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3/4 Sleeve and So Much Regret - San Ramon, CA

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I have been following many tattoo regret stories...

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bleakc11
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I have been following many tattoo regret stories and felt compelled to tell my own. I started getting a peacock sleeve tattoo in October of 2014. At first it was the black outline, which I was pretty stoked on. The first few sessions were all black shading, too, which I was fine with. Once the color started coming, I started to become self-conscious of the imbalance of color. I kept signing up for appointments thinking that I just needed to be patient and let it all come together. Now that it is complete, I can't stand how dramatically the color changes down my arm. I'm horrified to wear short-sleeved shirts because of how the sleeve hits the tattoo. Then I decided it would look better to have my inner arm full of stuff too, so decided to put a woman's face profile (still unfinished) there. This was just a week ago. It's pretty, but too complicated. My arm feels like a mess.

I've had a few moments before the face was added where I actually liked the tattoo, but mostly just the feeling that I had made a horrible mistake. In the past week I've cried every single day and had near panic attacks even more frequently. I think a lot of this drop off has come with my decision to stop drinking alcohol for a while. I drink regularly and feel that my drinking problem definitely influenced my decision to get and continue to get tattooed. My artist, who is a wonderful artist and a wonderful person, is a full-blown alcoholic. I gave him a lot of trust with my arm and feel that my suggestions did not quite come through in reality. It somehow has seemed ok for me to bear with the tattoo until now when I finally feel woken up.

Everyone around me tells me the tattoo is great and suits me. I feel that I need this reassurance to stay barely afloat, but I can't convince myself to like it. My boyfriend likes it and is super supportive of it. The only problem is that he freaks out whenever I have a moment where I'm feeling down on myself about it. I feel stuck and with no one to speak to. I signed up for a therapy appointment, which I hope will help sort things out. I'm nearly certain that I need to get this thing removed, but feel that I should go into it with a level head and create fair expectations of my journey out of this ink.

It feels like such an embarrassment to have everyone in my life know about this tattoo and to then explain that you are about to pay thousands of dollars to get the damn thing off of you. I hope I can continue to tell myself that there is some important lesson learned from all of this. It may be to suck it up and deal with your choices and come to piece with that. Or it might be the patience of the removal process that feels like it will suck years from my life. Either way, I hope I can find some good in this. I've always been self-conscious and this might have been my cry for help. Getting a tattoo seemed like it would hide the arms I've always thought were too big for my body, but it has only made them more unbearable. I hope that I can come out loving my body for whatever it is at any point in time.

I'm now looking for a practice that performs Picosure in the Bay Area. I haven't decided anything yet, but wanted to get my story out. I love reading everyone else's story to feel like I'm not alone out there. You all are so supportive and brave and I'm so happy I found this community.

bleakc11's provider

Jeffrey Riopelle, MD (retired)

Jeffrey Riopelle, MD (retired)

Physician, Board Certified in Family Medicine

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April 16, 2015
Omg... this is identical to my story except I never finished mine. As soon as I got color added into my half sleeve I had terrible anxiety and would hysterically cry every single day, all day. My husband is overseas so I really have no one to talk to so I am seeing a therapist every week right now. It's helping but I also think the fact that my husband agreed to pay thousands to go through laser treatments for my happiness makes me feel a lot better. I had my first treatment a week and a half ago and i already notice a change in my mood. I thought I'd have even worse anxiety because as I'm sure you know things swell and blister and get pretty gross. I was actually excited to see all the changes after one treatment. You'll probably see a lot more of a difference than I did after one treatment because the setting used on me was pretty gentle because of my complexion. Good luck dear and if you ever need someone who can seriously relate, I'm here.
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April 16, 2015
Thanks so much for your response! I'm so happy to hear your treatment is going well. I certainly feels good to know you are moving in the right direction to make yourself happy. Did you use Picosure? I know it looks pretty gnarly in the initial stages, but it'll definitely get better. Good luck - I'll keep following your progress and I'm excited to see your results :)
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April 17, 2015
I'm using Picosure on the majority of my tattoo and Medlite on the little bit of red that i have in it. I've only had one treatment and it seems like the colors are just turning grey which is pretty great to witness since I really hated the brightness of the colors.
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April 17, 2015
That's great to hear! One step at at time :)
April 17, 2015
I know exactly how you feel. I got my half sleeve in a dark time that I won't go in to but ever since I got the tattoo. I won't wear short sleeves, just wish my skin was back the way it was. I let the artist do what he wanted. I just did my 5th treatment with picosure, it does work but its a long process. It came down to me hating it forever or doing something about it. So I'm trying.. No matter what anyone else says, its your body and you have to live with it. My anxiety goes crazy over what's on my arm. I hope nothing but the best for you and your decision. If you ever need to talk or have any questions, feel free to message me.. Good luck to you
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April 17, 2015
Thanks for your support! It's nice to hear that you are happy with your decision to do picosure. Keep it up and keep loving yourself in the process! I'd love to hear updates on how the picosure is treating you :)
April 19, 2015
I believe there are two picosure facilities in the Bay. One in San Francisco and one in Mountain View. I'm currently looking into them as well.
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April 19, 2015
Nice. I did notice those two and also saw one in San Ramon listed on the Web (Dr. Riopelle - ?). I couldn't find any yelp reviews or anything so I'm not sure what the deal is. Let me know if you have any luck!
April 20, 2015
like myself. another case of post color anxiety.. artists really need to inform their clients that color is a huge step and that they should wear black shading for a while. i too loved my piece when it was just outlines with black shading. it looked great in pictures and it was easily balanced by the amount of skin it still showed off. now i just have this big variety of color with a ton of blank canvas around it. color is always such a big regret.
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April 24, 2015
I agree!! I wanted a blk/gray coverup on my stomach and loved how that would look, but the tatt "artist" pressured me into doing awful colors and now it looks like a ten yr old went crazy w crayons on my abdomen.... smh
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April 21, 2015

Welcome to the community, I am so glad that you found us too. I am sincerely sorry that you are feeling so overwhelmed with regret over your tattoo. It's great that you reached out for help. I have to say though....I really do like your tattoo, it's beautiful. Having such a large tattoo with color takes time to adjust to, it's a huge change. I am not sure if you have seen this review yet, but I do encourage you to read it, Lumiera is extremely inspirational and really puts tattoo regret into perspective. Here is some information that you may find helpful as well: Laser Tattoo Removal: 10 Things You Should Know Before Getting Your Tattoo Removed

I wish I could make this pain you are feeling go away, but the one thing that I can tell you is that it does get easier once you begin to accept your situation and let go of the regret. All you can do right now is explore your options, and take some time for yourself and see if you become more comfortable with your tattoo before making any decisions. 

One last thing that you might find helpful for the anxiety - when you feel like your mind won't stop, or you are crying...just stop, close your eyes and take some deep breaths. Also, find something small that you can carry in your pocket..anything from a rock to a charm...when those uneasy feelings start to take over, hold on to your item as a reminder to take a moment to calm yourself down. 

It's going to be ok...keep us posted on your next step ok. :)

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April 21, 2015
Thank you Eva G :), your response really made my day. It is a huge change and I do need to relax before making any rash decisions. I will definitely check out those links you provided. Thanks again for all that you do. I will keep you updated on the next step :)
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April 22, 2015

You're most welcome - I look forward to your updates. 

UPDATED FROM bleakc11

Consultation but no commitment for removal

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I had my consultation last week, which helped to put my mind at ease. I was quoted at $400/ picosure session, 3-8 sessions. If I needed more sessions after the 8th they would be free. This is actually better than I expected for being in the Bay Area. The clinic is a long ways away and it sounds like the appointments will take over an hour and a half (I'll need to get the numbing cream one hour before my session). I still feel full of anxiety about this tattoo, though I'm trying to stay positive and am trying to make my self like it. As with everyone on here, there are good days and bad days. I left the clinic feeling confident about keeping the tattoo, never wanting to go through the pain and money that it takes to get it off. Then I went shopping for dresses the next day and was reminded of how much it bothered me. I guess that is how it will be for a while - on the fence!!

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May 20, 2015
That's a good price quote
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May 21, 2015
Definitely is!
May 21, 2015
I think you should just do it if it really makes you unhappy then the sooner you decide to do it the quicker you will have it off. I was stuck in the same indecisiveness but I went for it and it was good choice. I would like to know where you got that quote. I went to bay area laser tatoo removal by Dr Deborah freeling and I can tell you she is an absolute scammer. I was quoted " 3 sessions with the slight possibility of 4" at 500 a session for a black tattoo with 10% of the ink that your tattoo has. Its is now session number 6 and my skin is burned white white spots all over and the tattoo is still nowhere near being gone. Significant fade yes but its been 6 freaking sesssions . I would expect at least minimum 2 more. Leaving a difference of $2500 MORE THAN THE $1500 quoted. Not to mention one of my sessions had ABSOLUTELY NO BLISTERING OR FADE. I am so done with her I need a new place If you can help me out.
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May 21, 2015
I'm sorry your not having any luck with that doctor. Is she the one down in Mountain View? I had a consultation with Dr. Riopelle in San Ramon. I've not seen many tattoo removal reviews of him on the web, but he seemed legit. The "free after the 8th" is a great confidence boost, though. It's a bit of a drive from where I live, but might be worth it. Check it out :)
August 28, 2015
hey!
I think your tat is not bad....it is actually really nice, maybe you need to get used to this tat like me :) I am having second thoughts as you....bad days and good days...but all in all I think that it is just the ink...it's not a disease or disability....You can always buy a skin-colour sleeve...
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September 7, 2015
Hi Alex! Thank you for your note :) I appreciate it. I finally went in for Picosure because I really could not see myself loving the tattoo ever. It is not an easy path, but I am happy I began removal. I'll be posting an update once my gross blisters go away :) Hope you are well.
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August 29, 2015

We would love an update on what you have decided, have you started removal or have you decided to keep your tattoo?

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September 7, 2015
Hi Eva :) I finally went for my first Picosure session on Saturday. My arm is outrageously swollen and still blistering. I'm going to post a full update in a few days when it's less shocking to look at. Long story short, I'm happy I made this decision even though it is a hard/long road ahead. Full post coming soon!
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September 7, 2015

Hi, thanks for your reply :) 

Congratulations on getting the process started, I look forward to your update. 

UPDATED FROM bleakc11

4th Picosure session done - Sorry I've been MIA on here!

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bleakc11

It's been so long since I last posted, but I have indeed decided to seek removal treatment. I actually just finished my 4th Picosure session and I am not sure how confident I am in the procedure. Sorry for not posting my progress along the way - I've been ridiculously busy and have been trying my hardest to pretend the darn thing isn't there. My first session seemed promising, as it made a huge difference right away. This one was performed by Dr. Riopelle himself. The second and third sessions were performed by a Nurse practitioner (Dr. Riopelle's wife, actually) and did not achieve the same results. I was told that she performs most of the tattoo removal sessions at their office, but I think that she was being to gentle. I have a very high pain tolerance, but she kept asking to see if I was doing ok. On these sessions I had only minimal swelling compared to the first, and the down time after the treatment was only a couple of days. For such a large area being treated, I don't think this should happen.

My fourth session (January 13th) was also performed by Donna, and this time she cranked up the intensity and it did achieve a better result in my opinion. Of course, that comes with quite a bit more pain but that is absolutely worth it for me. I was swollen down to my wrist for a little over a week. Most of the blisters occurred in the green tail-feather section, which is the part with a tremendous amount of ink.

It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but in looking back to my original pictures I do see a bit of fading. Still not as much as many people on here, and for that I blame my 2nd and 3rd sessions that didn't accomplish too much. Again, sorry for not posting sooner. This has been a huge source of anxiety for me and my response is to avoid at all costs! I try not to look at my right side in hopes that that will make it just disappear. Either way, it does feel good to be back on here and knowing that we're all in this struggle together. I remind myself that there are good days ahead and good days now if you allow yourself to see it that way. I keep thinking that I've ruined my life with this tattoo but that is simply not true.

On a different note, I noticed that that miracle tattoo removal cream just came on the market. This is the one that everyone has been talking about - that student in Canada that has been formulating this for years. Has anyone on here tried it? I'm very curious and wonder if it's possible to use between laser sessions to help expedite the process.

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February 18, 2016

Nice to hear from you, thank you for the update. I do see some fading, and I wish you success with your removal. So the cream is out! Wow, it will be interesting to see how well it works — thanks for sharing. 

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February 21, 2016
Looks great!!
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February 23, 2016
Thank you! Your fading looks great - keep at it! Hope you are doing well in the meantime :)
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February 21, 2016
Looking good. I'm a Bay Area native myself. I feel your pain I'm 10 months in a 5 sessions on removing a complete hand tattoo so unfortunately I can't hide it an have to look at it all the time. I've always had anxiety but this process has made it worse at times. Keep up the good work an stay positive it's a long crappy process but we will all get there one day
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February 23, 2016
Thanks Steve! I looked at your review and your fading looks awesome. The text is almost entirely gone! I hope the rest of your removal goes smoothly. Looking forward to your final results :)
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February 23, 2016
Thank you ya it's fading for sure but still a lot of ink left the lines seem to b the most stubborn. This process does drain u it's soooooooo long but we already started so we have to stay committed an finish it up whenever that may be lol
May 17, 2016
I know how you feel :( I'm going to be going through the same thing here shortly.... Awww I felt like I was the only one, but I definitely glad to have found this forum. Thanks for sharing your story :) ... I'll be posting mine shortly
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March 21, 2018
I feel you! I just read your review and can completely relate. I hope you are doing well. It looks like you are making some good progress!!