FINALLY Going to Get NEW BREASTS!!!

I'm 33 years old 5'5", 165 lbs, current bra size...

I'm 33 years old 5'5", 165 lbs, current bra size 36 D. My husband and I have decided not to have anymore children so this is my green light to start the search for a Dr to do my breast lift. I developed breasts very early. I had to wear a bra in 4th grade and got teased by all the boys. Sometimes I wouldn't wear a bra so the boys wouldn't tease me and then the girls would tease me and tell me it was "gross" I didn't have a bra on... Kids are so mean! :). Anywho, I kept waiting for my breasts to look "normal" so the nipples were pointing up but they were ALWAYS saggy! When I was 19 I worked at a nursing home and I remember bathing some old ladies and they had nicer breasts than me!! I would be jealous of an 80 year old woman's boobs!!!! I feel like my breasts have held me back so much in my life. They have affected my love life, my marriage, my confidence. I feel like I've never been able to experience what it truly feels like to be a woman. The breasts are such a huge part of femininity. I know this is TMI but I've never been able to make love on top and feel proud and beautiful, I've always wore my bra or had the lights off. Maybe I'm being dramatic but I think a lot of the women on here can relate to me. Also..... My breasts are heavy and the way they droop down it is painful to walk around without my bra on. I just hate my breasts sooooooo much and I soooo hope that I find the right Dr that can help me. I worry my breast will still point down, my nipples won't be high enough or they will still be very differently shaped after surgery. I guess I have very high hopes and don't want to look even worse....Here are some pics of my breasts now. I would like to lose at least 20 lbs and weigh at least 140 when I get my breasts so I have to start dieting as well.

This is how different my breasts are...

I wanted to take a pic of breasts with the camera facing me. It's weird how different angles and mirrors can show just how different they are. It makes me so sad to look at this pic cause I haven't seen women on here with breasts this different. I'm so scared I'll still have deformed breasts even after surgery :(

Me having a HUGE PITY PARTY!!

Since I took that pic last night I've been so upset. I really am deformed! I have two arms, two legs and from the outside (with clothes) I look healthy but really I was born with a breast deformity and I've lived with it and dealt with this for so long. My breasts have affected my quality of life sooooo much! Ok so some people may say it's because I let them affect me but those people don't have breasts like me. I have NEVER felt comfortable looking at myself in the mirror naked, NEVER felt comfortable without a bra on, NEVER felt comfortable making love....EVER!!! All because of these ugly breasts....especially my left breast....that one is the deformed one and of course the one my husband (and old b.f's) always gravitated to since they were all right handed...Guess I should have dated lefties... :). I am totally have a pity party right now!!!! I just want to get out all of my frustrations here, a lifetime of frustration has been culminating in me since my breasts starting growing... A friggin lifetime!! IT'S NOT FAIR!!! Why out of all of my friends do I have to be the one with this deformity? And it's not a deformity that is accepted by society. People prob think I am being vain by wanting cosmetic surgery but this has effected my psychosocial health. I wonder if I can get this covered (partially) by insurance? My left breast never developed correctly, it points straight down, I have odd pains in this breast, the nipple is at such a location that it gets pinched by things like my husband elbow when he rolls over in bed or by my clothes when I'm getting dressed it also has a growth that I have had looked at numerous times since I was a senior in highschool and nobody can figure out what it is. I've had like 5 ultrasounds and 1 (very painful) mammogram at the age of 23...and nada info on that damn growth. They just tell me it's not cancerous so just live with it.
Ok what else.....Oh yeah! I have to buy bras with padding since my nipples are always looking down or sideways or one up and one down and it's embarrassing! I just want to be able to wear a cute top and walk down the street with my gorgeous big bosoms, nipples pointing straight ahead demanding the attention of every (attractive) male!!! :) Ok I know that may sound crazy!! But I want so badly for my breasts to match the rest of me. Not saying I'm some super hot woman but I used to be think with long blonde hair and no stretch marks on my belly... I used to work out hard and eat organic and was a strict vegan because I was so conscious of my health. Even back then with my ugly breasts I still at least tried to look good. Now I have had a child (the best thing in my life) and of course my tummy had to get covered in stretch marks so now I have hideous boobs and a tummy that no matter what I do cannnot ever be bikini ready. I feel like "why try" anymore and I just eat now and drink too much wine and I really feel like I am unattractive...that no matter what I do I cannot be beautiful. I will never be able to amaze a man with my gorgeous feminine figure, I will never be able to wear a bikini again and sun bathe and feel comfortable.....
OK I am done I think.
I know much of that is very negative and crazy sounding but I had to get it out. Also I know it may not make sense and it probably has tons of errors but I was rambling.

Please don't say anything mean to me, I feel like this site is a safe place and that I can be vulnerable here. Heck I am already showing you all the thing that has bothered me so much in my life, the thing that even my husband doesn't see. The thing that I am so ashamed and embarrassed of.

Consult with Dr. Salemy

Hello all!! Well I had a consult with Dr. Salemy of Seattle. He comes to the tri cities every few months to do consults. I've met 3 women who have had their breasts done by him that are clients of mine and they LOVED the results and they all 3 raved about how wonderfully the office treated them so I decided to try him out.
He was extremely kind and warm, he's not awkward and lacking social skills like some docs :). I got very emotional before reveiling my breasts to him and he was understanding and very patient with me. He actually helped me heal a little by the way he responded to my breasts saying that they are NORMAL big ole breasts! Lol
So anywho let's get down to the nitty gritty... He said He would like to do a lift only. Said I have enough of my own tissue that I wouldnt require an implant. Whew! This makes me happy cause healing will be quicker and the cost will be less as well plus it's just one less thing to worry about coming out right.
The price is gonna be around $7,000 and In cool with that too. I will need a breast reduction on the right breast but he is not charging extra for that cause he said it would be very minimal.
This summer is going to be so busy and I have 1 bill I want paid off before I do this so I'm planning for the end of summer... September/October-ish. October 19th is my bday so maybe I'll do it in October for my bday gift!
So excited!!!

Years of waiting and it's finally happening!!!!!!!

My surgery date is December 17th! Only a couple more weeks to go! I am getting a breast lift and possibly some lipo to my left flank(it has a substantial bulge that doesn't match the right side). Everyone I know tells me to get implants too but honestly... I've had boobs since 4th grade! I'm actually excited to have smaller breasts and not feel this heaviness. I was hoping to be thinner but I'm going to push to lose 10lbs these next couple weeks. Not the healthiest but- I really want my Dr to lift these suckers up and I want to be as close to my goal weight as possible as not to cause more sagginess when I do get to my goal of 135. I'll post more updates once the surgery is done. I want to thank everyone for being so kind and letting me get pretty dramatic these past couple years. It's felt so good to get these vulnerable emotions out and be so supported by all of you! :)

Heading into surgery now!!!!

We're driving to get my breast lift done by Dr. Wright in Pasco, WA! I'm so nervous and excited. It's such a weird feeling. This is something I've wanted since I grew boobs! I was so excited this morning that I wrote a new review instead of updating to this review. So I think I'll keep adding to this one. Welp, I'll keep you updated!!!! Say goodbye to my old gals!

All Marked Up!!

That took forever! He's like an artist with a sculpture! So excited and nervous!

Home!!!

Surgery took around 3-4 hours. Not sure yet as I'm out of it. I woke up STARVING!!! I wonder if this is normal? My boyfriend is taking such great care of me, I don't know what I would do without him!
I'm wrapped up nice and tight and want to look so bad but I have to wait till tomorrow at the post op. See you all tomorrow!

Photos During Surgery

I know the staff pretty well here so I had them take photos of me during the surgery. Here they are! Geez this bi Dee I have on is soo tight and the tape is itchy but I have to keep it on. Looking at the photos I see why.

The big reveal!!!

I love them!!!! I can't believe Dr. Wright could get them sooo perky! He ended up doing a breast reduction on my right breast, he took double the tissue he took from the left to give me the perky look I wanted. I showed him photos of breast lifts and what I liked before the surgery. He told me that what I wanted in nipple placement was slightly higher than he usually does. He ended up going a little higher for me and I love it!! It's so nice to have nipples that I can see when I look down at my breasts. I'm just lounging around today, letting my sweet boyfriend take care of me. (Since I first started this review back in 2013 I got divorced and now have the nicest man as my main squeeze :). I'm going to try to go back to work tomorrow but this maybe a bad idea.... I'll make that decision later this evening.

Changing Bandages

We went to Walgreens and got some peroxide, Bacitracin, bandages and tape. I'm supposed to clean the areas with a mixture of half water and half peroxide, cover with Bacitracin and more bandages. He also gave me some nitro cream to help the blood flow to my left nipple as that side has some bruising and looks darker colored than the other side.

Supplies

Here is my routine 3 times a day

Day 3

I tried going to work and that was a huge mistake! Started feeling terrible so my boss sent me home to rest. I've always prided myself on being self sufficient and tough... I didn't realize how much this surgery would take out of me. I feel bad not being at work but I really need to rest and the staff is all so supportive. We were worried about my left nipple but there is blood flow there. So much bruising it was hard to tell if there was capillary refill.

Day 4 of Healing!

My dark left nipple started to bleed today while cleansing so that is a good sign! I have been using nitro paste multiple times a day plus heat and ice on opposing sides of my breast to get that blood flow moving. We also injected my PRP under this nipple to see if that would help. So far everything looks like it's going to heal! I'm home today resting and letting myself lay around. I'm not used to doing nothing so it's been hard but I have to do it so my body can focus on the big job of healing these boobies!!! Here are some photos from today!
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