Quick history of my breasts:
2000, had my first child and nursed her... well of course it's the pregnancy that wreaked havoc on my boobs, not the breastfeeding itself. I went from perky pink nippled 34Bs to huge saggy, dark dinner plate aerolas. I wore 34D while nursing. After weaning, you can imagine how shrunken and deflated they were.
Had another baby in 2001.
2002- breast lift ONLY.. almost got the implants, but decided to be "natural" and just go with a lift. They looked AMAZING! Was very happy with the lift. Full anchor mastopexy. THEN, I got pregnant a few months later (we weren't good about using birth control in my first marriage lol).
2003- have a baby, breastfeed successfully with the lift.
.. after weaning I decide I want to bring back the fullness, and since I had considered implants in the past, the yearning for big round boobs never really left me. My husband at the time was a "boob man" so that was also a huge influence.
2005- 350cc smooth round saline implants placed under the muscle. I am 23 years old at this point. AND I get pregnant within a few months LOL
go through pregnancy, and breastfeeding with the new implants.. do manage to breastfeed successfully w/ the implants. But now they are just downright ENORMOUS! This is the first time I consider having them removed.. but I figure when I'm done nursing they will shrink back down and I'll be happy.
So they do shrink back down to 34D.. and I'm starting to like them again.
at this point I'm about age 25. I have divorced the first husband and in the midst of meeting my future husband. We fall in love and do what I do best, make a baby! lol
2008, have another baby, I nurse him the longest of all my kids 23 months.
2011, we have another baby, I nurse her 15 months.
So all along the last 5 or so years that nagging feeling of wanting my implants out has been hitting me. My daughters are getting older and I don't want them to have unrealistic expectations of how their boobs should look. I recently told them that my boobs were fake and they had NO idea.
I am now a 32DDD or 34DD.. so I don't know if I've grown or what? I haven't really gained much weight over the years. I give my implants credit that they never gave me any serious issues.. I have some wrinkling, and they are annoying at times, make me look bigger overall than I really am in certain clothes, and garner attention I'd rather not have, I miss laying on my stomach.. I haven't been able to FULLY enjoy a massage in over 8 years because it's so uncomfortable to lay on them.
I just want to be natural. I want to set an example for my children, that you should feel comfortable in your own skin. I want my sons to have realistic expectations of what boobs should look like.
Our society is perpetuating this facade of what "beautiful breasts" should be.. most of us don't have the "perfect breast" we're expected to have. So we get surgery to live up to those expectations.
I think things are changing though. I've struggled to buy attractive clothing the last 5 years because it seems a lot of fashions are now being made for smaller chests. I hate to say it, but I perused the "breast implant" review section and I felt the women just looked so silly. I am just SO over having big boobs. SO over it.
Ok, so if I have them out, what will I be left with? Remember, I've had 3 kids with these implants, my boobs have ballooned to letters I didn't know existed in bra manufacturing and then shrunk back down to D range. I have loose skin, I have stretch marks.
I don't think it will be a "pretty" sight lol. And I don't really care.
I plan to rock it, swing low sweet chariot!
If they really bother me in a year, I will get some kind of lift.
But I'd really rather not if I don't have to, haven't my breasts been through enough?
A mastopexy, then implants a few years later, breastfed 6 children! I just want to nurture these poor things!
I will probably get up the courage to post some pics soon. I have a consultation in 2 weeks. I've spoken with a couple other surgeons through email as well. When I have it all decided then I will put the info in. I am in Phoenix, AZ area.
I really want it to be done under local anesthesia and the surgeon I see in a couple weeks is cool with that. I've had other surgeries related to other things and I'm sick of being put under general anesthesia. Especially if I plan a lift in the future, obviously I will need to be put under general for that. So if possible, I'd like the removal process to be as smooth as possible. Just cut and slide it out. My skin is so thin under my breast (more so on the left side) I can literally feel and pinch my implant bag.. my husband says it feels like a grocery bag LOL
He's being pretty supportive.. he just wants me happy, and he's never been the "boob man" type. So I am thankful for that.
Ok, I will update as things progress :)