240cc moderate profile (primary augmentation) 190cc low plus profile (revision 15 months later)

Hi there. I've decided to document my experience for three reasons-- 1) for support. my goodness... there are soooo many supportive women on this site graciously showering newbies with advice and encouragement. i'm hoping to get a good dose of it. :) 2) maybe I just don't know how to work this site, but it's been very, VERY difficult finding reviews from women with small implants (mid to low 200ccs) and figured I should contribute and hopefully be helpful to someone else.... and lastly 3) so that I can post and see my own progress. I apologized in advance.... this first post will probably be extremely wordy as I don't know where to start and what to include ....and will probably post random thoughts that pop up as I write.... :)

So here's my story..... I have a dance background and have always been thin with small boobs. Growing up, I never had a problem with small boobs. Always thought they were cute :) Fast forward to present day.... I have two awesome kids (a 3.5 year old and an almost 2 year old). I nursed both for about 18 months each.... and let me tell you.... my nursing boobs were AMAZING. :) It was the first time ever... EVER that I felt .... well... like a woman. I've NEVER felt that way before. It was the most interesting feeling... I mean... I've always felt like a cute girl.. even when I was 30 years old.... I felt like a ... cute girl... but BAM. once my nursing boobs came in ALL OF A SUDDEN, I felt like a woman. I enjoyed that feeling.
I am no longer nursing my kids. And my boobs are back to an A-cup. Now here's the thing... I STILL like my small boobs. I still think they're cute. But I miss that feeling....
So I'm looking for a very, VERY natural boob job. I just want to feel more feminine. And there's only one surgeon in town that I cared to consult with. Back when I taught dance, movement arts and yoga years ago, there was one name that kept popping up whenever someone I was working with felt a need for a little boost... the most natural boost... and that name was Steven Teitelbaum.

My husband was not onboard at the very beginning, because I had never mentioned a desire for boob enhancement, EVER, and we've been together for a very long time. So it came to him as a shock.... but after several conversations, he definitely understood why I want this. My husband came with me to see Dr. Teitelbaum for my consultation several weeks ago. My husband was very impressed with Dr. Teitelbaum... and I liked Dr. Teitelbaum too.... *sigh* however, honestly, I just was not 100% present during our consultation. My mind was elsewhere.... I just kept hearing my sister's disapproving voice. So let me go back a little..... Several hours before my consultation I called my sister to let her know of my plans for an augmentation. Now, I come from a very conservative family... and while I am only looking for a subtle increase , I didn't want to hide anything.... even from my very, very conservative parents. I also didn't want to disappoint anyone (law school drop out here.... both my siblings are lawyers...) so I thought, hey..... well if i can get my sister to understand and support me... then maybe having a conversation with my parents wouldn't be the end of the world... then I wouldn't have to hide anything cause my goodness, I hate hiding. Well... you guessed it.. the conversation did. not. go. well. my sister broke my heart, actually. ... she called me selfish...told me I'm always placing too much emphasis on looks...that I will fail my daughter and sending the wrong message to her..that I will break my parents' hearts once again... that I should use the money to take the kids on a trip and create memories with them instead...... called me a selfish brat before hanging up on me. She was so angry. so angry.....I couldn't understand WHY she was SO ANGRY with me. I really did not expect that reaction at all. And I had no idea NO IDEA that was how she felt about me! The conversation shook me...

So all of that was weighing very heavily on me during my consultation with Dr. Teitelbaum that afternoon. I had a notebook with questions I had written down for the consultation... but didn't even take that out of my bag..... Anyway, so I told Dr. Teitelbaum that I was looking for a very natural result and that I did not want to be as big as I was while nursing (full C) as I would like a more sporty look than curvy look. Looking for full B, .... maaaybe small C.. After carefully measuring me, he said that had I told him I wanted to look as full as possible while still getting a natural look, he would have recommended 300ccs, but because I do not wish to be a full C, he would suggest 220-240ccs. I was also fully expecting Dr. Teitelbaum to recommend anatomical implants because he is extremely well versed in their use and because I thought they would give me the most natural look. But surprisingly enough he suggested smooth round implants. He told me that I already had a nice shape and that the round implants will still give me natural results. At the end of the consultation he used a dictation recorder and basically repeated everything that we had discussed during the consultation.... super thorough. He listened. He took notes. He was super professional. Anyway.... my husband and I really liked Dr. Teitelbaum and I trust that he will give me the very natural results that I am wanting. However, because I wasn't fully present during the consultation and have learned that they don't do pre-op appointments (so basically.. just consultation... then surgery) I've asked for a 2nd consultation, just so I can ask a couple of questions from my notepad that I didn't ask and ... ya know.. just go through the motions of actually being present this time around.... and also to make sure we're both on the same page regarding the look I'm after before the big day. So the second consult will be on Monday, Nov. 27th.
Oh.. and I had already picked a surgery date and paid a deposit even before the consultation.... just to make sure I get the date I wanted. A packet arrived a few days after my consultation with all the consent forms and patient handbook and orders for a mammogram, physical exam with medical clearance by my primary doctor and cbc, etc. Okay. so. yeah... this is my first post. :) Sorry for being so wordy... and going off tangent.......Will post some before pics soon.

My second consultation with Dr. Teitelbaum went well. He is a consummate professional and I am thrilled to have chosen him to be my surgeon. I believe I am in great hands. And his nurse, April—- man she’s a breath of fresh air— super easy to talk to. Paid the remaining balance this afternoon .... now for the countdown..... eeeek!!!!

I know a lot of women have doubts before breast augmentation. I know it's normal. But I can't figure out if it's my own voice i'm hearing or my sister's. I think almost immediately after I paid my balance I started doubting whether or not I should really go through with this. For the past few months I was super excited with some anxiety about anesthesia... but I no longer worry about the anesthesia aspect because I really do trust Dr. Teitelbaum. But now it has turned to "will I actually be comfortable with implants in me??" "will I really get the very natural look with 240ccs?? or is that too big for what i'm going for?" This question regarding the 240ccs... Dr. Teitelbaum assured me I will definitely not be too big. But he's no mind reader and how is he to know my "not too big" is the same as his "not too big" I'm not the best communicator so I hope I have conveyed correctly what I want (and I just realize the importance of pictures... I didn't care to look for any pics to show the doc mainly because I didn't think that would be helpful cause it's not a specific pair that i'm looking for...) i just want to look like me .. but more feminine. Want bigger boobs but still small boobs... anyway.... "will i actually be comfortable with implants in me......"