Small-Framed 29 YOF | BA Complete! - Scottsdale, AZ

I finally had “the conversation.” The conversation many of us dread – having to tell a loved one or significant other that you’re undergoing BA. I am by no means embarrassed about my decision. But unfortunately, our human nature propels us in a judgmental direction, and I am simply trying to avoid being judged by others. So, I am choosing to keep my BA surgery very private. If I could help it, I would opt to tell no one, but I am a single female who lives alone and need a caretaker after surgery – my sweet mama.

Here’s my story: a while back, I told my mom that I was thinking of having BA. She stood in the kitchen washing dishes and just rolled her eyes and shook her head. She told me I was beautiful just as I am (said the woman with a D-cup) and I know she meant it. After I had my initial consultation with my PS and decided on a surgery date, I sat with her and told her I was really doing this. She essentially shut down. She told me she would help care for me after surgery but that I need not mistake that for her supporting my decision. Her eyes filled with tears and she walked out. Later that same night I wrote her an e-mail letting her know how I came to make my decision. I told her that I loved her and asked her not to judge me – I respectfully told her she had no idea what it was like to feel as though you have the same tomboy figure you did in sixth grade; that she didn’t know what it was like to have relatively no curves and to feel less feminine as a result. She responded a few hours later and told me she was trying to see if from my viewpoint and that she loved me very much. A few days later we sat down together and had a really good talk. I cried, which in turn made her cry (do you see a pattern here)! Since then, she’s asked many questions and I’ve been able to have someone to talk to. Granted, I try not to shove my excitement in her face but it’s so nice to have an ally.

I know some people will never understand our decision…and I guess they don’t need to :)

I had my pre-op appointment yesterday! I was so nervous for some reason - I guess cause I knew that was "it." That was when final decision were made, payment completed and the last time I'd see my PS before the day of surgery. For lack of a better word, the appointment was awesome! Dr. Brown is serisouly so wonderful; he and his staff spent nearly two hours with me and never made me feel rushed or as if they had other things to do. I tried on the sizers again, wore a fitted tank-top top and took pictures this time (thanks to the idea from others on this site). Looking at the pictures really did help a lot! I told Dr. Brown that I really liked the 275cc and would place my max at 300cc (smooth, round, moderate plus profile). He will make the final decision on the operating table based on what they look like once under the muscle. I completely trust him; he knows what I'm looking for.

I also forgot to mention that Dr. Brown's wife is also undergoing BA the same day I am. In fact, I wasn't going to be able to get a surgery date until late September, but she gave me her original surgery time/date and moved hers to right after mine. Are you kidding?! Who does that?! She's amazing. We are very similar in our frame and she's getting relatively the same size implants - just one more thing that makes me feel at ease. She also ordered me a surgical bra free of charge, so now I don't have to spend the extra $30-$40!

Now all that's left to do is get my prescriptions filled and wait until a few days before to clean like a man woman and get laundry done. I can hardly wait for August 06 :)