Only 48yrs Old Feel Like i'm older with These Boobs, 5ft 3" 145lb and Size 34H - Savannah, GA

Ok so I have been looking on this site for over 6 months, I am so desperate to now have my Breast reduction surgery, here is my story. I never developed boobs till I was 17 years old then all of a sudden I had 32D's when I reached 21 I was about a 34E, I lived in England and went to see a NHS doctor to see if i could have breast reduction surgery, i was sent to my local hospital for a consultation. When I arrived i was asked to undress my top half and sit and wait behing a curtained cubicle to be seen by the doctor, there must have been 10 other ladys behind curtains, I could here the doctors conversation with the ladies that was before me. They had all had breast cancer and was in to see the doctor for that reason, this made me feel very selfish and by the time he got to me i was totally ashamed of my reasons for being there, maybe that was his plan? I left and never went back.
I became a model for 18years old and because of my shape and size I was sort after to do glamour modelling and page 3 shoots, i was never totally confident like the other girls with smaller boobs but i earned a living from it and travelled to some wonderful places in the world. at 24 I gave it up and took a new career path, i look back on those photos and my boobs look really small to me now compared to how they are today!
My life has had it's up's and down's with these boobs, yes they got me an awful lot of attention. But I got so fed up of the same slimy comments ie: oh i would love to see you run, but watch you don't get a black eye? I still get that one now even at 48yrs old!
I have had enough of them and the comments, the pain in my shoulders every single day, bad posture as i don't want to stick them out and draw attention to them, i have had Physical Therapy, massages sometimes makes its worse, my bra straps leave marks, I never wear anything other than a minimiser bra, if i go to the community pool i get so embrassed, and someone ALWAYS comments on them, the other girls stare i feel like a freak show. I am in a new area and scared to venture down to the pool because of my boobs, they make me feel fat, yes i am around 10lb over weight right now, I hate seeing myself in the mirror if i look in the mirror i always lift my boobs up, it makes me look slimmer, i never walk around naked because of my boobs and always hold them in my hands so my Husband doesn't see the way they are down to my waist now.
So I March this year i went to see my doctor, she agreed straight away without even looking at them and has put a referral in to a PS in Washington DC, but then we heard we was moving to SC, so I have had to hold off till now I am due to see my new doctor next Wednesday 27th July and hoping the referral is still there so I can now pursue my BR, I am trying to lose my 10lb before any consultation etc, just got ready for the gym as running helps me to lose weight but I really struggle my sports bra stops me breathing and my boobs hurt when i run, catch 22 but have to have the pain to lose weight. Just praying i get approved by Tricare to have this procedure.

Finally going to meet my new doctor tomorrow and hoping my referral is still in place so i can pursue my BR, been waiting since March due to moving house and holidays etc!
Ps the first 2 pictures are of the boobs i dream of having, will post some of mine soon once i have the courage.

Ok so I have been waiting 14 business days since my Doctors appointment before i could phone Tricare, I made the call and they hadn't received any referral! I cried as I have been waiting to start the process since March this year, but with moving state etc it has been delayed. But i then phoned my Nurse who said all i need to do is come in and collect a authorisation letter so i can proceed she also gave me 4 surgeon names she recommends and she has also had breast reduction and said she would show me her results when i come in she had her surgery in 2011 this as made me very excited so I am heading over there today to get the ball rolling. Just wondering if any of you have seen the following surgeons
Dr Audrey Klenke - Bluffton
Dr Weniger - Bluffton
Dr John Hensel - Charleston
Dr Huntly - Savannah
any feedback would be great thank you