Planning on a revision

I realized all of my images are of me flexing my muscular deformity, so here's a shot of me laying down from a boudoir session I did for my husband last year. I photoshopped my nipple scars off... so there is that lol

Well it's been I don't even know how many years since my surgery, but I'm finally at the point where I'm not in tears every time I see myself in the mirror. I have pain in my left breast at night when I lay in my side and the bottoming out, weird muscle thing seems more pronounced. The scar in my right breast is still very wide. But I look good in clothes and I guess that will have to be enough. People have no idea my breasts are fake and are shocked when I tell them, I've even had two friends ask what was used in my surgery as far as implants and technique. Now, none of these people have seen the nipple or muscular deformity, but it's nice to hear they look nice when covered.

If I think too hard about it, I still get sick to my stomach that we paid so much and I am ashamed of my naked body, but my husband has been amazing and never made me feel like anything less than beautiful. Bottom line though is at I ruined my nipples and they will never look the same. I live in Hawaii now and after much research have decided I would never let any of the doctors here do a revision, so I'm stuck until we move back to the mainland at least. On the plus side, the surgery is almost paid off.