46 Yr Old, 21 Yr Old Saline Implants- Hoping Explant Gives Me my Health Back! - San Diego, CA

It was like a year ago, I was praying, trying to make some deals with God about how to heal chronic illness. I've been experiencing illness for quite some time and felt desperate to get better but...there were two things I didn't want to have to do... get a colonic (lol) or have surgery. Well, now I’m willing to do anything. This journey started at age 25 after the end of a bad relationship. A girl at work came to my desk. I was sitting down. Her chest was at my eye line and I was like- hey- something is different here! She smirked at me and shared her secret- she just got implants. She was glowing. I wanted to glow. I also wanted to be attractive enough to ensure the next guy might feel lucky to be with me and therefore treat me well. With little thought or research I found myself getting a consult and quickly booking a surgery. I was about 100 pounds and 5’5. I went from a 32b to a 32d although I'd asked for a C. They were saline, Allerghan, under the muscle, with scars under the boob.Embarrassing to say- but it wasn't until I found this forum that I began putting together some of the timeline when my health began to become affected. Sure, I'd considered before that my implants might be a factor in illness but I shooed that thought away, afraid of surgery (because during the first one I woke up and it freaked me out!) Within a year of implants I began suffering from migraine headaches. They became daily. I didn’t even think of the implants! There were some unfortunate things that happened around that time, plus migraines run in the family. I ended up suffering with them for almost 12 years and having to take medicine daily. It sucked. Other things began to happen that I didn’t link. Cognitive difficulties. Getting every bug that went around and keeping the bug longer. Respiratory infections. Sinus infections. Bacterial infections. Memory loss. Confusion. Getting lost while driving in my own neighborhood. I was tired all the time but I pushed on. By age 37 my whole world crashed. Almost overnight I became unable to do the high stress job I’d been doing for 24 years. In one cognitive test it concluded that some of my superwoman powers had become “remedial.” I lost my home, my business, my possessions. I ended up on disability and my health continued to decline. Since then I’ve been diagnosed with Nuero endocrine disorders, Immunity disorder, CFS, Fibro, Cognitive dysfunction. I’ve been to many doctors and not one ever asked me about the implants although I’ve disclosed it honestly to every one. Last year I found out I have Lyme disease. Are my symptoms related to implants or Lyme? Don’t know. (The best defense against getting chronic Lyme is a healthy immune system.) My attention for the past many years has been on finding out what’s going on with me so I didn’t consider the implants... she says sheepishly. In a recent visit to my favorite health practitioner he told me that I’m showing mycotoxins in my system. Mycotoxins are the end product of mold exposure. And, he said, that my immune system is engaged in a big fight. Then he told me- this is something new, something we haven’t deal with before. Only the week prior I noticed that my left breast didn’t seem to be filling out my bra the same as the right? Was it slowly leaking? How could I have not noticed that difference for the last 21 years? I told my practitioner of my concern and he agreed that I needed to get into surgery soon. Having surgery with health issues is not ideal, but he is prepping me and supporting my immune system with herbs and supplements to get me ready. I know this needs to be done and I know I can’t re-implant. After all I’ve done to regain my health- changing my whole life from the ground up from eating, to juicing, removing chemicals in the home, working on myself spiritually and emotionally, having implants is no longer a match to who I am. I’m scared the most about the process and my health, but I’d be lying if I didn’t say I’m scared about how I will look afterward.  On the upside: I’m willing to believe that this scare with my implant is the catalyst that may change my life in the way I needed to this whole time. That thought is what I use when I begin to have anxiety attacks. I’ve been crying in my bed alone at night. Currently I intend to trust my explant en bloc to Dr. Pousti in San Diego. I’m impressed with what I’ve seen so far and I like his vibe. :) All of those before me who have shared here, you will have changed my life. Once I felt my implant was leaking I knew I couldn’t take a chance that I may have mold implants seeping into my system. It took me only a short time of reading your stories for the wisdom to sink into my heart and fill me with the resolve to do what I need. Much love and thanks! Trying to get over my feelings about posting a picture of my naked boobs, so for now...

Hi all. First, I'm expressing a lot of fears here. I see that. This usually isn't my normal state. I've been through a lot (like most of you) and,while I wouldn't wish the challenges upon anyone, I have learned a lot about myself. I've come to terms with many things and learned how to be in flow and create the least amount of stress in life that I can. When the explant thing came up, I notice that I've reverted right back to anxiety. I'm trying so hard to not try and control things, but to allow them to happen in divine timing.

Yesterday I went to have what I thought would be an easy check in with my MD to get a letter clearing me for surgery. I need the letter before I can schedule which I totally get and find reasonable. My doc decided that before she'll give me the letter she wants a full stress test done on my heart. That sets me back another 2 weeks and I'm so sad! Because I have Lyme, I can easily go to fear that there may be something going on with my heart. And if there is- can I not have the surgery I need to get rid of the implants that may be making me sick? Or, will I be able to be cleared and this will just be information that's important for the surgeon and anesthesiologist to know? Has this happened to anyone else? I obviously don't want to put my life in danger, but uh, I'm thinking not having surgery also puts my life in danger. Oh my.

Now, I'm okay to schedule. Just waiting on a doctor note. Is it nuts that I have not actually talked to Dr. Pousti on the phone, just through emails and already feel that he is the one? Anyone else schedule with him after just doing emails? Since I have to travel to have the surgery I'm wondering if I'm not being very smart to just go. Of course, I know I'm having the surgery period. I need to get them out. But, after having a consult with a local doctor and really not liking his vibe, or his super confident expression of what I should do- as in not have the capsule removed- I'm wondering if I'm not thinking clearly. Perhaps I need to talk to him in person before I hop on a plane. :)