Chipmunk Cheeks and Dead Hollowed Eyes from Botox on Crows Feet - San Jose, CA

Looking back at post pictures, my face still looks more hollowed in the temples, eyes, and I noticed now there is still less fullness in the medial area of the cheeks. BUT on Monday January 4, still feeling paralysis throughout my cheeks and upper lip area (between nose and mouth) I began taking Hyland's Bioplasma tissue cell salts. I had been researching the weekend prior and found that many of the facial characteristics a person has may be due to mineral deficiency. There are many facial analysis videos on youtube. So I thought that most likely I would be deficient, as well my body is trying to repair these tissues but may have inadequate means. So I began the tissue salts that Monday. Tuesday I thought to myself, "I hope my face does not have this paralyzed feeling for the rest of my life." I continued taking the salts, at times every 30 minutes. (its homeopatic, so quantity taken is unlimited). By Wednesday, I almost could not detect the paralysis about mid day. By Thursday, the normal feeling was felt even longer. By Friday, I realized that the paralysis feeling was vanishing steadily, but definitely going away. Only 4 days prior, I was worried about lifetime feeling of paralysis! Many things I have been doing to recover can be called coincidence. But its been about 16 weeks, and I am getting my face back.

There are some differences from before the Botox. Immediately before I looked tired and my face untoned, I'm thinking from lack of happy expression due to depression and being underweight. Those two things can really devastate a person's looks. When I was younger I bounced back more easily, but now I realize at 44, its going to take a greater toll.
Not only have I been healing from the toxin of Botox, but it was a wake up call to take care of myself. I have become a conscious eater. I make myself eat. I make sure foods are healthy and healing. I have gone from 112/113 lbs to 122/123 lbs. I'd like to gain a few more and stay at that weight. I don't look fatter, I look healthier. Its also helping me to cope better with the situation.

I stopped drinking daily coffee. :-) Now I typically start the day with a smoothie of organic fruits: bananas, pineapple, mango, berries, lots of blueberries, cranberries, organic sprouted tofu, red palm oil or coconut oil, cilantro, mandarins, apples ... healthy foods! I feel so much more balanced.

So yes, the botox was bad, horrible and I would never recommend it or do it again, ITS POISON, but it has been a huge wake up call to take care of myself.
I have a greater appreciation for my wrinkles, though now much wiser, I will use facial exercises to continue to tone my face. The hollowness of my temples, eyes, and loss of volume in my cheeks bothers me. Its slight but noticeable to me. I will probably eventually get fat transfer to those areas. But I will research well who I choose to do this procedure.

Perhaps it was because I was exercising my cranium during a 4 hour drive home. I was trying to strengthen my muscles, but it may be that the temple muscles are just too paralyzed still. I feel they will never come back. I always had more hollowed temples, but the botox has exacerbated this. I am posting my temples before and after. The before was sometime in the summer of 2015, while the after was done just a few minutes ago. This is discouraging to see that instead of improving with time, the area has become further hollowed.
Also the muscles on my mid brow are thickened. I got injections for the elevens then he gave me shots at almost the top of the brow. I try not to overly use the eyebrow muscles in fear that they will grow out of proportion. People do not notice or at least do not comment.
I'm looking into getting fat transfer to the temples because I hate looking at this everyday.
Its so sad that I told him that I was concerned with hollowness under my eyes, temples and cheeks, but then he gave me a treatment that worsened the condition. How ignorant and because he is a top doctor, simply cruel. I do not have the money to chase this with fillers, nor would I want to ever get an injection of synthetic crap or toxin again.
Ive gained about 10 pounds in hopes to pop my face back out.
The cheeks are regaining their tone. It was about the 10 week mark that the botox stopped burning under my skin. Now the tissues are just stiff.
I do a lot of exercise on the lower part of my face. I guess i will tone down the cranial exercises. Perhaps they caused the depression in my temple this morning, since that area is still paralyzed.
This painful long episode with botox has taught me a lot about the mentality of our western society in general. What does it mean that we are comfortable with and embrace feeling captive within our own faces? That we would allow our precious muscles to atrophy for the sake of a death-like smoothness. I simply wanted my grief lines to be gone, the frown marks the lines that formed from crying over the death of my loved ones. But this experience has made me welcome those marks. Rather than helping me to forget them, it has made me more aware and have further grief over the loss of my ability to show expression. Yes, it is temporary, somewhat. But it is obvious that some of these alterations will be permanent. Botox is like a prison that it halts the ability to express freely. Its been around for almost 20 years, so I'm surprised that it still receives so much hype.