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Back to Me - San Diego, CA
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I am a 38 year old who got implants ~9 years ago....
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I am a 38 year old who got implants ~9 years ago. I used to obsess about breasts and how I had "none." I'm very glad I got them, as they are wonderful and have allowed me to feel confident in a way I never could. Now that I've had them, I see I don't need them. They have done their job. I am trying to become authentic, love myself and demand that I be loved for me. I have no health risks yet, but think I will heal better now than in 20 years. At first I loved them, then I kinda forgot they were there. Lately I'm hiding them and feeling the fakeness inside me. I am breast-obsessed again, in the opposite way. I am 5'4" and got implants at ~105 lbs. part of the rationale was to "even out my figure." I always felt bigger on the bottom . Well, looking at old pix, the reality is that I was skinny, top and bottom. With the implants I allowed myself to gain ~40 lbs. I'm starting to get fit again and should likely end up at around 30 lbs heavier than my pre-implant, 29 year old self. Now that I'm here, I'm more interested in demanding I'm loved for ME. Somehow that now means its ok if I wear makeup and dye my hair, but I think the saline needs to go. I went from a small A to a full C, and have (over the last 8 years) now become a 34DD. I worry about sagging and disfigurement, but as many of you mentioned, implants are a disfigurement. It's a hard decision since they look great and have no complications. I'm hoping I'm movin to a different place in my life, and I'm feelin like they need to go. Any thoughts? I have a consult w the same six who put them in (Tom Pousti in San Diego) on sept 23.
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September 13, 2013
Yep. We went from the girls who didn't have...to getting attn and we believed it was because, after surgery, we did -- maybe the only reason we were getting attn (?) Could have been the new found confidence but...that seemed doubtful, to me anyway. I did the same hiding-the-body in clothes after a time. Fast forward to the present: I'm at a gateway for the rest of my life. I am so lucky, to have those silicone things for decades, & not have health issues. Surprised & grateful when I saw the ruptured implants & the gunk removed with the capsules! (not a clue). My thoughts? If you feel prompted to explant now, it's probably good not to wait until you're 64 -- like me. I've read your PS's pages & looks like you've chosen well to consult. I wish you health & happiness, whichever way you go.
September 14, 2013
I understand how you are feeling....I just got to a point when I knew that I didn't want them anymore. They no longer made me feel better (if they ever really did) and I was sick of all the things I couldn't do comfortably, run, jump rope, sleep on my tummy, wear tons of cloths that I loved but when I put them on I looked like a [RS bleep] ! Anyway, this is a great site to start looking around and reading others stories and getting great advice from women that have gone through the same things. I think you will just "know" when you are ready....then you will feel like I and so many others on this site do, 100% better to be free from all the negative that goes along with implants. Good luck to you :]
September 14, 2013
Just like you I loved my implants at first. I was extremely hesitant to get them at first, but afterward thought it was the best thing I ever did. Reality set in a few years later and I couldn't fit in button up shirts or dresses without getting a size too big for me. I hated that working out was not the same and felt weird. Like you I started covering them up and becoming embarrassed of them and the fakeness of it all. Unfortunately, I've developed health issues and some slight complications from them in the past year which was the final deciding factor for me to get rid of them and just be me again. I'm honestly looking forward to getting rid of the extra weight on my chest and looking more athletic again. I'm looking forward to wearing cute things and not drawing attention to my chest. I wish you well on your journey and hope that you find peace with whatever decision you make.
September 15, 2013
You are young and beautiful. Your breasts are going to bounce right back and you are not going to believe how much better you feel! You will be able to exercise more easily, and clothes will fit you so much better! Praying for you!
UPDATED FROM Unsure2013
Explant date and doc set!
After consults, there were 2 surgeons I would consider. I'm going with Dr. Pousti. He is the same now as he was 10 years ago...conservative, thoughtful an confident he can achieve good results. T minus 20 days...my surgery is set for 7am mon oct 14...
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How is Recovery after Explant with Benelli Lift?
So I'm excited about Oct 14, but nervous too. I've decided to do the lift and explant. I hear explant is almost painless, and that lift could be almost painless as well. i'm scared of the drains. I also find it hard to believe that the pain will not be anything like what it was getting these things in. My latest waffle point is whether or not to get the lift. I don't want to be disappointed that I didn't, but that's not really a reason TO do something. I started out a 34A but that was 10 years ago; I'm different, my body is different, and I apparently have more breast tissue than I used to (due to weight gain). I have seen tons of pictures with and without the lift.. And bodies are bodies. So some women have amazing results without the lift, and some have not amazing results without the lift, and some have amazing results with the lift and some have not amazing results with the lift. I'm having a really hard time debating this point. It seems minor to me at times, and then I fret over it. Will it make them look worse? Is it worth the extra pain and scars? I'm so sure about the removal...I just wish I was more sure about the lift. Anyone have any input?
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September 27, 2013
I went back and forth about the lift or not too....my dr. (and others) say that it is best to wait to have a lift after the explant to let things "settle" so the dr. knows what he is really working with. I looked at it this way, I would get the explant and if I couldn't live with how it turned out...then I would get the lift. They say you should give it 6 months before you lift after your explant. Knowing that it is better to wait till after the explant for the lift made me feel much better......you can always have the lift a little later on if you are unhappy with your result.....no need to rush it.
I liked your comment about it still being okay to color your hair and wear makeup, lol! Everyone has their thresholds about what they'll accept in themselves and it sounds like the implants aren't you anymore. It's amazing how we can change over the years.
I hope you'll use this space to keep us posted on your journey!