a dent as such just slightly more narrowed that side than the other side. The other side there is a graft to fix the cave in and possibly thats why it is still fuller that side. Its not noticeable I can feel its slightly different/irregular if i run my fingertips each side. It doesnt bother me and i figure maybe its still more swollen the other side so for now I declined filler and I'll see how it is in february when its fully healed and i return again.
Mr Ion is an excellent caring doctor and I cant thank him enough. To me my nose is beautiful already but he has a professional artists eye and I feel he wants it to be 100% perfect to his mind. I have complete trust in him and his ability he is so different to other doctors who want to ignore patients concerns for errors or imperfections. He took some more pics for computer imaging he told me he thinks the bridge part the top of my nose will reduce and settle more yet and also showed me the small area that he wants to slightly touch up tucking the columnella up a little.
First my old pics came up urgh i could barely look at myself ...then the pics he just took of my new nose came up and the difference took my breath away i beamed from ear to ear I looked like a different person that was actually my face my nose..and I was so happy in that moment that I barely heard what he said :)
My confidence is so much better now Im not in love with myself or anything I still have to gain weight but my God it is so great not to feel the burden of a broken nose on my face. To be able to talk to people and look them in the eye, to not panic over photographs being taken, to not feel the gut wrenching misery everytime I caught my own disfigured reflection. To not feel doubt and heartbreak when my man looks at me and says Im beautiful.
Its cliche I know but it really is as though a dark cloud lifted from me, yes its a huge weight of my shoulders..I never understood what that truly meant till now but it was like a crushing weight and I feel like Im suddenly now so light and free I might float off into the beautiful sky.
My hair is dark again now it was nice being blonde a while and it took peoples attention from my brand new very different nose. I often felt like a witch with my long dark hair and ugly beak Ive even had strange kids shy away from me when i smiled at them. Well I no longer look like a witch lol Im a pretty elf instead! lol
A few pics for you will follow and I'll email harley street and see if Mr Ion will forward me the pics he took in the office as someone said I havent posted enough from front angle . I ve posted looooooads of pics probably more pics than any other review lol but heres a few more for now.
Love Mini x x
Made a total mess of my nose in all 3 ops. Failed to warn me of the difficulty involved in achieving a good result. Overshortened my nose as well as a long list of other problems with it.Terrible scar made worse by a missed a stitch and a knot left stuck inside. Wasn't there for shocking cast removal or days later when I was frightened and had infection infact nobody was available to help secretary told me to go to a+e hospital instead. Failed to diagnose infection and inflammation of columella due to retained stitch.