Longing for a Lift and Lightened Load...but Now That It's Really Happening...YIKES!! - Santa Rosa, CA

As a young person I never really gave much thought to the size of my breasts. Not until after the age of 24 and having my baby and nursing him. Let's just say they became GIGANTIC!
I suffered a pretty bad back injury at work in my 30's and have had several whiplashes in my 20's. I'm no stranger to back and neck pain. My doctor, my chiropractor (who I see twice a month) and my massage therapist (who I see once a month) all agree that my breasts are contributing to some of this pain. All I can think about is that I'd love to have a lift! Wouldn't it be nice to have the tata's sitting up again? And that has been my wish for at least the past 10 years.
Fast forward about 25 years to today, and the girls are hanging even lower, no matter what amount of push ups, weightlifting I do, they just hang there. I was just fitted at Soma in a 36 DD which I guess after reading some of your stories on this site isn't that big, but for me they feel huge and in the way! If I hold them up with my hands I feel as though I can BREATHE! I sit at my desk at work most days and feel as though my shoulders are rolling forward which just makes me feel older than I am. My bras are always uncomfortable, I could spend $160 or $20 on them and they just are always cutting into my shoulders. I have deep grooves up there from them straps. I have some sort of bumps underneath my breasts...GROSS!
With the dream of having a lift always on my mind I took a chance and emailed regular doctor one day and asked if he thought I could benefit from a lift/reduction - low and behold I got a response the next day saying, absolutely, and that it was worth checking into. The day after that I received a referral to one of the plastic surgeons that works for my insurer.
I went in for an initial consultation with this PS and found him to be very nice, very calm, and calculated. I liked his openness with me. He took almost 2 hours going over the procedure, and the potential risks and possible benefits. He took pictures of my breasts and told me he felt a full C would be a good size for me to get some good benefits. Then came the bad news...he was booking back then (November 2015) for BR surgery in June 2016!
Well I have to say I never once in my dream of having perky boobies, did I dream of reducing the size of them! But after hearing him say a reduction and a lift would be the most beneficial way to ease some of my pain, and to lift them up I was somewhat shocked!
So here we are today and June 2016 is just around the corner. It seems like a lifetime ago that I met with my PS so I scheduled another meeting with him for today. I have a list of questions to ask.
When I talk to anyone outside of this site about doing this, most think wow that is great, but there are a few who clearly think I'm nuts! They speak of regrets. Funny the regret I'm thinking of are the ones that I would have if I didn't pursue this opportunity that I've being given.
I haven't taken any photos of the girls. I guess I should but the thought makes me cringe a little but I know it might be helpful for anyone who might want to follow my story. I know I like to have the pics as reference for the stories I've read.
So there is my story and I still have such big question marks flying off in my head - I thought this is what I wanted, but now that it's almost a reality...I'm SCARED! So scared of the depression that I've read about. looking down and feeling sadness for what I've allowed to be done to my body...but then on the other hand will i feel happy because I can BREATHE easier and my shoulders aren't constantly being pulled forward?
Anyway, a big thanks to anyone who has taken the time to read my long boring story. If you have any words of wisdom to help me make this decision I would really love to hear from you.

Well I scheduled another visit with my PS and I feel more at ease now. I think I was a deer in the headlights at the first appointment. Honestly I wasn't expecting to hear the words, "this surgery is 100% medically necessary". I kind of blanked out, and couldn't really think of any meaty questions during that initial visit. I have to say I'm so happy I went back, he was very open to seeing me again, and we really chatted about my expectations as well as his. When insurance is covering the expenses, the doctor likes to make sure that the patient understands that he/she will need to remove as much tissue as they feel will provide the most relief of the issues/pain.
We have come to the conclusion that I should end up a solid full C cup. I went out and bought one just for S & G and brought it along to my appointment, as I'm a visual person and wanted to be reassured his idea of a C was the same as mine! We agreed that I would fill that bra up nicely afterwards. He also reassured me about recovery worries that I had. He thinks that I should have no problems, and he thinks because I have very light/fair skin the scarring will be minimal. These were all comforting words for me to hear. He said he would never try to talk someone into having surgery, but wants each patient to hear the facts and benefits of what he feels the surgery will provide and from there the patient needs to make up his/her own mind. I like that. So at this point I'm keeping my scheduled appointment, and going to start telling myself, it's all going to be okay! I can do this!!

So tomorrow is the big day and I have been horrible about uploading pics because it's weird to post these on the internet, but I think it could be helpful. Because I know seeing other peoples pictures definitely helped me out. I hope to get some post-ops up here at some point this week. By this time tomorrow I should just about be coming out of it with my new girls!