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learning the important things in life - 24 years old, implants removal - Spain, ES
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After a long time I finally have the strengh to...
pink_June 7, 2016
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After a long time I finally have the strengh to put into words all my experience. It is very difficult for me to explain all my feelings and all the things I suffer from these last months.
I have always wanted to have big boobs, I was a 34B (90B in Spain), which was ok, but I thought it was not enough and even although my family and my boyfriend said that I didn't need anything, I started to obsess with BA and with my little boobs. I was really obsessed with the physical appearance and I was really hard with myself. I started to work and save money for the surgery for two years, and finally this year I had the money. So in november 2015 I decided it was time to realize "my dream" because I was dreaming about wearing beautiful bras and bikinis without padding since a long, long time ago.
The weeks before surgery I was so nervous and I had some nightmares, but I thought it was just because of the fear of GA.
Finally I did it, I put 360cc round moderate profile under the muscle. What have I done? I wake up from the GA crying, oh my god. But that day I was more or less ok. As soon as I came home the following day, I realized I have made a huge mistake, the worst mistake of my life.
I didn't listen to my family and my boyfriend.... I am stubborn sometimes and I have done what I thought I wanted, or better said, what I thought I needed.....
What wrong I was.
The days passed and I was crying almost every time....I remember that sometimes I tried on clothes and bikinis and smiled for a while and after that cried again. The results were good, I mean they looked how I was looking for (well, they looked beautiful but not natural) but they weren't me. I felt like I was wearing a disguise and I didn't like the idea of being "sexy" just because of something made of plastic inside of my body.
I started to develop anxiety. I didn't want to eat, and I couldn't sleep. My family looked for some help to me. I saw a psicologist who gave me some anxiolytics so I could sleep and be calm more or less. I couldn't believe this was happening to me as I had always been so cheerful.
Week after week I continued feeling blue. People said that perhaps it was normal and I needed time to get used to the implants, but all I thought was "What have I done? I miss my cute, small and warm boobies". I didn't see an exit, I thought that my life was completely destroyed.
Fortunately, I found this website, and I started to read some reviews and saw some pictures of all of you, and I felt better, I was not alone, I was not strange for rejecting the implants. Here, there are awesome women that have helped me a lot, for real. All of you are so, so nice, supportive and brave I know that all of your experiences and your words help me in my very bad moments and I think I have to share my story in order to help others as well. So thank you very much to all of you.
After a month of the BA I had a consultation with my PS and I explained what I was thinking about, I couldn't stand to have foreign objects inside me. I know before the surgery I touch the balls, and I saw them, but it definitely not the same to have them inside you 24 hours. I couldn't sleep, I notice them every time. They were fake. I felt shallow and so bad with myself for putting my body through all of this procedure and I was really worry for all the risks that carry the fact of having implants (cc, autoinmune diseases, rupture, linfoma....) I know, I have had to think of that before doing it, but until you don't have them inside you don't know what is it like.
The surgeon was really impolite, he didn't care at all. He said I was feeling blue just like a depression postpartum. I don't have children but I though definitely it is not the same.
He was so cold and unpleasant. He really dissapointed me. Didn't he have a heart or what? He treated me like I was crazy or something and he wasn't willing to do my removal. He said literally that he needed a psiquiatric report to remove them after six months or even more time and he also said that my boobs would look like if I had slim down more than ten kilos. I knew he was wrong because I had saw yet some pictures here in realself.
A psiquiatric report? why? because I felt bad to do this to my body? Are you kidding me? I only wanted to be me again. I didn't want to have plastic balls, thats all. No, he didn't want to take them out. He and his workmates were so heartless with me and he treated me like a piece of meat.
I was living a nightmare, all my life I was thinking that I needed those implants to be complete and I realized I was wrong and it is a strong shock. I was crying every day and I developed a deep depression, all I thought was to be like before and what I was thinking when I decided to do that and cut my body just to have more boobs, what a pitty.
It is really sad to want something and realized you were perfect before after doing it, and in adittion I have scars to remind my huge mistake, ough.
Well, I started to look for another surgeon and luckily I found one. He seemed profesional and in his website he claims that he cares of patients. I noticed it was different as in the first clinic they have no patients, they have customers.
This new doctor was really supportive when I told him my feelings and my story. He tried to help me and explained to me all the procedure. He explicated that implants make a pressure on the mammary gland and he adviced me if I was sure to remove them, the sooner the better. Completely different of what my original PS have said.
I decided to trust him and I finally had my removal after 8 weeks of my BA. The surgery was so easy and quick, when I opened my eyes I remembered feeling peace and freedom. I felt my body.
I came home the same day, and well, I throwed up all day, with my BA happened the same, I always throw up the anesthesy, I don't know why.
I wore drains for the following 3 or 4 days, and after these days I finally checked my little and poor boobs. They were smaller than before. I cried a lot, what have I done to my body?
Months passed and my boobs recovered almost everything. Now I am 4.5 months post removal and my boobs look so much better, they are soft and pretty similar to before. My PS said it will take 6 months to a year to stabilize everything so with time they are supossed to get better.
I am using the same bras as before BA and I have bought some new bikinis which fit me like before :)
I recognize myself when I see me in the mirror. Just me, nothing more.
Now I feel so much better, after a month or so after removal I stopped taking anxiolytics and nowadays I travel, I go to parties, I go shopping, I study....I do everything with peace in my mind. Unfortunately, I have the scars which I hate, and remind me of my mistake but with time they were fade and I hope they will be almost invisible. This is my hope. They are improving every month, I am using rosehip oil and silicone strips. I also try to massage them once or twice per day.
Thank to my family, my boyfriend and this awesome website to support me, and make me feel better because it was until now the worst experience of my whole life. We have now a chance to grew, to be a better person, to make the world a better place.
I also have to say that my original clinic don't even call me to know if I am alive or not, they don't care at all. For luck, not every clinic is they same but from my point of view almost every of them see that as a business and as a product to be sold. That's all. They forget the human part, they forget we are people.
Before undergoing on a plastic surgery, I think the surgeon should asks why you want to change this part of your body or whatever. My original PS said to me at the first consult that I have beautiful breast. Why didn't he ask me why I wanted to change them? I know it was my decision but they forget the psychological part, which in my case, I never thought I would regret the implants because I wanted them so badly and as soon as I did it, I regreted them. So please, it is necessary a big explanation of the procedure and the risk in short and long term.
I respect all ladies who are happy with implants, but as I see it, implants are not a part of us, we will never be plastic balls and they don't last forever so it's really sad to condition your life to an operating room every now and then.
Why does society make so much pressure on the physical appearance of women? Society sells to us a stereotype: you have to be perfect, perfect boobs, perfect body, perfect everything. Well, everybody is unique and perfect, because maybe I don't have big boobs, but small boobs are beautiful too and maybe I have to focus in other part of my natural beauty. Because all of us have a special thing, we are all beautiful and special in one way or the other.
Natural beauty is more gorgeous than anything else.
Boobs don't define you as a woman, they are just a part of you, but we are more than that, we are humans, we have feelings, we have thoughts, dreams..... if all of us follow the orders of society all of us will be exactly the same, same fake boobs, same fake buttom, same artificial mouth, what's the point?
If ever a boy tells you that your boobs are not enough or something, you could say to him: "Ok then, augmentate your private parts, and be happy with silicone inside you, and of course BYE BYE :)"
Thanks for all your support ladies, enjoy life, and please love and take care of yourselves because you are going to be with yourself all your life ;)
I have always wanted to have big boobs, I was a 34B (90B in Spain), which was ok, but I thought it was not enough and even although my family and my boyfriend said that I didn't need anything, I started to obsess with BA and with my little boobs. I was really obsessed with the physical appearance and I was really hard with myself. I started to work and save money for the surgery for two years, and finally this year I had the money. So in november 2015 I decided it was time to realize "my dream" because I was dreaming about wearing beautiful bras and bikinis without padding since a long, long time ago.
The weeks before surgery I was so nervous and I had some nightmares, but I thought it was just because of the fear of GA.
Finally I did it, I put 360cc round moderate profile under the muscle. What have I done? I wake up from the GA crying, oh my god. But that day I was more or less ok. As soon as I came home the following day, I realized I have made a huge mistake, the worst mistake of my life.
I didn't listen to my family and my boyfriend.... I am stubborn sometimes and I have done what I thought I wanted, or better said, what I thought I needed.....
What wrong I was.
The days passed and I was crying almost every time....I remember that sometimes I tried on clothes and bikinis and smiled for a while and after that cried again. The results were good, I mean they looked how I was looking for (well, they looked beautiful but not natural) but they weren't me. I felt like I was wearing a disguise and I didn't like the idea of being "sexy" just because of something made of plastic inside of my body.
I started to develop anxiety. I didn't want to eat, and I couldn't sleep. My family looked for some help to me. I saw a psicologist who gave me some anxiolytics so I could sleep and be calm more or less. I couldn't believe this was happening to me as I had always been so cheerful.
Week after week I continued feeling blue. People said that perhaps it was normal and I needed time to get used to the implants, but all I thought was "What have I done? I miss my cute, small and warm boobies". I didn't see an exit, I thought that my life was completely destroyed.
Fortunately, I found this website, and I started to read some reviews and saw some pictures of all of you, and I felt better, I was not alone, I was not strange for rejecting the implants. Here, there are awesome women that have helped me a lot, for real. All of you are so, so nice, supportive and brave I know that all of your experiences and your words help me in my very bad moments and I think I have to share my story in order to help others as well. So thank you very much to all of you.
After a month of the BA I had a consultation with my PS and I explained what I was thinking about, I couldn't stand to have foreign objects inside me. I know before the surgery I touch the balls, and I saw them, but it definitely not the same to have them inside you 24 hours. I couldn't sleep, I notice them every time. They were fake. I felt shallow and so bad with myself for putting my body through all of this procedure and I was really worry for all the risks that carry the fact of having implants (cc, autoinmune diseases, rupture, linfoma....) I know, I have had to think of that before doing it, but until you don't have them inside you don't know what is it like.
The surgeon was really impolite, he didn't care at all. He said I was feeling blue just like a depression postpartum. I don't have children but I though definitely it is not the same.
He was so cold and unpleasant. He really dissapointed me. Didn't he have a heart or what? He treated me like I was crazy or something and he wasn't willing to do my removal. He said literally that he needed a psiquiatric report to remove them after six months or even more time and he also said that my boobs would look like if I had slim down more than ten kilos. I knew he was wrong because I had saw yet some pictures here in realself.
A psiquiatric report? why? because I felt bad to do this to my body? Are you kidding me? I only wanted to be me again. I didn't want to have plastic balls, thats all. No, he didn't want to take them out. He and his workmates were so heartless with me and he treated me like a piece of meat.
I was living a nightmare, all my life I was thinking that I needed those implants to be complete and I realized I was wrong and it is a strong shock. I was crying every day and I developed a deep depression, all I thought was to be like before and what I was thinking when I decided to do that and cut my body just to have more boobs, what a pitty.
It is really sad to want something and realized you were perfect before after doing it, and in adittion I have scars to remind my huge mistake, ough.
Well, I started to look for another surgeon and luckily I found one. He seemed profesional and in his website he claims that he cares of patients. I noticed it was different as in the first clinic they have no patients, they have customers.
This new doctor was really supportive when I told him my feelings and my story. He tried to help me and explained to me all the procedure. He explicated that implants make a pressure on the mammary gland and he adviced me if I was sure to remove them, the sooner the better. Completely different of what my original PS have said.
I decided to trust him and I finally had my removal after 8 weeks of my BA. The surgery was so easy and quick, when I opened my eyes I remembered feeling peace and freedom. I felt my body.
I came home the same day, and well, I throwed up all day, with my BA happened the same, I always throw up the anesthesy, I don't know why.
I wore drains for the following 3 or 4 days, and after these days I finally checked my little and poor boobs. They were smaller than before. I cried a lot, what have I done to my body?
Months passed and my boobs recovered almost everything. Now I am 4.5 months post removal and my boobs look so much better, they are soft and pretty similar to before. My PS said it will take 6 months to a year to stabilize everything so with time they are supossed to get better.
I am using the same bras as before BA and I have bought some new bikinis which fit me like before :)
I recognize myself when I see me in the mirror. Just me, nothing more.
Now I feel so much better, after a month or so after removal I stopped taking anxiolytics and nowadays I travel, I go to parties, I go shopping, I study....I do everything with peace in my mind. Unfortunately, I have the scars which I hate, and remind me of my mistake but with time they were fade and I hope they will be almost invisible. This is my hope. They are improving every month, I am using rosehip oil and silicone strips. I also try to massage them once or twice per day.
Thank to my family, my boyfriend and this awesome website to support me, and make me feel better because it was until now the worst experience of my whole life. We have now a chance to grew, to be a better person, to make the world a better place.
I also have to say that my original clinic don't even call me to know if I am alive or not, they don't care at all. For luck, not every clinic is they same but from my point of view almost every of them see that as a business and as a product to be sold. That's all. They forget the human part, they forget we are people.
Before undergoing on a plastic surgery, I think the surgeon should asks why you want to change this part of your body or whatever. My original PS said to me at the first consult that I have beautiful breast. Why didn't he ask me why I wanted to change them? I know it was my decision but they forget the psychological part, which in my case, I never thought I would regret the implants because I wanted them so badly and as soon as I did it, I regreted them. So please, it is necessary a big explanation of the procedure and the risk in short and long term.
I respect all ladies who are happy with implants, but as I see it, implants are not a part of us, we will never be plastic balls and they don't last forever so it's really sad to condition your life to an operating room every now and then.
Why does society make so much pressure on the physical appearance of women? Society sells to us a stereotype: you have to be perfect, perfect boobs, perfect body, perfect everything. Well, everybody is unique and perfect, because maybe I don't have big boobs, but small boobs are beautiful too and maybe I have to focus in other part of my natural beauty. Because all of us have a special thing, we are all beautiful and special in one way or the other.
Natural beauty is more gorgeous than anything else.
Boobs don't define you as a woman, they are just a part of you, but we are more than that, we are humans, we have feelings, we have thoughts, dreams..... if all of us follow the orders of society all of us will be exactly the same, same fake boobs, same fake buttom, same artificial mouth, what's the point?
If ever a boy tells you that your boobs are not enough or something, you could say to him: "Ok then, augmentate your private parts, and be happy with silicone inside you, and of course BYE BYE :)"
Thanks for all your support ladies, enjoy life, and please love and take care of yourselves because you are going to be with yourself all your life ;)
Replies (68)
June 7, 2016
Your story hit me in the gut and touched my heart deeply. You've been so articulate that I know I will come back and read it again. Actually, even after all you've been through, you're so, so smart to do the explant right away, and I think you'll be thanking yourself down the road rather than focusing on the "mistake." The scars will fade and you have learned a profound life lesson, long before many of us. I've had implants since 1990 and can't wait to get them out. My only hesitation is the recovery time and not being able to run or yoga practice during recovery. I love what you say to the boy! Such a smart girl. Best wishes!
June 8, 2016
Thank you so much for your nice words, you are so nice.
I would like to help others because I know it is a very difficult situation when you want the implants out.
I really hate the scars, because they remind me of my mistake, and they are below my boobs, but well, it is true that with time they are supposed to be barely visible. Are your scars visible now?
Don't worry about the recover time because is much easier than BA, the pain is so soft only the incisions and a little sore muscles. You could practice yoga in a few weeks after removal.
Do you have a date for your removal or something?
Besh wishes!!
[RS bleep]
I would like to help others because I know it is a very difficult situation when you want the implants out.
I really hate the scars, because they remind me of my mistake, and they are below my boobs, but well, it is true that with time they are supposed to be barely visible. Are your scars visible now?
Don't worry about the recover time because is much easier than BA, the pain is so soft only the incisions and a little sore muscles. You could practice yoga in a few weeks after removal.
Do you have a date for your removal or something?
Besh wishes!!
[RS bleep]
June 8, 2016
Only 24 and wise beyond your years! Loved reading your post. We all make choices we regret, happily you corrected what you felt was a bad one right away. Good for you for loving yourself enough to have the courage to explant. You inspire me!
June 8, 2016
Thank you so much for your words, you are so kind.
It was a really bad time, a huge mistake for me, but now I feel free :)
Are you going to remove your implants?
[RS bleep]
It was a really bad time, a huge mistake for me, but now I feel free :)
Are you going to remove your implants?
[RS bleep]
June 8, 2016
Yes, my surgery is scheduled for June 16. I'm 50, had them put in when I was 44, I had resisted the procedure for so long, but a "friend" dragged me to the procedure and said "don't tell anyone, just do it." Needless to say, we are not friends anymore. What a huge mistake!
June 8, 2016
I am getting mine out June 16th also, thats going to a fabulous day! I've had mine 40 years. Never wanted them, but I was 20 and did not have a voice. Holding my breath while breathing deeply.......
June 9, 2016
I wish you the best with your surgery next week! you will look perfect and FREE!! :)
I understand you, a friend shouldn't advise you to undergo on a cosmetic surgery. It is a very personal decision and real friends should recommend not to do it!
[RS bleep]
I understand you, a friend shouldn't advise you to undergo on a cosmetic surgery. It is a very personal decision and real friends should recommend not to do it!
[RS bleep]
June 8, 2016
This is exactly my thoughts. .... Glad someone can relate to me... it's hard to explain it to people they don understand. ..!!!
June 8, 2016
Thanks for yout comment! It is really nice to find some people with similar stories. I agree with you, it's difficult to explain to other people, but the important thing it to feel good with ourselves.
Did you remove your implants?
[RS bleep]
Did you remove your implants?
[RS bleep]
June 8, 2016
Aww beautiful! Your story is so honest, lovely and kind! It's so refreshing to read your honest, and to speak for your heart! At the moment, I feel so discouraged as I really feel I need a BA. I am also looking into natural procedures. I still am not happy at all with my breast size, but you have helped me to see the flaws in BA and how much regret I could potentially have! Even when you said the surgeon said it puts pressure on the mammary glands, that scares me!
Thank you so much for your post beautiful
Thank you so much for your post beautiful
June 9, 2016
Thank you so much for your words, you are so nice. I really spoke with my heart.
I hope to help others at least to think twice before undergo to a cosmetic surgery.
I see your point, I was in the same situation as you are now, and I would liked to hear and read the story of someone who has happened the same as me and then realize before doing nothing and love myself the way I was.
We don't know what we have until we lose it.
No matter the size of your breast, I am sure they are nice, is much better a natural breast than carry with a plastic ball inside you and all the possible risks in short and long term.
The society sells it in a nice way because you only see the result, but nobody tells you the bad things about that.
You'll never know if you are going to reject them or not until you have them, I never thought I will going to reject them and I did.
I hope that my story help at least one person in the world to avoid the surgery and all the things that I have suffer from.
So, my advice is love you the way you are because are things in life much more important than breast, focus on other part of your body that you really like and be happy :)
I hope it helps
[RS bleep]
I hope to help others at least to think twice before undergo to a cosmetic surgery.
I see your point, I was in the same situation as you are now, and I would liked to hear and read the story of someone who has happened the same as me and then realize before doing nothing and love myself the way I was.
We don't know what we have until we lose it.
No matter the size of your breast, I am sure they are nice, is much better a natural breast than carry with a plastic ball inside you and all the possible risks in short and long term.
The society sells it in a nice way because you only see the result, but nobody tells you the bad things about that.
You'll never know if you are going to reject them or not until you have them, I never thought I will going to reject them and I did.
I hope that my story help at least one person in the world to avoid the surgery and all the things that I have suffer from.
So, my advice is love you the way you are because are things in life much more important than breast, focus on other part of your body that you really like and be happy :)
I hope it helps
[RS bleep]
I am sure you will love yourself the way you are and most important you will be free forever. I wish you all the best in your procedure, don't be scared, is the last step to leave all of this behind us and learn from it, a valuable lesson of life.
[RS bleep]