8 month update...new pics.

So I just had my procedure done on the 25th of September. It is so hard to decide if this is worth it. I cried for the first time today just because this seems to be a lonely time. You have someone taking care of you but feel guilty and selfish. And your irritated for not being able to do stuff. I just don't know what to think anymore. I felt great early today and was walking around fine. But then I don't know just watching others and feeling guilty finally hit me. This is a roller coaster and I'm not sure I like it. It takes a lot for me to admit I cried too since I am a 23 year old dude. It's not something I usually broadcast but seems like it only helps with others who experienced it. Y'all are the only reason I have made it so far, I thought I was going crazy and was just being a wuss for a long time. I hope it's worth it in the end. I lost over 50 lbs and have busted my but to not be able to feel comfy on the beach and hopefully this will put me In the right direction. But it's so hard to not be able to do things for myself. And be stuck in a room in a recliner all day minus the bathroom. I'm starting to be able to walk more but the incision is becoming more sensitive. I hope I'm not messing it up. I see the doctor Monday. I'm so afraid he is going say that...I hope these fluid pumps come out too. I do not like them at all. And leaking everywhere is not ideal. I have puppy pads and sitting in a depends diaper cause its the only thing that doesn't Hurt the grenade looking things. I'm trying to think positive and keep my spirits up but I'm slowly breaking down. My doctor said I should be able to stand up straight by day 10 and back to Normal after 2 weeks. I pray that's the case. I can't do this much longer.