Post Op Day 1

So I've been putting off adding before photos. But seeing before and after photos on here has been SO helpful and I want to give back as well. I think it was difficult for a couple of reasons. I had my first consult about 2 years ago. At that time I thought there was a small chance I might need a lift. I have always been very uncomfortable with my breasts. When I walk around our room or bathroom naked I hold them up. My husband LOVES them - but I really do dislike them very much (I'm trying to avoid using the word hate - but I pretty much hate them). At the consult when I disrobed, which is a situation that already made me feel very vulnerable, the doctor immediately said "you need a lift for sure". He wasn't unprofessional in anyway. But through the rest of the consult I could hardly focus on what he was saying because I felt so AWFUL. On the way home I cried the entire time. I laughed as well, joking that "yep - It's official - I'm clinically saggy."

I put off the surgery because of the unexpected lift as well as the added cost. I already struggled with spending money on the BA with guilt, but the lift almost doubled the cost of the surgery and I just could not get my brain around that. On top of that I am TERRIFIED of surgery. I've never even had a cavity. Both deliveries were natural and every time I think about what the surgery entails my stomach gets nauseous.

Two years later and I decide I'm just ready. It has to happen. I've come to terms with needing the lift. Three weeks ago I called the office to make my appointment and even asked them to go ahead and schedule me as early as possible. I just could not stand the idea of having to wait 6 months worrying about this. I went with Holly Wall because I've heard fantastic reviews of her, they have their own surgical suites - so no hospital, and they also use the rapid recovery method. I'm not sure what all that entails, but it sounds like a lot of stretching exercises right after surgery. I haven't heard a lot about that on here so I'd love to hear anyone's experience with that.

Just now my husband helped with the before photos and when I saw the side profile it hit me. I need this surgery in a bad way. I've always been a glass half full girl, but seeing those pictures made me realize - THE GLASS IS FULL EMPTY GIRL. I joke with my girlfriends that I look like I can be on the cover of National Geographic with the tribal ladies and war paint on my face. :)

Anyway, I'm excited and looking forward to the surgery. Two weeks from now I will be home and hopefully feeling well enough to post pictures!

Oh - and I forgot to add stats. I'm 5'6", 138 lbs and I think I'm a B-C cup. I'm about 5 lbs heavier than normal, so when the weight is off I'm a sad B. I want to be a nice full D.