Procedure change - new review in profile

I'm at home with a sick little one today, so while he napped I looked for some inspiration pics for after the TT. It will probably take some work on my end to look exactly like them, but I'm hoping that the surgery will get me closer.

My last update was really negative & I was feeling down, but that has passed. I'm back to being excited for the surgery, for the results & to be 100% confident again. I was approved for FMLA leave through my job, my boss is aware of my dates that I'll be out & my hubby is being set up to WFH full time the 2 weeks or so I'll be home. I purchased my compression garment to wear when my binder comes off - the firm control cotton waist cincher by flakisima. My doctor recommended that one. I ordered a small based on my measurements but haven't tried it on yet. Next up will be the supplies haul, but I'll probably wait until the weekend before to get that done.

I'm having a hard time mentally with a few things and I'm wondering if I should cancel my surgery. There's no one I can talk to IRL about this, so I'm putting it here. I want the tummy tuck for me, so I can be happy with my body and regain my confidence. But being the person that I am and usually putting everyone else first, I'm listing out all of the things that I could do with the money, worrying about how I won't be able to take care of everyone and everything at home and at work. I feel like I'm being selfish even though I know I deserve it. Just so much going through my head right now...