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Revision and lipo DONE
So here goes the update.
My original ready lift and implants (565 mpp) were not what I wanted. My stitches for some reason didn't dissolve. It was a miscommunication; not anything my doctor, Dr. Usha Rajagopal did or didn't do. It was just a irregular thing.
That surgery and journey was documented from the beginning (see earlier entries).
My last check up visit for the 565's wasn't the best. The scar on the right side wouldn't heal completely without help. It finally did but not perfect. As I said my body for some reason did not absorb the sutures. I couldn't work out right; I gained a lot of weight. This time I decided for the revision she agreed to do I would be upgrading to 800's and they'd be UHP this time. Well I have those now. The lipo as of now I totally regret. The pain is unbelievable. I look like I'm 7 months pregnant; can't breathe in this corset; wrap type thing. So hard.
And I'm completely dependent on my mom and Rocky to just go to the bathroom. I can't and won't do pictures of my belly right now. I have serious control issues due to past issues. Well not having control over myself and my own decisions, my body especially makes me unstable mentally. If I had known it would be this bad I wouldn't have done it. The pain is awful; super swollen and I'm pretty sure it's only going to get worse. Not making things easier by treating Rocky and mom like it's their fault by being a [RS bleep]. I was totally unprepared for this lipo after treatment. Didn't know it would BE THIS BAD. Uncomfortable sure but not this. But my boobs relatively pain free. And we went from 565 to 800. Here's a couple shots of what I can get of my new girls. I do love them; but know now not to get attached until a month or so goes by! Here's hoping this second time around for better than first! Bra is the new front closing Victoria's Secret Bra's which staff removed underwire from prior to putting on me! I love them. They're nice to look at and pretty comfy. 38DD was too small to close inside bra. So just the outside is closed for now but that's all I've got for now. Hoping tomorrow is better. And wish I knew if I had traditional lipo or not ????
It's been so long!
I'm having a small problem with my right side and I'm not into posting pictures today. I will soon though but I'm only updating to vent.
So even when I was heavy and had my own large breasts I wore tank tops. Just black or white normal tank tops. I don't remember having this kind of trouble.
Everywhere I go. I have problems. Women are so rude to me -- if there's more than two of them (I call this a pack of snickers)-- if a boyfriend or a husband stares at me he can't just look and glance or no-- he has to stare so hard he crashes his cart into his girlfriend/wife his God damn old lady. Then her eyes immediately sense the threat and I of course being the immature person I am likely am standing there laughing. That last time I was with rocky so it's not like I appeared to be man hunting. And I'm perfectly happy with Rocky so I'm not out staring at attractive guys or any such thing. I swear I am not. But these little people of "power" (by little they're usually fat women) or just mean evil step mother types. Here's an example ok so I was buying Amazon gift cards this is my everybody go-to gift. You can't buy the undefined amount on a credit card. Like the $50-200. It must be predesignated like the $100 or $50. So I go to Walgreens these heffers (and if you wanna call me a racist I don't give a crap because I'm not this is just a fact-- I like live in a black town-- black chicks are way worse) start muttering both looking at me the minute I walk in. And I'm always nice to people at the start. Asked where the gift cards were both of them stared at my [RS bleep] then look me up and down and I swear one wanted to comment but the other one just lifted her finger and said "over there". I'm like great thanks.
So I walk around get the cards -- my standard bandages these days and holy [RS bleep] a front closing sports bra made of Lycra (which I'm still in awesome). I take all this [RS bleep] up. I have my credit card and I'd out in my hand. She scans everything with this [RS bleep] smirk cards and all. Then she pulls this "no cash or debit card no gift card" and gives me this smile like she's eaten the canary. I'm like the other Walgreens accepts it as long as they're predesignated. Her face drops so much it's comical it retrospect. And her fat friend literally comes up out of nowhere (mind you a moment of 60 seconds of pure silence has passed) goes shoulder to shoulder with her and says "we aren't like the other Walgreens [RS bleep]". Yes she called me a [RS bleep].
So I did what person would do. I asked her just like this ... "Do you just want to feel my [RS bleep] or do you think the manager gets down with you calling customers [RS bleep]?" "He ain't gonna believe you [RS bleep]". So I lost it I started screaming really stupid [RS bleep] because I have no self control and I won't repeat what I said here my good friends probably already know ::insert funny slightly embarrassed emoji face here:: lucky for me the manager had heard her call me a [RS bleep] twice and I got my [RS bleep] on my credit card and left. But here's my thing. Unless I'm with Rocky -- I catch such a hard time. Everywhere I go. 90% of the time I'm catching [RS bleep] the other 10% it's a woman asking questions about my [RS bleep] when I'm trying to get [RS bleep] done in my day to day. Im no longer a person I'm just a set of [RS bleep]. And this in a sports bra. Now if I would have known this would be such a problem pre-ba would I have gone the same? Absolutely. Now I just carry a jersey or one of rocks flannels in the car everywhere I go. Granted it's 300° in Vallejo everyday and I look stupid but hey I guess the combo of tattooed arms--big fake [RS bleep] in and a god damn smile gives you instant villain status.
People automatically assume we're mean because of the gear we wear so I at times go out of my way to be nice to certain people. More shock value and teaching people a lesson about sterotyping than just being nice but damn ... It's middle school all over again. But see ... When I talk to Rocky it's "maybe you should just wear a jersey over your tank when we're in public" ok why? I didn't have to when I was like fat. And I see heavy girls wear waaaaaay more not okay stuff. And why is a tank top so bad? I want honest opinions here. I actually put on a tank top and took pics of what I look like and I want honest opinions seriously. Not support! Just honesty. Granted I hear this a lot "why are you covered in tattoos with huge fake [RS bleep] if you don't want the attention and it's not like you're ugly soooo?" The honest answer to that is when I got my ink I didn't do it for attention. I did it because I wanted the ink. I got my [RS bleep] because I wanted them. Who does permanent [RS bleep] like that for anyone else but themselves? I don't know maybe people do. I don't but [RS bleep] man and pardon my god damn cussing I don't do anything for public attention!! So I'm asking the lot of my girls and loving followers ... Give it to me straight.
Captains log on yesterday's appointment
The tape it stung! The staples there were only one two and I didn't feel a thing!
Prepare yourselves ... It's bad. Kinda why I've stayed off but you guys have always supported me so more crossed fingers the better. No infection yet she said ... But she wants me lines to heal smooth an straight. Apparently I did this not taking it easy. So for the next two weeks I'm bed rested like day one one steroids. I can't like lift anything. Not even under 2 pounds and ... Absolutely no gym not even treadmill or no arm work outs. Lay in bed. That's it. But I'm going to power through it so my girls can get start getting to massage and she said from what she can tell my girls will be perfect and symmetric and just what we both wanted IF I DONT SCREW THIS UP BY NOT STAYING STILL.
PREPARE YOURSELFS. NOT PRETTT.
Provider Review
This doctor is phenomal. I can't say enough good things about her. I feel like I'm visiting with a friend when I go see her! She's flat out told me "no" when I've gone all ..."surgery addict" it's true once you get one thing you want it all. Tummy tuck; lipo-- and she's flat out out told me "you don't need it I won't do it stop it." I absolutely love this woman and she does amazing work. I can't believe more Bay Area people haven't gone to see her. She's amazing her bedside is heavenly and she follows through on everything. I recommend her with everything I've got! If I could give her 10 stars I would. And her staff -- Jennifer in particular she's great!