21 Year Old- Always Wanted Boobs 435cc Silicone

Well it is 2am and I am 5 days pre-op. I am so nervous and terrified. But excited all at the same time. I am 5'7 125lbs. I had my consultation at the end of September and my mom went with me, she does not have boobs either. So I think we got really wrapped up in trying on all the sizes and stuff that we chose way to big of a size for me. We chose 440cc HP silicone. As I got home I freaked out about the size, definitely way too big for my small frame. So I continued to look around at pictures and decided on 385cc MP. For many wondering why I want MP now instead of HP, I workout everyday the HP poke out a little too far for my comfort of working out and just doing life things for me. I have not told my doctor about the change since I have my official pre-op on Tuesday, for some reason I am nervous to tell him..what a loser, I know! But today is the second night in a row I am just to excited/nervous about it. I have been trying to get everything ready for the big day; cleaning, making tons of lists, homework, grocery shopping, work, etc. I am getting them done in San Francisco, which is about 2 hours away from me not counting traffic. My surgery is scheduled for 11am and we will begin driving home in high traffic time...GREAAATT!! I know this is my first post, but I've been reading hundreds of them and finally felt as though i should add my journey, nervous about putting pictures up but we will see. I will ass one of me and then two of my wish boobs. I will keep you guys posted as the days go on. Only 5 days left!!!!

XOXO

I actually can't tell if I'm nervous,or just so excited that I can't stand it. I have wanted boobs for about four years. Each consultation I scheduled I chickened out and cancelled, which I do with most doctors appointments. I have always been the girl who has had a nice butt but nothing up top. I wear a 34A, on a good day. I just don't understand I mean I know my mom has small boobs, but my sister somehow got blessed with C boobs and I'm just over here like hey....! I guess what im trying to say in all of this is..I can not wait until Friday! My pre op day is tomorrow which I am super excited about! I get to tell Dr Gray about my sizing change and try the size on! I am 99% sure that I still want to go with 385cc of the gummy bear silicone implants in moderate profile. I will take some pictures tomorrow at my pre op. Just have to keep reminding myself to calm down and be patient.

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OMG! I cannot believe that surgery is two days away (freaking out over here)! I had my pre op yesterday and was able to try on the 385cc in Moderate profile...they were PERFECT. Dr. Gray usually goes on width of your breast pocket, mine was 13. The 385cc has a width of 12.8 so he said that he will put them in and make a judgement call if they look to big balls on my chest he will figure out what size i should be. Nobody wants there boobs to look far apart and super round, or at least I don't. There is a girl who works at Dr. Gray's office, her name is Ashley. She is super awesome; super laid back and just tells you how it is, she's just great!

But let me just tell everyone out there unsure of what their size is, do what feel right and comfortable to you. If a doctor tries to push a certain size you should walk out. It is your body and they are going to be in your body for at least 10 years. Another thing, take into account all of the activities that you do. If you are a mom, if you are an athlete, if you want children someday, if you want to be conservative, etc. I know that it is a big choice, I mean my nervous stomach is coming right now just typing all of this. And i know that have of the stuff I wrote is for the future for most of us, but think about it trust me. For me I based my decision on; one, I live an incredibly active lifestyle. I go to the gym as often as I can, I play recreational sports, I go hiking, and I am also moving around in some sort of way. I changed my profile choice because of this fact. When I tried on the high profile they got in the way when I tried to cross my arms and when i bent over they were just hanging to the point of like me being like that is too much boob for this girl! The second factor was I want to have children. I have never had a child, so i know that when i do my body is going to change. While I'm pregnant my boobs will grow and even after they might get a little bigger. In knowing this I didn't want to go too large that my boobs would look odd as i aged. Again this is just me and things I considered, but I tend to over think things.

Okay, anyways, back to what I should be talking about lol! So at my preop I got my prescriptions (percoset, ambien, ranbaxy (for right after surgery), and some little nausea patch for the ride home), I took before and after pics, I signed consent forms and I did my final sizing. My fiancé was there so he was finally able to see what I am freaking out about. But he said any size I chose would ooh great, and if I chickened out hat I am perfect the way I am (awww he is so wonderful). So that was basically the pre op, short but sweet.

Today I am going to go to the store to pick up some essentials (pineapple juice (supposed to help with constipation), peach cups (helps with constipation), cocoa butter, vitamin E oil (both for scarring), ......I have a list but I don't have it by me so I will have to update of the things I read about and picked up from the store. I am trying to do my post op naturally if that makes sense. My body is already going to be going through so much stress of surgery and anesthesia and pain meds that I just want it to relax for a while, I mean I'm still going to take my pain meds! But as far as constipation I do want to take any supplements and scarring they offer this like $100 cream for scarring..read the ingredients it is a huge long list..not thank you! Especially since this surgery already brought my bank account down so low..double no thank you!! Haha! But I just want to give my body a break from putting crap in it that it doesn't need (ironic since I will be loving with silicone implants haha oh well I'm crazy like that).

Well I hope some of this helped you guys, I know some of it was pointless and me just rambling but there were some good points that I hope you guys think about and consider before deciding on your final size! Like i said I will post an update on what I buy from the store, some of you are probably freaking out just like I did for post op care, I read hundreds of articles so hopefully I get everything I think I will need. Also, I posted a new before picture hopefully it is a little clearer than the first! If you guys have any questions let me know :)

XOXO