Mommy Make Over, 37 Y/o, 96 Lbs, 5'1 - South Miami, FL

I just want my 18 years old body back hehe, well I had my first child at 18, I have had stretch marks all my life!i breastfed both my kids for a year so imagine! I'm fit and I just want to be able to rock a bikini again :D

I've been on my journey trying to find the perfect doctor for my procedure for the last month. I've been seeing 8 doctors so far and I think I already chose the one. However I wanted to finish my list and went to one yesterday that really disappointed me. First of all from all the doctors I've seen this one the only one who charges for consultation, $50, which is not much but. I go to my consultation yesterday doctor was nice, it took a bit long for him to see me, about 20min, then went to the examination room, got some pictures taken with an old school camera. Nurses were nice too, last office I went to, the patient coordinator, was the worst ever, she basically threw some papers at me and in 2 phrases explained what was on it. Price was a bit more expensive than other ones. Then I remembered I wanted to ask the doctor about fillers and well I was paying so I told her if I could talk to him again, he came to the office I was and I asked about my marionette lines, he literally said well your face is so assymetric, hmm did you have any trauma? Like really?i love the honesty, I'm aware I'm not beauty queen and yea I might have assymetri but I'm sure I don't look like had a trauma. Anyways he left the office and I asked the lady for pictures, no one showed me any during my time there, she was sitting on the other side of the office and said, yea you have them there, in front of me there was this super old album that smelled like my great grandmother attic, I look and just a couple pictures of my procedure. Then I leave the office, no body escorted me to the door, go to my car and boom a parking ticket. Worst $70 spent ever.

So after seeing a good amount of doctors, I decided Dr. Hochstein will do my mommy makeover, my first appointment with him was very pleasant. Beautiful office, the girls are very nice, from the receptionist to the patient coordinator, the technology seemed updated, I got a tour to the surgery room and seemed very professional, the Dr was very nice and answered all my questions.
I did my first payment about a week ago and some days ago, the excitement and anxiety have been growing on me immensely, I had nightmares 2 days ago and I usually sleep very good. I started having second thoughts right and left, I get tears in my eyes every time I think Im not going to have stretch marks, I mean I was a mom at 18, I have had stretch marks in my belly for 18 years, the feeling its very strange. I also thought I'm being vane and superficial and how healthy I am, also questioning myself if I do really need this. Anyways most of the thoughts Ive been keeping them to myself until yesterday.
I had my preop surgery appointment yesterday, when I arrived to the office, there was a lot of people there, and even though its a big office, no place to sit. I thought well he certainly is an amazing doctor if all this people come to him. Anyway I got a bunch of papers to sign. I started reading and I just absolutely went out of breath, I started panicking when I read about consequences and whatnot. I have to say I'm not an emotional person, I practice yoga daily and I'm a runner, I have done it for years and I'm not easily disturbed. So here I am freaking out, just wanting to run away from there, I even forgot my friend Sasha was coming with me to the office, she arrived and obviously when I saw her, I started crying like a little girl, I told her I was not going to sign anything and that I didn't care about the money I paid. I told her if something happens to me, who will take care of my kids, etc. She manage to calm me down and convince me to talk to the doctor. I hesitatingly agreed, I went inside the examination room, the doctor came and well my mind just went blank for a second, I asked about the statics of people having complications due to general anesthesia, he smiled and told me it was so little than there's more chance of someone winning the lotto 5 times in a row, I had to laugh, he some how calmed me down and told me it was normal to feel the way I was feeling. He was very nice, my friend also asked him about some rumors of him not having good side manners and he answered nicely and smiled about it. I also told him about my shoulder, I have Shoulder tear and well I thought that could be a problem for the surgery, he said it'll give time to the shoulder to heal. Somehow I forgot all the other things I wanted to ask, he obviously was busy, so even though the time with him was short it was what I needed to keep going. I don't deny I still have second thoughts but I'm focusing on seeing women in bikinis and the successful stories of women on real self so I don't freak out again.