Low BMI gastric sleeve - so scared to do this!

Hi! My weight is still down, however I attribute that more to the peptides I’ve been doing, which are costly. My issues with dehydration have improved and i have learned to be vigilant. My energy is much better, but I take vitamin D shots and vitamin B shots. I also religiously do my vitamins and have a protein shake every day. For me there were two parts to my constant struggle with weight, one an addiction to the actual food, especially sugar. Ozempic ect really take that addiction away. The second was a mental coping for anything stressful. 2 years after the surgery i did a RTT therapy and dealt with old wounds that were causing me to try and cover pain with food. While i don’t feel an intense regret of the surgery that i did a couple years ago, I do think there are a lot less dramatic and harmful ways to take on the root of the problem. I personally wouldn’t recommend the low bmi surgery, for the life long things i have to now do just to maintain some normalcy. IMO Anyone getting a low BMI has eating disorder and body dismorphia issues that should be addressed. Looking back, the fact that Inwas so worried about the number on the scale i was willing to do a life altering surgery tells me there are self love issues deeper than food. I have learned to love me, be happy with me, and that isn’t connected to a number on a scale.

It's been 3 years since the surgery. My opinion on a LOW BMI sleeve is regret.
As i read my posts I see how much of a rollercoaster it is. 3 years later, I am low in energy, constantly fighting to get enough proteins and vitamins'. I have weird health issues now, migraines, constant dehydration, fatigue. I feel like a sickly 80 year a lot of the time, and I still struggle with my weight, up and down, still get hungry still crave food. I have never have been as heavy as I was when I got the surgery, but you can gain weight, and you still have to watch what you eat, even more intensely because you're always on the verge of malnutrition. When you do this surgery, you are literally giving yourself a chronic health condition. Getting enough proteins and vitamins is a task, At first you get good at it. But when life gets stressful or you're traveling, or its a holiday, or you're just ready to puke from the same protein shakes and protein bars everyday! and you start to slack and just eat regular food.... your body starts to fall apart. My iron, calcium and D3 are always low. I go get shots now to try and battle it.

I believe the surgery would be better than being severely obese. But I was low BMI, just overweight, I could have just gotten my act together and self control together. But there's no undoing what I've done. Now I regret it, I wish I would have put my health first. My kids see me lying in bed too ill to do anything about 50% of the time now. It absolutely breaks my heart. I am going to try again to be vigilant about the protein and vitamins and I do IV fluid throughout the summer, hoping I can have more good days than bad. My advice.... Try metformin to control the cravings, Just focus on health not weight.... but I wouldn't suggest hacking up your body in a permanent way that you will forever struggle to overcome. Yes I lost weight, I am still lower than I was, but I am 10 lbs more than my peak after the surgery and still have to diet and exercise to keep weight off. I am severely low on energy, and mood. Sorry for the bummer update. but after 3 years and the regret I feel. I wish I would have fully understood the life and battle I was agreeing to.

First of all, thank you those who posted encouragements! It helps do much!
It took time but I'm feeling so much better! Off all medications: Depression meds, thyroid, energy/diet pills. The nurses during surgery made me feels stupid for doing it, but I've got ME, Sarah, back! my life, my control. It used to really eat me up after surgery, not being able to enjoy the foods I loved. Infact it made me resentful and depressed that everyone was enjoying them and I couldn't. Now I am so happy I'm not a slave to food. I don't crave, have to fight, or be distracted by food. And that, more than numbers on a scale, is the value of this surgery to me. To have control back. To live, and not be so consumed by what I'm eating next. Walk past a checkout line and not be able to leave without a candy bar. To sit miserably in my car eating the candy bar and hiding the wrapper so no one knew how out of control I was, and how many I'd eaten. To not binge and purge because I was so controlled by food! For the first time, I'm free of those chains.
I've been working out consistently. Being lower BMI it's not melting off in high fast numbers. But you can definitely see the difference. The first two weeks I lost 15 lbs since then it's been a pound or so a week. Which surprises me considering how little I eat. But I'm happy with it. I could do another 10 but it'll take work Im sure. One big problem I've been having is dehydration and heat exhaustion. Less fat to insulate, less ability to chug water, and living in humid climate for the first time have landed me with an IV a couple times. So I do caution of that for those that like to be active in the summer. After this surgery, you need to be so careful keeping water in you constantly and limiting intense outdoor activities in the heat. I assume I'll get better as I can drink more and my body adjusts. But YAY!! Look at my pics! How fun it is to wear clothes again!! Lol