Breast Augmentation Silicone 350cc HP mentor implants

I'm scared! I had a breast lift with silicone implants placed submuscular in 2002 after two pregnancies which I gained 80 pounds each time. My boobs went from a 36B to 40E then 38FF.After both of my children were born I literally only had tissue that fell over my 36B bra. I had to roll my boobs and try to tuck them in. I was disgusted with my appearance. I would not have sex without a shirt on or wear a swimsuit. I know it sounds horribly vain. I had always wanted big boobs like most of the women in my family had. I loved them at a 40E. My mom said I looked like a cow, but then when they went away she said they looked like saggy fried eggs and 80yrs old. My mom was small chested and only gained 1/2bra size and 30lbs with her pregnancies. I took after my dads side. She is 69yrs old and is a perky C cup now from gaining a lil weight with age. I'm 40 and single. My kids are now 18 and 16 both boys. I asked their opinion.they said whatever it's your boobs we don't care, but when I show explant pics and try to get feedback they are so grossed out. My mom says to replace them. My R implant had a small contained rupture found on a MRI a few years ago. I was told it was safe to leave in not to worry. If there was pain come back and do yearly MRIs to make sure it was still inside capsule. I went to 3 board certified surgeons each reassured me not to worry. I was in a car accident 2yrs ago. Got them checked after still no change I was told but I was hit by 2 cars at 65mph and I was stopped in traffic. So since the accident I've had horrible shoulder pain and loss of function in my R hand. I had failed neck fusion 12yrs ago. So I was told my shoulder/arm issues were probably coming from that. But no tests show anything been to multiple Neurologists and surgeons no answer. I was told to keep strong l started back strength training. Finally pain got to bad this summer to walk my 2dogs together but they are 70lb dogs that pull a bit on the leash. Fast forward to Feb 2017 my friend I'm telling about my shoulder pain says let me see what hurts. He's the first to notice a lump under my armpit. I went to my obgyn she had me do a ultrasound which shows impregnated lymph nodes and 2 masses with free floating silicone no malignancy. So I'm supposed to go into surgery in 3 days. My 16yr old ran away from home which caused me to lose weight. I'm already thin from pain medicine I take from failed neck surgery now I just lost another 10lbs. I'm 5ft 8 and weighing 107lbs. So gross???? My surgeon I'm going to is Dr. Marie PLETSCH she has been a plastic surgeon since 1962. Longer than I have been alive. She has done my god mom,sister, and a couple friends. We all have had good results. She wants to go over the muscle this time. I just don't want rippled boobs. She says they will just rupture again if under the muscle. I asked if it didn't look like I had enough tissue when she goes to put them in to not put them in. She said if that was the case she'd place under the muscle. I have 350cc hp mentor silicone implants. Don't know the cc of new implants but she is going with moderate plus profile and I said I didn't want any smaller than I am already she said ok. I'm just not excited like the first time and I really don't like the look of over the muscle in pics I've seen. She says the placement over or under doesn't make the breast look different it's just capsular contracture that I'm seeing. Anyways I'm just trying to pay it forward writing this. I've been reading others stories on here for weeks now. I'm praying I can go through with getting them put back in. Multiple surgeons on here told me do not go over muscle, but I'm trying to have faith in my Dr. I don't want 2 surgeries if I don't have to and this silicone has got to come out. She's removing front part of the capsules then washing out the leaked silicone and leaving my armpit and lymph nodes alone. Sorry I'm not the best writer. Will keep updating. ????????

First day not bad was way looped from anethsia. I had explant and replacement don't know cc or profile but they look quite similar to before. My Dr. was awesome don't know why I was so worried. The implants were replaced sub muscular. I was too thin to go over the muscle which is what I had thought and she was able to remove most of the silicone that was in me from my old implants there was a wadded up amount that got stuck in my ribcage because I am so thin she didn't want to rupture a lung digging for more. However she assured me that it would not cause me any problems. There was a lump she sent in for a biopsy. I go in for my next appointment tomorrow hopefully I get my JP drains out I will update more as I Hillmore and he'll more. I still strongly recommend her as a doctor. She is very confident and comfortable with her work.

I accidentally posted the incision of one side twice it went let me fix it so here is the other side