First Tattoo, Been Regretting It Since my Second Session - San Jose, CA

So I know I was supposed to have my first session done in July, but things came up. I finally got the courage this year and the place I went to was able to fit me in January 10th around 2. I forgot to take pictures and i'm updating about a week and a half late so this might end up being a long post! I didn't numb or ice my arm and was able to sit through the whole 3 mins. I thought it would have been a lot more painful, but it was tolerable. Right after the session my arm became very red and it swelled up pretty bad. It took about 3-4 days for the redness and puffiness to go down. It did bruise a little and I had very small blisters. After a week my arm started to look dry and flaky. I apply vitamin e oil because it really helps soothe my skin and keeps me from scratching. Also, my arm has been extremely itchy!!! It has almost been about 2 weeks and the healing process really sucks :( the pictures down below were taken Jan 22 and my arm has swelled and looks red again. Is that normal? I also noticed little bit of fading near my elbow.

SO I finally got the courage to call and set up an appointment. My appointment is at New Skin Adult Tattoo Removal and is on July 19th at 2:50pm. I'm glad I finally called and was able to talk and be reassured that everyone is nervous their first time. I'm going to be doing three minutes for $80 and they also have 5 minutes for $100. I decided to go with 3 minutes just so I can get the feel of how it is going to be. I'm excited to start my journey and sharing pictures with you all :)

So this is my first tattoo, and as you can see I went all out.. I'm not sure what made me want a full sleeve, but now I am regretting it. Maybe because my boyfriend has a sleeve and it looks nice on him. I'm not used to having tattoos on me and I'm still not comfortable with it. Being 18, I made a stupid decision that was done on impulse. It took me two session to realize that this tattoo is not for me. I am now 19, and I still cover it by wearing long sleeve shirts, cardigans, and sweatshirts. It has brought my self esteem down and I get depressed when I look at it. I miss having my arm blank and nothing on it haha. I'm looking into getting it lasered off, but I'm nervous to call and make an appointment. My boyfriend also doesn't support tattoo removal and feels like I will ruin my skin if I do it. These tattoos are from my favorite movies, but it did not come out how I expected it to. I feel like it is pieced on and doesn't flow together like a sleeve should. Also, I made the mistake to color it in. I don't like how I can't see my skin and how it will be that color forever. My skin reacted to the green and some of the blue ink. I think it is scared and my tattoo becomes very itchy. My plan is to lighten my outline that starts from my shoulder, all the way down to my forearm. I know that my tattoo won't be completely erased, so I will get a cover up of something I know I will want in the future. It would be nice to have no tattoos on my arms at all, but I know you will still be able to see some of the previous tattoo. I don't think I will try to remove the tattoos that are colored in because I feel like blue, green, and red will be hard to get off of my skin. Also, that it is scared, I'm worried on how it will come out. I have found a place where I want to get it removed and have researched and read a lot of stories on here. I'm just really nervous to call and set up a date. It would be nice to hear some feedback.